the ultimate camwhores u never knew :p

!!! US !!!

people that dont break my heart!!!

(hmm.. ok only sometimes, when im mad at them)

my sister is pretty here! so i decided to post:p (even though im blurred) hahah~

ME! and im not denying that i camwhore in the past~

ahahaha~ Stupid:p

胡夏 Hu Xia「愛 都是對的」完整版MV

nice song:) thank you for introducing this song to me:)

love it:)

didnt miss out on a great song:D

i really missed us.

but since u dont want to go back le.

then lets move on with our lives bahs..

胡夏 Hu Xia「愛 都是對的」完整版MV

nice song:) thank you for introducing this song to me:)

love it:)

didnt miss out on a great song:D

i really missed us.

but since u dont want to go back le.

then lets move on with our lives bahs..

have i gotten used to it?

hmmm..

林育羣-一個人生活MV

小胖！！！ 好可爱哦!!!

he is power man and so cuteee~^^

he 翻唱 until very naise:)

my all time favourite song:D

李聖傑 - 抱歉MV

李圣杰 - 抱歉 作词：李焯雄 作曲：李圣杰&谭志华 忘了我们是在什么时候 选择放开彼此的手 忘了我们为了什么理由 才会让你一个人走 为什么总在失去后才懂得 才发现你对我最重要 为什么到后来我才有听说 你最爱的人还是我 多想妥协 多想眷恋 我想你在身边 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 还是你在敷衍 忘了我们是在什么时候 选择放开彼此的手 忘了我们为了什么理由 才确定不能再挽留 为什么总在失去后才懂得 才发现你对我最重要 为什么到后来我才有听说 你最爱的人还是我 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 还是你在敷衍 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 但你却说 抱歉

the mv is a little weird.

but lee sheng jie's songs are always so true.

his lyrics totally speaks whats in my heart n mind.

listen alrd got the heart pain feeling.

hais... ive nvr tried singing a guy's song.

but if can, i confirm can put in alot of emotions de...

hmmm~

haiz. y? y not? :)

One thing i really canoot understand

is that why isit when 2 person still like each 0ther,

they cant be together.

wait till fate.

haha..honestly, fate just comes once.

either u grab it and treasure it.

or u crush it and lose it.

to me, its a one time thing.

its nvr going to come back.

u let a chance pass u by, its nvr going to come back again.

I missed you.

but i guess this feeling would pass by very quickly

just like how i used to feel sad about us.

now, its just emptiness and void of any emotions for you. hm

looking forward:)

Presentation today. damn scary.

omg. im freaking out le. 50 more mins till i leave home.

goto calm myself down and soothe out these nerves.

hahahha~

hopefully its the last presentation of my 3 yrs in poly.

phew...

so fast jiu 3 yrs le.

many many many things happened during these 3 yrs.

1. Family matters:(

2. The start and the end of many heartbreaking relationships and 暧昧关系。

how i have learnt and gained so much knowledge from these good and bad experience.

of cos, there are good times together, but its the bad times that i learnt smth:)

3. i started my singing path and how i worked hard and improved myself:D

anyway, these times were gone pretty fast. but i shant say it was gone in a flash though.

cos its really hard at times, stuggling to meet datelines and submissions.

hahahah~

Angilica Ong:D

P.S im seeing myself looking forward already:) instead of wallowing in all that sadness^-^ although my heart still sour up sometimes..

10 more mins till i close my tap.

SILENCE is Golden??

There is like a strange emptiness in me.

like everything has gone calm and still....

Too calm.

its like a large part of me has been dug out and thrown away.

nothing is interesting nowadays.

everytime i ask u to stop msging me,

my heart would sour up a little.

its ironic. i want u to stop but i dont want u to stop:/

Our Break.

The first 2 -3 days, it was horrible.

the tears.

i just cant stop it.

it just keeps flowing...

Now that everything in me has been emptied,

there is this strange stillness and silence in me.

like as if i never knew u before.

am i really getting over u alrd?

is this the right feeling to feel?

i no longer know.

i just know that i was really really really upset the past 2 -3 days.

after that i am just numbed from all emotions.

is that how u felt?

i guess so bahs:/

Hais.. if only we could turn back time.

I really need Somebody sturdy.

Somebody who is sure of his feelings for me.

Somebody who support me in whatever i do.

Somebody who loves me.

and whom i love back of cos...

it's really sad. cos this person is hard to find.

and i thought that u were the one.

but u gave me a suprise.

a sad suprise :(

O well...

I just hope, if u r reading this, that u will treat your next one better.

and don't break her heart like this just because you're unsure of your feelings.

I Went to the beach this morning and thought it through...

I had enough of crying.

the reason i cried is because our break was too sudden and fast.

and u are a good guy.

and the thought of all our good times together.

how we were so loving.

But.

While i forget the love i have for you,

Tonight is the last time i'm going to cry because of you.

because i have learnt to be strong...

but regretfully and sadly, the hard way.

Angie.

P.S everytime i go through these hurtful times, a new me comes out.

a new girl who have gone through a lesson i learnt something:)

Thank you really.

Cos now that i got so much emotions, i can put all these hurt in my songs le:)

Thank you.

moving on? its hard....

Weird.

my heart doesnt feel anything anymore.

but whenever my brain think of what we used to be and do,

those little droplets will just keep falling.

Non-stop.

seriously-.- i mean isit even worth???

this is lame. goto stop likeee.... NOW!

Freak man. wth :/

Honestly, u cant be frens with someone u still love-.-

come on la. true right.

hais. nvm.

i tend to emo more at night. when im alone.

been so tired of it.

should quickly move on and forget about all these.

just like wad i did to all my previous r/s ...

Angilica Ong

:(

:( Horrible feeling!!!

hate it hate it.

i would love to go back to the past.

what happened to us?

mayb i was too busy.

mayb u got bored.

hais..

i dont want all this to happen!

don like don like do like :'(

:'/

Today is Friday the 25th.

I am filled with mixed emotions.

Fyp is finally over le.

After 4 freaking months of tedious research and planning and designing and lack of slp and the evolving of eye bags(which im going to kill)and the deteriorating skin and the 'no life' life-.- zzz.

FINALLY! IT IS FREAKING OVER! muahahhahahha~ but then again im still busy with stuff.

Now comes the not so happy part...

hm...

'Feeling of a frend?'

When u said that to me, my stomach turned inside out.

Those feelings that i have ever felt in the past when those past bastards hinted the same thing, came back.

Well, mayb u dont know. I've got this horrible shadow that ive been under ever since that horrible person that i told u about appeared.

But then, u appeared. and i thought everything is going to be alright le. cos u r a good guy who would nvr do this to me. and i started to trust in love again.

Slowly, i opened up bit by bit to u.

BUT

Sudddenly ur attitude changed. No more I love you-s. no more i miss you. no more i want to meet u every single moment.

I recognised these symptoms once again, after hving gone through so many countless of bastard guys.

U say u might be thinking too much. well, i say not.

Hm... i dont know anymore.

It's hard to come out of that darkness.

Yet now i find myself retreating back again.

It's hard u know.

especially after the hurt i got so many times previously.

Now its back to square one.

Hard to open up.

Hard to trust

.

.

.

Hard to Love :'/

.................................................................................Angie...............................................................................

One do not need complicated and flowery words to describe how one feel just a few simple words describe what u feel

: I am sad n worried

Is this how u see things?

in ur point of view now.

no wonder u think u r right. hmmm..

To My Baby.

1 Month and 7 days.

And i love my baby more and more!

Loving somebody is when u know a person for a long time,

and u dont get tired of him/her.

Instead, u find that those small little things he/she do is getting cuter and cuter to you.

And u r loving every single moment with him/her

and dont wanna be apart.

i got this feeling^^

but...hmm...nvm:)

Dar. i hope we would last longggg^^

Ai Ni.

STREssssssss

I WANT TO DIE LIAO !!!!!!

hahhahaha..

these words come from a very stressed out person.

so pls dont take me seriously.

i.am.going.to.do.a.lot.of.things.after.fyp!!

i tell u...i say this but when holiday comes, i will have no freaking idea wad to do.

lols..

Whooooooooooooo~ stress ahhh. need fa xie abit.

but how...?

Fate of Love

I LOVE MY BABY!!!

爱死你了！！！

but honestly, love is scary.

cos u love a person but u dont know if he/she really loves back .

or isit just a superficial thing he/she is giving u.

u dont really know whats going on in their mind.

One day, they might say I LOVE YOU.

another day, they might say lets break.

i seriously have no idea y i think so much these days.

freaking hate it when my mind does all these kind of thinking.

These kind of unneccessary, but 'what if' thoughts.

mayb its bcos smth happened to the pple arnd me.

looking at wad he has done to her provoked those horrible memories of my past r/s.

i would nvr want to go through those terrible moments again.

Hopefully...u wouldnt

too much le bahs.

i think too much...

i feel too much...

maybe thinking back about all those feelings would allow me to sing better bahs.

letting those emotions ive experienced before flow through the songs i sing.

but still, hving a little of those feelings back in me is making me emo...

valentines and stuff...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!!!!!!!

:D 140211 is a day for those lovely couples to celebrate.

and of course for those lonely to emo.

lols.

but me,

I LOVE MY BABY!!! hahahaha

so busy, got submission the next day, got test to study got report to do.

so tired still come meet me...

but hor so tired go home and play game-.-

hahhah :p

anyway, despite being in love,

smth happened today.

A fren's (they are ok now though.thank god) experience reminded me of how love can be really hurtful and scary at times.

reminded me of my past r/s...

reminded me that actually loving too hard might sometimes not be such a good thing after all...

But then again. baby dont worry. its just harder for me to open up to love again. but i still love you. UNLESS u dont love me le. then jiu too bad lo...

aww

so cute right!?!?!?!?!

When a girl is silent

Read this somewhere..

Pretty interesting and a little true.

When a girl is silent, that's pretty dangerous.

She's either...

Overthinking,

Tired of waiting,

About to blow,

Lonely,

Needs a hug,

Falling apart

Or crying inside.

and most probably all of those above.

Bo Si Kan :/

today is the 9th le.

then its the 11th.

finally the 14th.

sighhh. no time luhh.

whr has all the time gone to!?!?

品冠 - 我以為 ( 下一站，幸福 )

I Love This Song A LOT. It's Not describing what i am in now though, but what i was going through last time. i think many people would have gone through this kind of feeling that this song is trying to depict bahs. Really hope i know i how to post the song here. but oh well, this song is really nice. go find it :)i recommend this song to people who likes to emo every now and then, like me. hahah.

It's by :品冠

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.
我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

UPDATE.

It's been ages since i last blogged.

Luckily somebody reminded me.

hahaha.. if not this will be like totally forgotten.

Today is the 7th of feb liao. so fast...

very soon jiu 11th liao. and i still duno wad to get for that somebody.

(OH-.- Rolex watch is like out le horrrrrrrrrrr unless i strike toto :P)

Then still got valentine's. OMG

so many things are going on. feb is a damn busy and stressful month.

cos of fyp and everything:/

Hm... I tend to procrastinate.

And cos of this, I AM DYING A REAL SLOW .TERRIBLE. PAINFUL .DEATH.

Seriously. i should kick away this bad habit of mine.

still got 2 more weeks left.

I need to do storyboard and 3D and complete my model by then.

shit shit shit :(

*Dear i might not have a lot of time for u again. till this two weeks is over. sorry:/*

Thats all bahs. wont really be updating till the 2 weeks is up.

busy Busy BUSY!!!!

I AM A HAPPY GIRL!!!

hahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahah

LOVE ? wads that?

How to sustain a good relationship? (my views)

1. Being honest.

2. Having trust.

3. Being open and transparent with each other.

4. Respect privacy

5. Enjoy the presence of each other

6. Being supportive

7. Care a lot ..A LOT

8. Loving the people they love

9. share ur happiness and woes together...

.

.

.

.

of course there are many more.. endless actually.

but still.it would finally all come back to the one word.

.

.

.

LOVE ...

and always show your love. dont hide it :)

Glad we had an open talk ytd ^-^

if not i think those problems might accumulate eventually.

We definitely DO NOT want that.

Anyway, solve le jiu hao:D

im sure in future there would be many such probs but im sure we will overcome them:)

love you dear:)

*And of cos i can read ur mind. hahah the word "problem" is written all over ur face and in your eyes the whole night. lols. plus u act differently too*

HATE YOU TTM

I have always thought you dont deserve to be happy after u hurt me like this.

How could u just be free and happy with another person after damaging someone's heart.

Seeing u so happy, makes me mad.seriously.

But then again, u r nothing to me already.

I mean from the start, u weren't anything.

So it shouldn't really matter.

Honestly, the thought of revenge did cross my mind like a billion times.

but, hais.. what would that do.

u wont fall for it de.

Being successful in everything is the best revenge bahs.

Showing u that i am much better off without u,

that I can be somebody.

Its your loss that u lost me.

Really hate you... at that time.

Looking at you now,

i just think that i wouldn't wanna be with someone like this.

Nor would i want to be somebody like you.

Hate you, but if i were to be successful one day, thank you.

Gie~

event later going prepare now.

phew FYP is really going downhill for me. gotto buck the hell up.

if not i would die terribly.

sian.

New Everything

NEW YEAR

NEW PEOPLE

NEW LIFE

NEW START

I WILL forget about those thoughts of ever trying to get those lousy people back into my life again.

I MUST stop these negativity from entering into my life.

ok, even if they have to (cos we still have to learn from mistakes right)

they must be from these new people that i have met.

Old ones.. hm lets just say being friends is always the best excuse.

Or best still, lets keep it to minimal contact :)

My life is kinda back to normal now,

no painful heartbreaks, no headache-ing worries. no nothing.

worries still have of cos, but not unnecessary ones:D

YAY!

Loves,

A New Me^-^

MERRY XMAS

Plans SketchUp Model Crit.

Omg.

Sighhhhh~

Merry Belated Xmas!

2010's christmas was ok, not much excitement but i cant say it wasnt fun either.

Had a shot at vodka.

And i mean really one shot.

The main purpose of drinking is just to try and see wad im like when im drunk.

Well, turns out when im drunk i get really, as in REALLY quiet AND sleepy.

But honestly, im a lousy drinker. hahah.

a little bit only i peng le. Lols~

Another purpose of drinking is to let myself sleep better.

In the end cos of that shot,

i woke up with a splitting headache -.- zzz..

Im never going to get myself drunk again.

The hangover is seriously.....unbearable.

Eh..I Dont understand how come pple go and get themselves wasted,

feeling terrible and horrible after that.but then go back and drink again.

Hahah..for me, i experience once jiu hao le.

unless somebody guan me, im not going to force myself to get drunk again.

Other than those,

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

i love this festive season.

the atmosphere and environment just feels different.

Like as if its going to snow anytime.

hahahah~ *i just have a wild imagination ok heh XP*

The Happy without thinking about FYP and drunk once jiu hao de Angie signing off :)

bleahsss~

Oh. The curry kept from the party was spoilt.

And........I ate it -.-

Hmm..

Been super busy with Singing n events. sigh.

Really hectic life.

Seriously need to plan my time now le.

if not i would D.I.E by the end of the holiday.

And To You.

Im really sorry

Seriously.

Really hate myself for doing this to you or anybody as a matter of fact.

What comes round goes round and i believe in that.

angilica

Dont Assume.

Ass-u-ming just makes an ass out of you and me.

No, you and you.

Not everything is about u ok.

Move on please.

a thought

Have u ever thought of turning back time?

To a time when u regretted doing something..

or NOT doing something?

Well, different people have different case.

Some might regret not saying goodbye cos its too late.

Many might regret meeting a right person at the wrong time, or vice versa.

Others might regret doing something they did which they think it was wrong.

Most would regret saying or doing something that is irreversible.

I dont know..

Maybe its all about having the right timing, meeting the right person and doing the right thing.

People grow up. I would too :)

The past is the past.

LEARN and grow.

Btw, im writing all these subconsciously..

dont know what im writing also. haha

so dont ask me y. and i am NOT emoing.

im just saying what is in my mind ok.

so dont ask..

Smiles~

Angilica Ong.

TO YOU!

To people who are reading my blog...

i am not emo-ing la :D

hahaha.. just that sometimes i get these thoughts in my head that i need to say out.

but not verbally.

and not through fb (because there are too many unfamiliar people and whenever i write i have to think of wad pple think.)

i just felt that through blog i can express my feelings and thoughts more freely without people commenting all the time:)) in a more private yet still private way..

hahaha.. so no worries k :)

if im emoing, fb would hv a lot of my status saying how emo i am de. Lolsss..

Sometimes. I wonder

Sometimes i wonder why the person i like doesn't like me back.

Sometimes i wonder why i dont fancy the person that likes me.

How does this world works?

No wonder they say that there is only one such person in the world who is meant for you.

Who would hold your hand and never let go.

Who would love you for who u are

Someone who loves you and whom u love back.

But i am wondering where is mine.

I am always, ALWAYS in this sickening cycle.

I like him, he likes me.

We got close.

Then i knew he is actually not that good after all.

Then i get these heartbreaking heartbreaks

and i would emo for a while,

trying to heal myself.

Wondering who would come and cure my emo-ness away.

Then some guy would pop up again.

AND,

the cycle repeats itself.

To guys out there...

Please, please please please dont play with a girl's feelings.

she will definitely remember u for life.

Thats for sure.

She might say she has forgiven u on the outside.

But deep inside.

There is this wound that would never really heal Properly. Fully.

So decide first before u court a girl.

Decide fast if u want to end.

Never let urself procrastinate...

Dont let the girl like u then tell her that u never actually liked her.

Dont do things that will hurt her.

Dont let a girl cry for you.

Be a man.

Angilica Ong

just some thoughts

FYP :/

I cant say im bored

cos i should really be doing the project.

But then again, i really am feeling bored of my life

Like its devoid of something...

hmmm...

Well, i guess i am bored of FYP.

Yes. thats the way i should say it.

Oh Gosh.

FYP is killing me. Seriously.

Damn. its not easy man. and there is still like how many...3 more months left sia!!!!

Doesnt sound long.

but it IS long ok...................................

OKOK.

its short-.-'''

but its torturous to go through these few months.

Jia You bahs. Haixxx... Bo Bian:/

Where Are You?

Is there really no one suitable out there for me?

I mean the more i think of who is possible, the more i realise there is no such person.

So Scary.. i think im going to die alone and single.

hahahah..

they always say sun qi zi ran.

but hm... i dont know la.

and they also say the more u want it, the more he doesnt come.

i think this is true.

P.S pls dont ask me who is 'they' cos i have no freakin idea either.

I guess its all up to fate le bahs.

hopefully Fate will treat me better from now on...

Angilica Ong ^-^

So many things so little time.

Now is FYP time le.

No more R/S stuff for me.

kinda sick of it, if i have to imagine myself walking through all these misery once again.

Now, as long as i dont think of him, i am happy.

Even when i think of him, i still remain kinda happy.

just a bit pek chek only.

Guess i have FINALLY gotten over him little by little le:D

WELL DONE!! Whoooo~ *clap clap* ^-^

hahah xp

Oh. and im also going to concentrate on learning new things.

I've said this for a long time, i know.

but i really wanna learn guitar.

Seriously no idea what is stopping me from going to learn it.

Lols.And i wanna learn how to dance tooooo.

Hopefully can get them fulfilled by next year.

Oh. and my driving lessons -.-''' need to learn le.

ARGH the feeling again.

Still feeling a little regretful about the decision i made:(

BUT AIYAH!!!

Should heck care le.

Since you dont really care jiu suan le bahs.

The ending of us might still be this way.

Im feeling stupid now.

getting upset all by myself here

when you are ok there.

but then again, the feeling is really H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E

Even till now, though everything might seem alright now.

but inside im still struggling to get out of this shitty feeling.

Feeling alone.

Oh Gosh. hope the feeling would go away soon.

GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY!!!

:(

A New Turn. A New Challenge. A New Me

ITS TIME...

Hate my Life now.

Need some changes to get my life right.

Need to set a/some Goal(s) and Target(s).

Need to get myself up and going again.

Yes, thats right.

IT IS TIME TO STOP EMOING LE.

i have had enough le.

This is not the life i want!

No, definitely NOT.

Not worth wasting it on useless stuff.

Should Stop trying to make myself get over him but just leave it as it is le.

things would turn out right someday:) ...

True that I had an lousy experience this time.

Though there were definitely happy times..

Another Lesson Learnt, store it & stop dwelling on it,

It's time to move on ...

In Life there are always Up and Down.

Well, guess im having my down side this time round

Thankfully, i have been hurt much much worse than this before.

So I can definitely take it this time:)

Put on a Brave Front no matter how painful it is now and move my ass,

Get myself outta this shit !!!

A Positive Mind would Attract Positive Prospects and in turn get Positive Results (^-^)

It's time to Grow Up again :)

P.S Thank you pple out there who has given me their support:) really appreciate it.

THANK YOU :)

sian sian sian sian sian

Waaaa..i seriously seriously dont like this sian diao de feeling man.

Haix... think don't fall in love is better.

Cant bear another heartbreak le.

i think i can die...

Why must u turn out to b like this.

if dont have feel jiu dont start mah.

start liao then somebody confirm will get hurt de lo.

Mayb this is retribution. Karma ah ~

Healing wounds in process...

I HATE YOU!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A piece of advice to you.

Want a r/s jiu dont flirt. Flirt liao is lidat de lo. Regret le bahs?

Better go get her back.

Who wouldn't want their partner all to themselves?

Now u know wads the feeling le bahs.

Stupid lo u.

After she come back

Don't do it again le.

Thats the reason i left u too.

But i guess she is more unfortunate to have to go through wad i have been through.

It hurts like HELL ok.

So u better listen up and be FAITHFUL.

Stupid Guy...

Now that we r frens le. im giving u this piece of advice.

TREASURE HER.!

Im glad i dont love u anymore.

Angilica Ong

For the people out there

I found this somewhere.. pretty interesting.

To My Friends Who Are.......... .SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............ NOT SO SINGLE

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.


To My Friends Who Are............ PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE

Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works
both ways...


To My Friends Who Are........... .MARRIED

Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'


To My Friends Who Are............ ENGAGED

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how
good you are for each other.


To My Friends Who Are............ HEARTBROKEN

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to
go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.


To My Friends Who Are............ NAIVE

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.


To My Friends Who Are........... .POSSESSIVE

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............ AFRAID TO CONFESS

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............ STILL HOLDING ON

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.

To You.

I don't need somebody who just contact me as and when he likes.

Why do i want to find somebody who tortures me so much?

I should stop playing the fool already.

There are so many people out there who genuinely cares about me.

Your kind of action always tell me that you already don't care.

So why the hell am i still waiting hopefully for an answer to this humongous question?

U contacting me is so little that i no longer sit there waiting for it.

Yes,

A Clever Girl Should Learn How To Protect Herself from Harmful Boys.

Virgo.

Virgos are rationale creatures.

this is a statement, not a question.

well i guess so.

Cause i always think too much ...

Feeling frustrated :/

Why do i keep going back when I already sorted out my thoughts.

Playing.playing.playing.playing.playing.playing.

Nothing else le.

We are impossible.

Can't go back to what we used to be~

I'll just have to accept and move on...

Need to go and walk it out le.

Virgority Angilica

Terrifyingly in Love (Like)

And I~ in love...

And I~ am terrified.

.Terrified by Katherine McPhee ft Zachary Levi .

So true right?

From the moment u refused to answer

I knew it.

And from that point on,

I gave u up.

It's tiring to think that its possible.

It's exhausting to just hold on to this, alone.

It's irritating to believe that u like me.

Life goes on though, doesn't it?

Just put on a brave front,

store the past away

and move on...

I shall find myself a better one

who treats me better than u did.

and treasures me more than u thought u did.

Somebody.

It's hard though,

for 2 person to have mutual feelings

and have their actions appreciated and reciprocated.

but o well, either he comes or he don't.

But You,

u had ur chance and u decide to just leave it hanging.

It's pretty obvious, the choice u made.

Though u didn't make it known.

I like you,

but to have it one sided is really really...

So i have decided.

I shall make the desicion for you.

No, for Us.

Cheers to the days to come for us.

Angilica ("/)

TIRED TTM!

Malacca was pretty ok...

BUT

come back need to complete assignment

slongside FYP..zzz

Tired TTM man!

the whole world around me is like spinning le.

cant stand it , going slp le.

Opinion changed.

Mindset changed.

Target corrected,

Goal SET.

Presentation tmr.

Sian diao

disappointed today man.

tot can go out aft submission

yuan lai still got presentation...

SERIOUSLY hor...

HAIX

:p

Hm. want to learn :

guitar and dance.

hahhahah

im greedy mannn~

lols.

:/

:( i also don wan to ask those qns.

but u never show properly.

haix. stupid you.

hm.

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?

Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

SHOULD I???

What if..... I Did?

Dont like Playboys.

They break hearts.

Y cant they just settle down with a girl

and love her with all their heart.

Guess thats y they call them Playboys..

A person's heart is very VERY fragile

That's y its being protected by so many other body parts.

Once its injured it heals really slowly

but no matter how 'healed' it is

it will always leave a scar.

and a lesson learnt, the hard way.

I've learnt mine..

and i am scared of repeating the same mistakes again.

for fear of getting hurt. Again.

haix

Busy Tues

Busy Wed

Get Lost,Please.

OMG. Please Go Away

Damn fed up with you.

you should know its over already.

We are a thing of the past le...

I just want a normal life.

Why do u keep coming back and now u want to intrude into my life.

Who are u to say what i should do??

You are nobody to stop who i wanna be with.

Or who i dont.

Please understand that i really dont like u around me.

Stop trying to interfere.

Dont do stupid things.

Dont make me hate you...

Helpless.

Angilica Ong

The Beach-y feeling is coming back again.

Want to just go there and sit and listen music and think~

But no time..

haizz~

piaaa!!!

SCH STARTED.

WORKLOAD IS....HAIX.

FYP, PIA LIAO!!!

1/2 yr more~

错的人

Adpated from:

萧亚轩 Elva – 错的人

明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑...

愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲

太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身...

Exactly wad i am going through and feeling... love songs that is like this.

totally speaks my mind.

OMG.

Seriously. The sian diao de feeling is indescribable.

yes, school going reopen le-.-... if its just modules im ok.

its..FFFFYYYYPPPPP~

no mood to type le.

bye.

12 songs!?

明天的十二首歌。。。

令我感到很害怕

怕没有把握。由其是那几首新歌。。。

惨了！！！我完蛋了得加倍练习

一直听一直听。听到苦瓜烂熟为止。

加油吧:)

Please forgive me if there are any errors above.

hahah.. im not really good at writing it out:p

but seriously goto keep listening and singing..

if not huh... like 表白。。。(ahem*for those who know ha..:p) jiu die le.

going 加倍努力了！！！

byebye

Angilica Ong.

Changed.

I dont like changes.

Drastic ones esp.

Your attitude change.

change change change

i dunno, mayb to u, u dont think so.

but to me, its kinda irritating.

i am the kind of person who would think a lot.

so pls, if u dont tell me anything.

Can u imagine wads running through my mind

if u like just say. dont like also just say mah.

i might get offended.

but its better this way.

i like strght forward pple.

thats all.

Sian already lo

Sch is starting and im getting freaking scared.

cos that means FYP is starting too.

im not really ready for it yet.

5 fREAKING MONTHS LUH!!!

sian diao-.-

busy le from now on..

SuPeRStiTioUs??

I think i am a pretty superstitious person.

In terms of horoscope n fate n things like that.

NOT the black cat kinda superstitious.

But its sometimes irritating to be superstitious.

Its tiring and exhausting

Cos you'll tend to think too much.

I dont like it this way.

But my mind controls me too much.

Frustrated.

Movie Preview。。。信不信，由你

The first 3 days of my 2 weeks holiday has been wasted.

SERIOUSLY.

Omgggg~

i want to go out. i NEED to go out.

Contd like this i will DIEEE. REALLY.

feeling super pek chek already.

Wanna get my messy hair done.

but dunno want to do what with it.

i want to keep it long and natural

dont wanna reborn...

but currently, its pretty unkempt.

BURLESQUE

And i really am getting crazy over burlesque.

looking at the preview only will gimme goosebumps.

Christina is really good man.unbelievable.

Cant wait. but its coming out only in november...

SO LOONNNGGGGG~

Sighhh!!

BURIED

Went to watch Buried too, with my er jie.

The process was not bad. just super dont like the ending.

Oh. and throughout the movie we were mainly kept in the dark.

cos it was in the coffin throughout the whole damn show.. hahahah

Seriously. people who has got fidgety butts, Please. dont go and watch this.

It is a fantastic show with all the mixed emotions expressed out nicely by filming just a single man in a coffin throughout the show.

But honestly, i wouldn't sit through it again.

童眼

Looking forward to 童眼

Starring Rainie Yang... saw the preview in the movies

and i was scared until i just kept stuffing the popcorn into my mouth nonstop while my eyes were staring at the screen.

Thinking back. its really damn funny~

My first horror in the movies.

i usually watch it at home... so um.. i THINK i am looking forward?

hahah... i dunno also. i think i am la.

Update soonnn:) slping early.tmr got a day of work..zzz-.-

I am feeling super demoralised..

i know my standard drop le.

the more u criticise me, the more i cant do well.

i am different from others.

Normally pple need a lot of critisms to agitate them and improve themselves.

BUT. of cos, critisms are neccessary.

but enough means enough. adequate critisms jiu hao le

dont overdo it.

you overdo it, and my lvl of confidence would drop.

and it would take a long time to get it back again.

feels so stressful now when i hear others sing...

LOVE HER LUH

I AM LOST

OMG!!! Burlesque!!!!

I am so damn, freaking going to watch that.

Starring my favourite girl^.^

LOVE HHER LUHHHH~

so li haiiii!!

I SERIOUSLY AM GOING TO WATCH THAT!

omgomgomg. just saw the preview and my hair stood up~

YES, its THAT good.

love this kinda shows. glad she is inside.

Cos she is freakin BRILLIANT.

Oh, im talking about Aguilera. CHRISTINA AGUILERA.

=Angilica Ong=

DAMN IRRITATED

I get irritated recently...

think iknow y.

buticant help it.

OMG STUPID SPACE BAR!!!!!!!!

spoil again!?!?!??!?!!??!!

WTH luhhhhh~

wannabuy ASUS laptop.

feeling irritated AGAIN-.-

dontwant tok le. bye.

ANGIE >.<'''

BORIINNNNGGGGGG~

OMG NEED SMTH INTERESTING AND CHALLENGING TO 'BOOST' MY LIFE.

if i want to.... i must start.

OMG.fat.Fat.FAT!!!!

Eat.sit.work.eat.sit.work.eat.sit.work

everyday like that~

it has become a scary routine le.

need to exercise...

i want to learn guitar lei.. isit hard?

i want to learn he ying..

i want to learn how to write songs..

i want to find a proper music school for vocal lessons..

i want to learn to dance too..

i want to learn a lot of stuff.

i keep saying im busy im busy...

but somebody once said this to me..

no matter how busy u are, u would always find time to do the things u have passion for..

do i have a passion for what i like?

Idaresay,YES.

so i think i should go ahead with what i want to do.

and dont let 'no time' be an excuse to stop me.

before everything is too late and i start regretting,

i had better start.

... EXHAUSTED

MY COMP AT MY OFFICE KEEP DYING:((

damn stress when i go work luhhh~

like as if spoil is my fault lidat.

cant do anything there feels damn bad.

everyday come back feeling sooo tired

see laptop also no motivation to on liao.

sit there stone for a while jiu feel like slping le.

OMG whr did my life gooooo???

but, hahhaha, ironically, i like working life more than sch.

mayb there is lesser stress bahs... i dunno.

Singing~ p3 coming~ work~ stress~ omg alrd so tied down luhh

really need to relax a little le...

my life is getting complicating.

no good no good.

cos i cant handle complications well.

Angie.

MIXED FEELINGS. ONLY ONE HEART.

things to doooo

Found this website online and found it superly, damnly, freaking true...

http://new-year2007.blogspot.com/2006/12/everything-about-virgo.html

i mean maybe its because i happen to be somebody who believes A HELL LOT in horoscope.

but still, this is freaking TRUE ttm. SERIOUS!

Got a lot of things in mind and i need to get it cleared out and listed.

THINGS TO DO..

-Get a NICE purse/wallet

-wanna watch the donnie yen movie

-get a beautiful maxi dress & wear it.

-wanna jian fei ( but the more i say the more i dont do it :/ )

-do something about my music direction and where i am heading and what i want to do with it

- FREAKING FYP. need to get this settled.

- and ... (i have to make a worrisome and difficult desicion)

SO MANY THINGS TO DO LUHH..

im sure there's more. but thats all for now...

Angilica Ong

Mayb i should simplify things a little..

Come On~

Thats Interesting,

Dunno pple ACTUALLY come and read my blog.

BUT Y DONT U ALL POST IN THE CHATBOX?!

its getting lonely at the corner there all by itself~

hahah...

Shifting office now...

busy with work.

but one good thing about working is that i can really relax at night.

just A thought. NOT

OMG. everything is so darn sucky recently..

feeling lousy all of a sudden..

phsically, mentally, psychologically.

wanna hide away in some place ALONE,

where there is just the beach and i.

Feeling Fat and Bloated~~~

sian Sian SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Dont like the crowd, i want some peace and quiet luhhh~

i want to exercise like mad and sweat it out.

exercise and feeling fit does make u feel better.

and i m soooooo going to do just tad!

i want to change..

REALLY FEELING DAMN LOUSY LUHHHH~

(sorry for repeating that..)

BUT SERIOUSLY,

i just wanna hide and have time of my own with no other worries..

but i know thats like kinda, pretty much very much in fact, impossible.

Event

EVENT at hougang mall area later.

hope my voice wont close AND remain close.

Feeling weird today~ hm... dunno y..

Yesterday went out with you :)

and had fun meeting ur frens too.

You have great friends. hahaha~

will update again soon.

jiayou for the 21km ok!

rushing off NOWWWW!!!!

damn im LATE!

zomg..

FEELING SUPER SIAN TODAY. Oh ..and ytd night.
no idea why~
no mood larhhhhssss~

sigh

I want to be a SINGER.

but first, there are a lott to improve.

i've taken my first step out of my comfort zone, which is to be on stage.

almost a yr has passed since ive made tad step. i think its time to move on further.

there is not much time for me...

I love ur hugs, i love ur kisses.

But i love it more, when i know u love me :P

soo darn long mannnn

Finally saw u ytd :DD

BUT NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!

Im waiting Waiting, waitinngggg~ for the 14th

Soooo slowww larhhh~

Actually im a person who expresses myself better through writing.

I like to listen to pple talk but dont actually like to verbalise my words out.

Which is y i dont talk much.

will update again stay tuned arhhh!!! i know u will :p bleahs

30th Emotional August

30th august is a special day.

had time spent with my family.

went for a delicious dinner at tamp

THEN HAAGAN DAZZ^^ whoooo~

but cant have u by my side today :/

Actually today i had a sudden urge to go mandai today.

to visit Her.

ALONE. nvr tried going alone.

duno y also

suddenly felt emotional. like now.

miss her terribly much on these kinda special days.

feel like toking to her but knowing that she's not going to reply is upsetting.

:'/

my thoughts.

Sometimes im afraid that if i show u too much affection,

u would retreat back.

Thats y i've always been a little hesitant in expressing myself out.

I would really love to spend my special day with you.

but then again, you're right, there are other more important factors that comes first.

Family is definitely more important.

Hopefully one day, u would be able to join me and my family...

you're 22 and im 19(finally oficially 19 today)

thts 3 yrs apart... and u definitely think more than i do.

Im glad i met u, as i've always told u repeatedly, again and again.

Because..... i REALLY am GLAD.

To you!!!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :)))

Saturday night was enjoyable, though the tent had some problem with us(yes. it was the tent. NOT the other way round mind you). heehee.. but still, we managed to appease it in the end :p

LOVE THE PRESENTS!!!, and you haahahahhah...

Thanks you for the early birthday pressie and 'celebration' ^^

AND we definitely got to know each other better didn't we? bleahs~

But all in all, what i want to let u know is that i was lucky, very lucky in fact, to have u stepping into my life after all that rubbish r/s i have gone through in my latest previous one.

Aiyah, there's a lot i want to tell u. But its too public here.

go see ur FB message k :D

Angie.

Disgusted

Was on fb just now.

Scanning through wad pple were doing and i bumped into his photo.

Regretted clicking on it.

looked at the him now, and his life, with disgust.

how could i be so blind.

I mean his life is revolving arnd bu san bu si de pple.

Girls with their skirts so tight and short, looking like ah lians.

and everyone is smoking and drinking their lives away.

Why do i even want to be a part of this.

Im lucky and glad i never did.

Getting out of him was difficult, very difficult and heartbreaking. i admit.

But i am absolutely sure i do not EVER want to be/in a part of him again.

GROSSED OUT.

3 more days~

today is Thursday

tomorrow is Friday.

then its SATURDAY!

YES!

heehee~

DREAMING

WHEN IS SATURDAY COMING ???
Too longg liao lo one week.
hmmm.. if only i can shorten the days..heee :p
Then work jiu no need so many days.
lets see, if i were to set my days of a week this is wad i would do..

ANGIE'S WEEK

MONDAY

No work, slp at home and slack, go out shopping.

TUESDAY

Work day, 10am to 12pm

( come on, we still have to work dont we? hahahha so 2 hrs should be enough)

WEDNESDAY

Off day

(hahahah 2 hrs is too tiring i guess)

BBF day ^^

THURSDAY

Another 2 hours of work.

BFF day^^

FRIDAY

Boyfriend DAY!!!! (if i got one >.<)

SATURDAY

Singing Day cum Bf Day~

SUNDAY

Family Day

But seriously la, lols. that only happens in dream.

if in reality lidat, i would die of boredom

ohoh. and there would actually be no money for me to spend.

Oh well, its nice to dream sometimes...

DENG

WAIT WAIT WAIT~
humph...

Happy SATURDAY

Had a wonderful day ytd:)))
hahhaha~
Hopefully today de voice would turn out right too:D

Thank you for waiting for the whole day ytd, though u dont really listen to chinese songs^.^
Can understand how torturous it must have been for you to wait the WHOLE FREAKING DAY for me:P
Thanks dear:D <3
Missing you:P bleahs~

Even though its just for a short time,

im happy with the time i spent with youuu:)))

Just a normal friday

Tomorrow gt performance. whoooo~
after such a loonnnggg time.
and tmr is a special day
hahahhahah..*wink wink*
but wad to wear tmr for the performance sighhh~
hmmmm...

...

我现在很想一个人。。。

:))

INCEPTION is a freaking complicated and confusing movie but its also a DAMN nice and Well-plotted show. SOOOO happy i managed to catch it on screen before it comes down:))

Salt is not as bad too.. just that i dont understand why she wants to have this kind of job. Oh well, i guess she likes it *shrugs shoulders*

Still wanna watch movie though. sighhh~

Had a wonderful day today:) thanks to someone... hahah

well at least u gt to know a little bit more bout me that i do NOT usually act as feminine as i wear. hahahahah~

thats me. and thats the way it shall be. and ...

BEWARE, there's more to see and more to come~ heehee

feeling superrrr tired now, but i wanna finish my words...

To You:

Thanks for accepting whatever i told u on the phone the other night.

my past, my behaviours and actions that i once do, did, done.

Thank you for not judging but just listening & understanding me.

Weird as it is, but still, thank u for liking me for who i am:))

Of both the bad and the good.

This sole point alone has moved me inside;p

I'll miss you im sure;X

Angilica Ong.

P.S I've been too quiet when im with you. have not open up fully YET. but pls understand that this takes time..

To you :p

:DDD thanks for the walk back ^.^

thank god u got back in time.

wellll, Until its official.

i shant say more xp

:) singing day

Oh welll.

voice was ok only today

it was better than i expected but stillll...-.-

gonna train up for 21st and 22nd :DDD

looking forward^^

thanks for the support though:))

yes, YOU. hahaha~

not enough power lei..

might b cos i havent recover from my flu bahs..

humph. but i shall not make excuses for myself.

not good means not good.

must go improve jiu shi must go improve.

will do my best de:)))

climb stairs~

Angilica Ong~

ahahhahaha

I thought only i write the blog to let out my feelings. fullstop.

Didnt know that SOME people also got read my blog..

hahahhahah...

you know im toking about you! lols...

Salt~

Its damn Sickening to be SICK

so sianx cannn ...

just wanna eat med then slp.

but then again, i dont like medicine..zzz.

ohoh.. upcomin movie that i really, REALLY wanna watch~

SALT!! whoooo~ i love the plot.

hopefully the show doesnt turn out bad.

didnt manage to catch Inception.. o welll, nvm.. shall watch that another time:P

Him n Her

He Left Today

(Yesterday- 29/07/10, 9:10)

Great GREAT Man, dont think i would ever meet anyone greater.

Im glad he left for home so peacefully,

with no struggle or any signs of pain.

Thank God for that.

Rest In Peace, YeYe...

You know that we'll always remember and love you forever...

Missed her extraordinarily much today too.

O Well, we should be glad, Him n Her have left for such a wonderful place,

after all these time spent here. Guess it's time they really Really enjoy themselves:)))

We ought to be happy.

But of course there would be a great deal of misses and reluctance..

He was there for us when we need him,providing infinity love for us , told us all his stories, carried us when we were babies, watch us grow up as time goes by, all the time spent in malaysia, teaching us how to slice fruits, making swings for us, taking us to the beach...

Happy for Him though:) Just like I was for Her.

Loved and Missed.

Boyfriend? Competitons?

Life has been sooooo darn boring so far.

No boyfriend , finding one is tough enough already.

But Finding a good one, seriously~

thats like close to impossible.

Trust me. Sigh~ but i want one:( a long lasting one

i really have no idea y some girls like to date so many guys,

all within such a short period of time. 2, 3 months jiu end liao.

i think finding a serious one is better than wasting ur time,

healing a broken heart or breaking others heart.

A boyfriend..hmmm... sigh.

It's been a long time since i joined any competition liao

i think maybe i should go find and join some competitions again

to see where my standards are already.

What say u?

Been trying to improve my voice.

sometimes its good, sometimes it lacks power..

No idea y. trying to figure it out.

i want go K!!!

but no time:( only at night. and i cant stay out too late.. sians~

Miss all my girls out there:)

XOXO

Angilica Ong