Unhappy:/ ... PMS?

I hope that God she is worshipping on forgives her.

For doing wad she is doing now.

And for saying wad she has said.

People down here are very blind.

He thinks she feels guilty whenever we quarrel bcos of her.

BECAUSE she SAID so.

So if i tell you that she doesnt actually feel that way,

would you believe me?

(i dont think so. i have a feeling u take her more seriously than u take me.)

Cos somebody with a conscience and who feels guilty for doing it,

is less likely to repeat whatever wrong she is doing.

And yup, no apologies from her to me.

For treating my rs like this.

and treating me like rubbish.

So yup no sincerity.

and pls, if ure reading this, i know u r.

its no use forcing somebody to apologise when she doesnt mean it.

just stop talking and meeting her i would be happy le.

And lastly,

To her:

Thank you BITCH. i would thank u even more if u can just FUCK OFF.

Ok le.

But no matter how much i want to,

Things are nvr the same le...

Everything has changed le.

You have allowed it to repeat again and again,

believing in the wrong person.

I have let it affect me,

trusting the wrong person.

It seems ok now,

but we all know deep inside,

its different le :(

i would really do anything to let us be like how we first met again.

But its hard. Its really hard.

I've tried. i really did. i know u try too. and i am happy. i really am:)

but its just different le.

broken promises. broken trust.

I really had enough of this le.
I trusted u the first time round,
u broke it.
I gave u a second chance,
u broke it again.
I find it hard to trust u le.
then u said u would change.
and u really showed progress.
So i trusted u once more.
I gave u a third chance.
Now u have to go and break that trust again.
i SHOU GOU le.
wad do u take me as.
Somebody who is not impt??
just a fling or smth???!!!
u keep telling me that u and her are impossible alrd.
so y does she keep appearing in ur life.
do u know how impt family meetings are??
your EX can be there but ur GF is not.
y is that so?
and u keep lying to me.
i thought u had alrd kicked away that habit le?
i guess its hard for u right..old habits die hard.
u should just go back to be with that somebody u thought is 'impossible' with.
this is really really ridiculous.
WTH.

Relationship = Game

The Love Relationship is like a Game.

There are 3 endings to it.

It's either a win-win situation

where everybody lives happily ever after.

Or a win-lose situation

where the victor moves on and the loser breaks down

The last one would be the lose-lose situation.

It is where both parties do not want to leave but they have got no choice.

I would really want to experience the first option.

But Somehow, having to find the right one is really difficult.

Has he appeared alrd??

hmm...im still wondering and waiting for some signs...

P.s When u r in a rs with somebody, and he/she doesnt want to admit being in a rs with u.

and meanwhile keep telling other people that he is single, does this mean that he is not the right one? is it time to move on? or do i have to wait painfully and see?

?

Will you really Change?

THE 3 CRITS

Its simple what i want in a man.

• I want a man who is loyal and faithful (no flirting)

• I want a guy who can always be honest with me and doesnt lie (to share with me his ups and downs and all the stuff that happened to him in life)

• I want a guy who loves me for me and just me.

These are 3 sentence to summarise what i wrote initially.

This was wad i typed before ...

I REALLY REALLY want us to be happy tgt once more.

but i think its kinda impossible now le isnt it?

we cant go back even if we tried.

its sad seriously.

i dont know why u have to do this to me from the start.

Is it me?It must be me.

Did i not give u enough love?

Did i give u insecurities from the start?

Did i do smth wrong to u?

U might think i dont know anything that ure doing now.

but im sorry to tell u tht i do.

And im really sorry that we have to come to this kind of stage.

You know,

All im asking is for u to be loyal and not flirt arnd.

And love only me.

It's really that simple.

we can take away those swt talks

We can take away those presents.

What i want is really so simple.

To love me, only me.

To tell the truth, dont lie.

To be loyal and faithful, stop flirting

Thats all!

But its really difficult to accomplish those 3 criterias isnt it?

Can u see y i say we're like strangers alrd?

Because i found out i dont really know the person i thought i knew,

the perfect guy i want,

The you that doesnt lie,

The you that doesnt flirt.

The you who loves only me

that was last time. we were so happy..

Now, i had to know the real u.

thts y,now, ure just like a stranger.

A normal man. who does all of the above and is not ready for me.

not ready to get into a serious and real rs.

Its really upsetting.

I am not exactly happy right now.

Y does mine always go wrong?

How come some people de relationship can be so perfect?

Perfect as in they quarrel,

They make up.

They still stay in love

There is still trust.

How come mine cant?

Wads wrong with me?

I always thought i found the right man.

Everything was so perfect.

But out of all the things, the most important criteria of a rs has to be destroyed bcos u think its alright to do that.

I really feel wasted that our rs has to go wrong

bcos of what u had done

Its really such a waste.

Summary of my Thoughts 010711

This kind of thing just keeps repeating itself.

Then when we're about to try smth new to change it all,

You protest about smth

and we're back to square one.

This is really frustrating.

We each have our own faults i guess...

I know u've been changing.

and i believe that.Really.

but i still cant help feeling insecure due to the lack of trust.

Which is why i would keep saying stuff like that, hoping u would really promise me and gimme a confirmation that u wouldn't do it again.

but as u promise, u also said that u cant really confirm what's going to happen in future.

-.-''' isnt that as good as not saying whatever promises u made

Can u see now?

Lots of thoughts are going through my mind. and im supposed to give u an ans tmr.

Hopefully u would like it.

If we cant contd anymore,

then all the best to u and ur prospective girls in the future.

Hopefully one day u would find a girl who can tolerate ur (this) character.

If we were to have one more chance to move forward tgt again,

i really hope we wont fall back into this same pattern once more...

Beyoncé Performing "Independent Women, Bootylicious, Survivor, Bonnie & ...

i love her lei.
like ALOT!

We are a pair of sick couple-.-
zzz...
but thanks for sending me home when ure not feeling well baby.
:)
hopefully ure well enough today liao silly boy.
muacks!

Us

In the past,

We are like a plain smooth piece of paper.

Shortly after, it was taken and crushed hardly.

We picked it up and tried smoothening out again.

Now all thats left of us

are lines after lines of wrinkled past...

And what we are doing now,

is trying to iron out all the wrinkles

to make it as straight as possible.

to go back to what we used to be

But...

It's never going to be the same again.

-Angilica Ong-

My Feelings. My Origins

I missed the good old days.

The waking up in the early morning when i was still little and being dragged to mama's hse to contd sleeping there.

The walking to kindergarten downstairs.

The preparation of the times when i go Park View Primary.

The smell of fresh unpolluted air in my face when i wake up in the wee mornings to take a bus to Compassvale Secondary.

Sigh those were the days~

Don't be mistaken.

I wouldnt want to go back to those days.

i just want to sit/stand there and absorb in this feeling that im feeling once again.

Life is pretty different now compared to last time.

And i suddenly miss everybody so much.

(NOTE: past and present is diff. although they might be the same person)

Yi yi, my mama, my daddy,my cousins, my sisters(and those times we had), my friends, people who were involved in my life in the past(yes, good AND bad)

.... and HER.

I miss Mummy so soo much :'/

I should go visit her soon.

y am i feeling upset everyday? its frustrating.

I want to go Taiwan fa zhan.

then i dont have to fret over silly stuff everyday

and i can do my favourite thing.

SING!!!

i wish i could just sing everyday freely

as and when i like.

but i guess being out there alone,

i would eventually still miss everyone at home.

though im doing what i love.

my family and frens..

sigh.

but i would really love to leave this country and go to a place whr i belong...

now im just a confused and not really doing what i want de girl :/

who is constantly worrying abt rs stuff.

Really dont understand what is so difficult in what im asking from u.

everyone can do that cept u.

u keep brking my heart again n again.

u ask me what u should do so tht can i gain back tht trust

previously, i know what to do.

now i just totally give up on what i should tell u le.

zen me ban?

can somebody tell me what i should do to stop thinking abt you and ur nonsense?

can u stop hurting me?

why do u have to hurt me?

mayb that love is not strong enough for u to want to protect me.

I hate that i still love you

Im heartbroken to have to do this.

Really broken.

I even want u to come back to me.

But Im afraid that everything would start repeating itself again.

being stuck in a cycle with no way out is tiring enough.

knowing that u think that whatever u have done is alright and u have not done anything wrong to me kills me even more inside...

Im sure you would make a good friend.

And yes, just friends. normal friends.

unlike ur current behaviour with that other somebody now.

thts not normal..

i should show u what normal means.

It really breaks me inside.

I love you.. but im going to get rid of this soon.

WJH.

Us.

Only 3 months have passed...

it sounds so short yet it felt so long

so much stuff has happened between us during this time,

you've suffered.

she has suffered too.

and i keep taking in blows after blows till i hv reached my max.

Now everything seemed to have quietened down.

everything seems like they are back to normal le

but honestly, the feeling between us is kind of different alrd.

At least thats what i feel.

mayb u dont feel it, but i do.

Before, we were in a peaceful n happy place

then that horrible hurricane has to come bcos u didnt settle some of ur past properly.

Not say didnt, u just dont see a need to settle it i guess.

what worries me, is that u dont think that it is a big deal to stay in contact with her in that way.

You want ur rs with me to last. but then u 2 keep doing stuff like this.

Sometimes when i would wonder y am i still here torturing myself.

i would ask myself, do i still love u as much? do you truly love me? is whatever u tell me true? have u been honest with everything? can i trust you?

now, all we were left are all the remains and destruction of that hurricane.

its all left in bits and pieces all over the place, exactly what im feeling now.

It's a horrible feeling.

Hopefully you can piece back all those pieces together.

And we would be alright like before.

And its great that u r honest with me now, like i have been to you all along.

Sometimes i trust u sometimes i dont.

Most of the times, i would think if u r still hiding things from me..

hais.. hopefully nth is going to happen in the near future le.

if not i seriously cant take it le..

SHITTY STUFF

Shit man.

i just posted that i love you so much

and i had to discover another lie.

what the hell.

can somebody kill me pls?

cos my heart cant take such stuff anymore.

you know i really do love you.

I know how getting insecured feels.

But, unlike me, u can put ur heart at rest.

cos i love u 101%.

hate this man. seriously.

We're back to square 1 again.

Lets see if she really does get it or not.

Meanwhile, since ure going to stick to what u all used to be originally,

(contacting ur ex when obviously she is still in LIKE with you.)

when its so obvious that remaining in contact wouldnt solve this problem anymore.

A Way Out of All These. It's Up to You le...

Talked it out already.

Everything seems like they are back to normal.

But then how come i still get the feeling that this problem is not going to go away?

hmm...

im so tired of all these already.

Normally my way of doing things would be just to stop everything though i loved the guy.

so,,, i have NO IDEA at all why u got a second chance.

True, its hard to trust u again.

And im going to give it a shot again.

BUT! this is going to be the last time.

You are seriously a great guy to me.

Mayb u are a great guy to everybody.

and probably thats y there is this problem.

think ur heart is not hard enough for u to make a decision that might be good for all of us.

But it is time to make that right decision le.

I'm not threatening you.. but there are only two endings that i can see.

1. Make the right desicion for us, though u might hurt abit now(but i dont see y u should cos u should have put down that r/s alrd before u entered another). but everybody moves on. Happy Ending.

2. Lose me, and, i duno,mayb u get back with her anddd.... yup. you're back to square one. Back to the past where u tried getting away from a long time ago.

I'd hate to lose you. but i have no choice. Now its all up to u, what u want.

and what im going to do now, is to trust u again.

Something that i have lost at the start, gained back and lost again.

It's really hard. So pls, once ive gained back, dont go about throwing that away again ok.

cos its nvr coming back le.

I love you. but i cant take these much longer....

and then there is another thing. oh gosh. too much on my mind..

another time bahs. this thing, as i foresee, comes after this prob.

so lets get this prob out of the way first.

im trying hard. but can u tell me how to gain back the trust again?

Can u just shut the hell up and fuck off?
i had enough le.
i nvr even offend u about anything.
but u keep provoking me.

and my DEAR boyfriend, u seem to tell her everything about us.
mayb she still cant let u go bahs OH. OR.. MAYBE u still cant let her go bahs.
i dont know.

true, mayb u say u cant fang xia that 2 yr de r/s
but how about ur new one?
ur past life is going to ruin ur current and future life i tell u.
'future' not indicating me only. but ur entire future life.
u can tell me u all frens only.
and frens chat..
ok, true. i tell my ex-es about stuff too.
but they are not bastards.
who bitch arnd and act like as if they own me.

I really had enough of her and all her shit le.
Know how im feeling now?
I am upset now.
trust me. You wont like it when im feeling like this.

the more i see u, the more i miss you.
howwww?
bleahsssss

AIYAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
dunno y, but sian lei.
the feeling is bubbling in me.
i need to go fa xie out again...
humph. . .

Finally Happy

Very Long nvr blog le.

Have been really busy:)

and its a good thing.

although i get tired very fast.

hahahha..

and what i want to say is that,

I AM HAPPY:))

bleahs

WHY DO I HAVE WORK TMR(LTR)!? :/

bye.

going slp le>.<

Just my views.

I dont understand y pple would criticise Tin Pei Ling

i mean, ok, u might not like her.

but do u have to create a hate page on fb about her and let everybody criticise her like as if she is a piece of shit?

i'm not trying to side her or anything.

Because i personally do not really fancy her as well.

But do u have to do that?

Dont you feel bad at all?

she has done nth wrong right?

You might hear frm people that she uses ways to get into PAP or that she acts cute or blah blah blah...

But those are just what u hear frm pple right?

You didnt actually know her personally right?

So what rights do u have to criticise her like as if she is a useless bitch?

I mean, she is just another candidate in this election.

who is striving hard.

So, if u dont like her, just dont like her.

You dont have to say all those mean and horrible words.

Put yourself in her shoes.

Imagine everybody ostracizing you when all u want is to strive like any other candidate.

haix..

above are just whatever i felt.

u might not feel the same.

but sorry, THIS is my blog. So i can say anything i want.

and what i feel is that pple are getting too horrible nowadays towards each other.

me included.

give up already.

Sorry hor
no matter what u say,
when i think abt her,
i still hate her.

you say u got nth going on with her,
yea i believe that.
i really believe.
but the thought of the 2 of u still contacting
just makes me feel weird inside.
its like u hv someone else u treasure besides me.
because if she is a great girl, i wouldnt mind u 2 contacting.
but as i hv known, she is nth like that.
mayb she is good to u but not to me.
you say is bcos both of u she bu de ur 2 yr r/s.
then honestly, i think u 2 should totally put down that previous r/s de feeling first before wooing me.
cos im hurting now, for smth that is btwn u 2.


But ya la,
although we might hv talked things out.
and things may seem to hv like gone back to how we used to.
but i think u might hv sensed smth different abt us le bahs?

Haix..cos i dont care le.
i give up trying to bother about u le
cos its really tiring every second being so anxious abt the person i love
bcos of a third person.
i really hate that i hv to be wary of u.
i want to trust and believe u.
but i still find it hard.
mayb it takes time for u to prove it and the feeling to come back le bahs
Anyway, u can do whatever u want
u can contd msging her
or whatever u want.
im not bothering le
u hv ur freedom and privacy back.
u want it i give u.

I really hope u really understand the reason why she can so easily give u the trust freedom and privacy that u want while i find it hard to give you.

B.I.T.C.H

Congrats to her.
she has succeeded in distrupting my love life which initially i had so much hope in.
Now i see u, or even just think of u, i would link to her too.
the feeling is not the same le.
which is also y i super hate her now.
why does she want to let pple hate her?
i didnt do anything.
but she keep thinking i steal her bf.
YOU TWO ARE PAST TENSE ALREADY CAN
and im super angry at the thought of u two..
which is why i would say this.
" FUCK OFF BITCH "
u want him u should hv kept him well in the first place.
dont lose liao then come and snatch pple's bf away
or keep claiming that i steal ur ex.
just shut up alrd.
ur love life has turned bad.
dont drag mine down.
i thought u were a great person at first.
Really. no joke.
But the moment u took action, you're just another freaking bitch.

" Just because someone flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because someone likes you, doesn’t mean they want to date you.
Just because someone dates you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because someone loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you."

Read this somewhere. its so true.
why do we all have to go through this?
Hmm..
Even if one day, we might break becos of her.
ur nxt r/s wont be easy. bcos there's still her to spoil everything.
unless u let her know REALLY CLEARLY.
that it is impossible between u 2.
and that she really does get the msg and move on.

Ex-es only act this way,
1)Its either she still likes u alot.
2)is jealous of y u can be happy and not her.
3)Why,is it not with her but with some other girls
4)There is a glimpse of hope that u 2 are still possible. that u would one day return to her side
or
5) she is just immature enough to not move on with her life n loves making everybody unhappy. Cos only then would she be happy.

Im really not happy now. Seriously.
And i dont like to be like this.
i dont know y u dont understand y i no longer trust u as much le because the answer is so obvious alrd.:/

beezeeee

Gonna be busy for quite awhile:/

but i guess it would be better than doin nth

cant spend alot of time with u le.

baby i would miss you.

hope u wont run off...

muacks!

Seeing Baby tmr!!!

^-^

Happyyy~

By2-2011年台中跨年 part 2

By2 de voice matured alot.

no longer the young girl voice le.

got some hou du le.

but then hor..it sounds a little weird lei..

小孩很忙20100604 小小彬&阿寶的超可愛甜蜜親親~~

CUTE!!!!!! TTM!!

I ALSO WANT A KISS LIDAT! LOLS :P

[Fancam] 101202 Taeyeon SNSD - Hoot

TAEYEON!!!!!!!!

meltzz!

Girls' Generation(소녀시대) _ 훗(Hoot) _ MusicVideo

Love taeyon!!!

not only is she so cutee!!

and is such a responsible leader,

HER VOCALS ARE SUPERB ALSO!!

omg~

oh and snsd de dance is always so pretty!!

Im back..

and im definitely not looking forward to what are coming up next..

busy months to come

with heavy workload and stuff.

which also means i dont hv a lot of time to spend with him le:/

i wanna go away again!

and i wanna stay there with u forever!!

but kinda impossible man~

sians!

bobian.. going back to my life le...

Not her. definitely

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

tmr going awayyy~

Another thing.

I happened to chance on this opportunity to view her wall.

I duno y, but after reading her posts..

Somehow i dont feel anything lei.

Im not sad nor angry that she said those hurtful words abt me.

I mean, even though i would nvr forget wadever words she vented.

and it did affect me a little,

somehow, her words... hm. i dont know.

doesnt stir much feelings lei..

should i feel smth? angry?sad?jealous??

hmm...

aiyah. going genting happily.

nth is going to affect me^-^

not HER definitely :)

Whoo hooo~

p.s trying to adapt without makeup le. hm..bu xi guan lei..

YAY!

Going genting again!

nxt tues:)

second time le.

going with diff person this time round.

so the experience should be different too bahs^^

i seriously cant wait!!

hahah~

Scared..

Im terrified now..

A guy likes me.

I like the guy.

We get together.

Everything goes really well.

Too well.

I fall really in love.

He doesnt as much.

I get paranoid.

We got disputes.

I got scared.

I would initiate breaks.

this is Usually how it works.. for me.

i dont want:((((

which is why im terrified now.

Baby:)

i really hope we would last.

i love you.

and its increasing every second.

but im getting scared.

and u know y.

i told u le.

i miss you~

muacks!

ai ni oh!!!

ALL the enlistment letters have arrived.

BABY! IM GOING TO MISS YOU!

but im glad u r looking forward to it:)

jiayou k!

And dont worry its lame to just leave u bcos im lonely.

I wont leave u de-.-

i will only do so IF...

1) u ask me to :((((((

2) u did smth wrong to me(like change heart, or u got bored of me le, or u..i duno, alot) :((

OR

3) if u turned gay AND ask me to go away:((((((((((((((((((((((

IF NOT, I WONTTTTTT. muahahahhaa :D ok!!!!

I love you:)

i need u!

but u werent here:p

heehee.

make it up to me uh busy man!

u say de, Im QUEEN nxt week!

muahahahaha~

I love you :)

Emotional Me

I am an emotional person.

i am happy.i smile

i am sad. i cry

i am angry. i keep silent

i am exuberant. i laugh

last night was sad for me...cant slp the whole night :'(

but i am glad ure being honest with me

although u do need some prompting.

i know u have loved her once.

which is why u might be really close with her now.

i mean at the end of the day like you said, u 2 will still hv gan qing.

but let me tell u, although my pasts do not last long,

i have loved them once too

but i wont be that close with any of them now.

because i know that u would be hurt if i do.

and because i love you. i wont do anything to hurt you.

well, me and them. we still keep in contact.

but not in the kind of way u talk to her.

it hurts me to know that.

and i am just telling you that i'm feeling upset about this.

i really am affected by it.

and just to let you know

its hard to trust again once the trust is broken.

'Trust is like an eraser; it gets smaller after every mistake'

so pls prove to me that u r somebody whom i can have faith in.

and that i have made the right choice.

i love n care about u enough to get so affected.

and i really wish this sad feeling would stop.

whenever i see u, i think of this

and i get scared and sad.

zen me ban.

mayb its the phobia i get in the past.

im afraid u would do smth hurtful to me like what they did.

i think im dwelling on this too much.

but i just cant get this off my mind and heart.

i need reassurance.

but i dont know how im going to get that back from u...

OMG. I freaking cant stop thinking about it.

My super Bad Habit and the accurate Sixth Sense thingy is rising up in me again:/

Hate it man!

lousy feeling~

140411

140411!!! hee:p

And many many more months and years to come.

I hope...

hmmm....

Had something worrisome on mind that has been bothering me the whole afternoon.

Luckily i had it cleared with baby just now.

it was really silently killing me inside.

thank goodness i told u everything that was cooped up in me.

and i really really hope that whatever u said is completely true.

Though not utterly & totally convinced,(might be due to past experiences,causing me to be so wary n on guard) but Baobeix. i still love you for you. and i wont regret that i had once loved you:)

Happy Monthsary dear.

missing you already.

See you when i see you. which is *sigh* long time away...

Your WJH forever:p

P.S hope that you would like my gift. though i didnt exactly buy it but i put in A LOT of effort k!!!

so u must like it no matter what. i wont take dislike for an answer OK! muahahahhaha*evil laughter*~

Oh and i LOVE your gift(including that huge amnt of cash spent on us today)

lovesss xoxo!

and bao bao. the angry me would be quieter than that and scarier. just now that abnormally quiet side of me is just the worried and thinking side. u wouldnt wanna try the angry side. trust me.. unless u brave enough and wanna try:p hahah

MUACKS UUE!

Everything's wrong

Sigh..

i really think my flu is thinking of staying with me permanently:/

hate it when my nose dont ting hua.

everything is going downhill for me now.

when everything is not going well,

i tend to think alot

and when i think alot.

it means not good.

cos it would affect my everything.

my mood,

the way i perceive things and people.

things that might seem safe and secure once might look hazardous and rocky now

Im scared.

im like cowering in a shadow right now,

trying to cling onto the things that makes me happy.

i need my reassurance now.

YES!

Literally NOW.

im going crazy le:(

wads wrong with me!?

Angilica Ong.

really sian man,

duno how to break the news:/

Haiz..

and i miss my special somebody~

:/

OMG. sian diao.

I really dont wanna retake it:(

from the start jiu choose wrong topic.

mayb tads y will fail.

last time all those projects dou ok de.

but seriously la.

i struggled through fyp.

cos music piracy. there is like no way to totally solve it.

they always tell us to choose a topic we like.

but then

Nxt time, i am going for a safe topic instead of a topic i like.

REALLY SIAN when i saw it:/

ZOMG.

heart suan suan de.

first time in poly life i failed smth.

and such an impt thing somemore.

SIAN AH!

CRAZAEEEE

I think i siao le.

hahahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahhahahahhaha~

will smile without fail everytime i think of u.

lols.

you tell me.

this is not siao is wad?

ANGIE~

就是你了！

Ive got tons of feelings trying to express to u how much i treasure you:)

In short.

u just hv to know that

I LOVE YOU BABY BOY!

Really. No bluff.

i am the kind of person that say i love you when i really really mean it.

not anyhow de:)

I LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angilica Ong..

p.s dear i missed you already.

and u look super cute in ur new hair:))

A fun 3rd Apr

Been busy today since morning.

phew...

FINALLY went and got ourselves registered le^-^

if not i duno till when then will get this settled lo..

Pple. im talking bout driving lessons.

hahahah...

yea. total amount, calculated le.

not cheap man!!! Its madness lo.

Aft that went out with daddy buy BIG stuff.

lols.. now i need to get the room cleaned out le for that thing-.-

yay~*sarcastically.rolls eye*

had a short meet up with pat n kel just now.

short meeting but REALLY ENJOYABLE!

heeeeeeeeeee~

we really got alot to talk about.

and yea. my dear baby was busy today:)

so i kept myself busy too :p

then wont miss him too much.

it didnt really work...

so much for trying.lols.

but Angie Wang,*clap clap* for the effort put in

hahahahah~

im here 自highing to myself. lols

busy week coming up. tmr esp.

busy,but happy:DD

Angilica Ong.

Just My Point of View...

Been on a lot of train rides recently

Seen alot of interesting things going on.

Almost everyone would be buried in their electronic devices.

(mainly i phone)

its really a sight.

i've seen almost a whole row of pple using theirs phones.

its really interesting.

oh.AND ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I REALLY CANNOT STAND.

Boys should really stop carrying ur gf's handbags.

u should look at yourself.

its really funny and weird.

and you tend to look really gay & handpeck. SERIOUS.

i mean its ok to carry ur gf's HEAVY bag or just holding onto shopping bags if it looks ok on you.

but hanging a girly handbag over ur shoulders with ur own bag strapped on you alongside with all those shopping bags in ur hand, while ur gf stand next to you holding nothing -.-'''

its really ridiculous looking la.

i mean, cant your girl take it herself?

its not like its really heavy or wad.

i know bfs should dote on gfs but seriously, its kinda over the line.

Of course there are many other stuff.

Omg. suddenly feel so bitchy. hahahhahahah~

but im an honest person.

i dont like i say mah...

eh. if u feel u r offended with what i say,pls dont.

cos im just speaking my mind.

not pint pointing anybody k.

busy week next week. loads of stuff going on.

and i SERIOUSLY goto start my jian fei routine le.

BABY! dont feed me le!

hahahah~

Genting :D

I M BACKKKKK!!!!!!

went to genting b4, but tht was eons ago.

cant even rmb.

so went again.

this time round, with friends:DDD

Oh.

i realised smth.

its either bcos i didnt exercise on a regular basis

or its bcos im getting old le,

anyway, i got tired very fast.

hahhahahha~

think its the weather.

freezing sometimes.

but nice:p

going overseas with frens and together with family is a totally diff kinda feeling.

I LOVE IT both ways:))))

hahah...

had fun out there on my own.

missed my baby the whole trip:/

but tmr..wait its ltr! YAY!!! heee

hugggg uuuee tightttt!!!

Baobeix

Loving Someone is accepting their everything.

the good AND the bad

Baby! I LOVE YOU and ur Everything!!!

hahahah~

jiayou for ur game.. which u r at now.

do ur best &

go win it!!!!!!!!!!

Hugsss u tightttt~

i wanna grow old with you

MUACKS!

random:)

zen me ban?

i miss you already.

SIAN AH...

watched moulin rouge again:)

this is like the 100th time i watch le lo.

can even memorise their lines le

hahhah..

i'll nvr get tired of it.

Freaking nice show.

love it ttm :DD

BABY...

This is how i look when i have that sudden rush of emotion

.

.

.

AND

this is what i feel when i think of you

.

.

.

sigh...

Baby, thanks for all those stuff u bought for me:))

I LOVE THEM!

from the stuff all the way to the plastic bag!

hee:p

BABY! THESE ARE FOR YOUUUU

Baby I Love You ...

B!

B!!!!

STOP repeating whatever i write to you lei..

so mushyy~

SILLY BOY!

I MISSED YOU LAAAA!!!

too happy?

All these seem so unreal..

cos im like too happy le.

im like happy the moment i wake up till the time i sleep.

im so scared that everything would suddenly vanish just like last time.

BABY!

我发现我越来越爱你了！

每一天爱你多一点

omg*shiver*

hao rou ma oh.

hahahhah..

i have no idea how come i would keep saying all these

lols.

muacks!!!

LOVE RAINY DAYS WITH YOU:p

*winks*

your WANG JINGHUI!

LOVE YOU TTM!

HI!

BABY! I LOVE YOU TTM!!!

thanks for doing that:)

so far for u yet u sent me all the way home.

when ur home is so near only.

2 HOURS LEI!

i expect u to just send me to mrt.

i duno, maybe this might be a small thing to you,

but it really meant a great deal to me.

really!serious! i swear!

*grinning*

Me love for you is gradually increasing de:D

爱死你了啦 !!!!!!!!!!!

oh oh.but u canot really 死 ok.

if not i will sad...

I know

you know

that im going to say this.

but im still saying this anyway,

IM SOOO EXCITED!

seeeing my baby tmr!

To Baby: u better go slp early ok! tmr then can wake up early go gym then meet me!

MUACKS love you la!!

hee~

love die you de S^^Y laopo and C^^E girlfriend

hahah~ u get wad i mean jiu can le:p

NOW GO SLP!

GO NOW!

just me n my stuff...

its 11 plus le^^

means tmr is coming~ heee

can spend time with babi le!

26th is going to be a busy night for me:/

goto rush here and there to perform.

but its ok:)

i like it^-^

cause im doing smth i love A LOT~

but i still cant really decide on the songs.

anyway, i wanna learn guitar.

keep saying but nvr find people teach~

fever gone le.. if it doesnt come back tonight.

then i guess im cured..

OMG! i cured myself!!!

wahahahhaha~

so li hai !!! *clap clap* hee:p

but now left my throat.

and thats the most impt part of me-.-

better get well fast.

hehee

Hard to swallow:(

so i gave up eating aft awhile.

sian. no appetite also.

hmm..

anyway,

YAY! today is sun le:)

means tmr mon.

can see baby le^-^ hee~

so happy :p

FEVER

its been such a long time since i had fever.

like so many years liao..

last time fever my mummy will tc of me.

now its just me.

sian diao...

38.6...

im feeling a little groggy and yun yun de.

kinda nauseous also and very cold.

WTH...

Wang Jinghui! faster get welll soon~

i ltr still want go out with bb lei:(

missed him:/

...

Not Well.

Got napha ltr.

yun dao.

hais... y they canot just help us tick participate?

we girl wad

pass or fail also not counted de mah.

waste time sia lidat~

SIAN AH!

baobei is working~

go earn money ok!

for me to spend.

muahahahahah~

*evil~* hee:p bleahs!!!

I love you la!

Shout out msg to Baobei!

:D

im always happy with uue.

hope that wadever u said just now will really come true.

we would last wont we:))

I LOVE YOU!

苏奕铨 - 彩虹也会哭 (Tribute to Japan 311 Earthquake)

I really like the song.

the melody and the lyrics.

sang by a friend, Elson:)

well done on the song

Hmm.. everyday we watch news after news

day and night. day and night

everything is about the horrible after effects of the recent tsunami in Japan.

It must have seriously been living hell for them.

Its really anguishing and disturbing, seeing them like this.

We should all show our love and give them hope.

They are really strong people.

I mean after this disaster, the japanese are still so calm and collected.

No disturbance, no riots, no stealing, no 混乱

We should really just learn from them on how to be so disciplined

how to keep in order.

how to react to this kind of situation.

Really.Salute to those people.

If u can lend a helping hand. really, we should just give them help.

Be it donating money or just praying for them

Give them some glimpse of hope to look forward to life.

Is this the first blow of the impending end of the world that they keep saying?

hmmm... 2012.

Angilica Ong

deep thoughts...

The stage:)

Lols. ok i shall stop posting too much of my happiness liao

hahah.

if not my whole blog will seem very mushy~

i wanna go on stage and sing lei.

one week nvr le. kinda missed the feeling.

soon bahs. on the 26th:) at teck ghee.

gotto prepare.

the songs are more challenging this time round.

got listen, but nvr actually sang eng songs before sia.

hopefully its ok:D

hahah~

but seriously, im like smiling to myself everytime.

its freaky.

hahhahahahhaha~ ANGIE WANG!

YOU HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT!!!

lols:p

Baby!

OMG.

i cant contain it anymore!

i want to shout it out mannnn!!!!!!

hahahahah~

living in overwhelming happiness nowww~

lols

I Heart You!!

sighhhhhhhhhh...

Angilica Ong.

*smiling until my cheeks hurt:p*

:p bleahs *blush*

heart my somebody !!!

hahahahah..

You make me feel so happy today when u asked me.

bleahss~

hope everything goes smoothly from now on:D

smiling like a freaky crazy silly girl.

even when im alone i smile like siao.

hahahaha...

*shy**

a new me:D

I AM SUPER READY TO EMBRACE MY NEW LIFE :D

LOOKING FORWARD :))

F YOU :)

IF u r reading this,

Last msg to You like forever:

Dear You,

PLEASE DO NOT FEEL GUILTY.

DO NOT. i repeat. DO NOT

thank you very much.

I dont deny its hard getting over us.

becos everything suddenly stopped very fast when i thought everything was like alright.

so i admit it was pretty hard to accept that fact

AT THAT POINT OF TIME.

But our breaking up,

im glad u did it:)

Really.

I think u think so too, im finally admitting it now. that

Yes, u are a jerk :)

and yup,

FUCK YOU *wide smile~* lols.. i said it!

:)* pls *ahem* mind my manners*

i only use F*** when i think u deserve it.

im normally not vulgar de:)) really.

OH.

And good luck to ur current gf :D

hope u last long~

i really hope she knows u WELL ENOUGH already :)

thanks alot for the time that u have wasted on me^^

im glad we had fun together.

And honestly,

i seriously dont believe that u and me would have fate in future:)

TRUST ME ON THIS~

Yours Sincerely n lovingly :) ,

Your Ex Girlfriend^-^

P.S Please stop thinking that i cant get over you. hahaha.. NO-.-

Stop pitying me ok.

It's just plain stupid.

There is nothing to pity me about.

so stop trying to persuade me to get over you.

its not working...

i will remember u.

i forgive:)

but i dont forget...

Anyway, thanks for everything.

Love

Learning to b happy again.

Learning that behind my every smile and laughter hides a knife and pain.

Learning to b very very cautious

Learning not to love too hard

Learning that if one day a guy suddenly stopped saying i love you, its time to let go.

Learning that once the trust is broken, its nvr coming back

Learning that faith goes the same as trust too.

Learning that falling in love is easy, but wanting to get out of it, ahhhh..that is the hard part.

Learning to not love a gemini guy ever again. OMFG. twice already. should hv learnt it le bahs.

Learning to forgive:) but nvr forget.

Learning that a lesson learnt should remain a lesson learnt.

That, is love.

and i am letting it ALLLLLLLLL go:D

brave right?

hahahah..i know:p

heee... :')

oh god

:)

dropping it.

moving on:D

Ytd was just a rush of emotion.

hahah.

Not saying tht i was not affected.

hahah. nope.

i was affected.

but then again,

this is life:)

cant avoid de.

haixx..god.

seriously learnt my lesson le.

hope these would all stop soon.

i dont want play le.

its not fun.

i want to feel loved too.

BRAIN to HEART talk

:HOW MY BRAIN TALKS TO MY HEART:
Let go...
Angie Wang. let go.

slowly...

yes. lift it up and drop it.

yes, thats it.
good girl...

drop it.

DROP IT!

release.

Release

RELEASE!

phew~
good girl
guai:)..

wait
.
.
.
WAIT
.
.
HEY HEY HEY!!

what are u doing!?!?!?

WAIT!!

*picks up a piece of the shattered remains*
*puts into heart*
*brain rolls eye at heart*
!!!ANGIE WANG!!!
OMFG
Seriously.
Ure hopeless-.-
*yun dao~*

I give up.
i dont care le

sui bian ni...

Angilica Ong.

:D

Am feeling happy these past 2 days.
dunno y.
lols~ hahahahahahahahhahaahhaahahha~

SIAO LIAO :P

Angilica Ong XP

^-^

ANGILICA ONG

:)
im feeling happy!
hahahah...
but i have no freaking idea why.
lols~

...

Now im having a rush of emotion...
Should i move on?
But there is still a little bit of me left in the past, refusing to budge.
Am i happy now?
Or am i still upset?
Hmmm... see all these contradictory factors which are getting me confused?
Hais...

SIAN

AM I STILL GRADUATING OR NOT!?!?

after fyp still need redo storyboard.
still got design show to prepare.
still need to submit so many things...
Sian diao-.-

its been a long time since i went to the movies.
people i find are always not free.
jiu shi wrong timing.
Sian diao-.- AGAIN.

Where are all the free people in the world sia???

SIAN DIAO!!!

Angie Wang

:(

Am feeling down again.

Sian diao :/

OMG

ANGIE WANG JINGHUI!

WAKE UPPPP!!!!

stop living in ur dreamland le:(

not coming back not coming back he is not coming back.

WTF. seriously.

I should let myself be busy.

nvm can vent out all my frustrations on stage ltr.

hmmm~

the ultimate camwhores u never knew :p

!!! US !!!

people that dont break my heart!!!

(hmm.. ok only sometimes, when im mad at them)

my sister is pretty here! so i decided to post:p (even though im blurred) hahah~

ME! and im not denying that i camwhore in the past~

ahahaha~ Stupid:p

胡夏 Hu Xia「愛 都是對的」完整版MV

nice song:) thank you for introducing this song to me:)

love it:)

didnt miss out on a great song:D

i really missed us.

but since u dont want to go back le.

then lets move on with our lives bahs..

胡夏 Hu Xia「愛 都是對的」完整版MV

nice song:) thank you for introducing this song to me:)

love it:)

didnt miss out on a great song:D

i really missed us.

but since u dont want to go back le.

then lets move on with our lives bahs..

have i gotten used to it?

hmmm..

林育羣-一個人生活MV

小胖！！！ 好可爱哦!!!

he is power man and so cuteee~^^

he 翻唱 until very naise:)

my all time favourite song:D

李聖傑 - 抱歉MV

李圣杰 - 抱歉 作词：李焯雄 作曲：李圣杰&谭志华 忘了我们是在什么时候 选择放开彼此的手 忘了我们为了什么理由 才会让你一个人走 为什么总在失去后才懂得 才发现你对我最重要 为什么到后来我才有听说 你最爱的人还是我 多想妥协 多想眷恋 我想你在身边 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 还是你在敷衍 忘了我们是在什么时候 选择放开彼此的手 忘了我们为了什么理由 才确定不能再挽留 为什么总在失去后才懂得 才发现你对我最重要 为什么到后来我才有听说 你最爱的人还是我 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 还是你在敷衍 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 但你却说 抱歉

the mv is a little weird.

but lee sheng jie's songs are always so true.

his lyrics totally speaks whats in my heart n mind.

listen alrd got the heart pain feeling.

hais... ive nvr tried singing a guy's song.

but if can, i confirm can put in alot of emotions de...

hmmm~

haiz. y? y not? :)

One thing i really canoot understand

is that why isit when 2 person still like each 0ther,

they cant be together.

wait till fate.

haha..honestly, fate just comes once.

either u grab it and treasure it.

or u crush it and lose it.

to me, its a one time thing.

its nvr going to come back.

u let a chance pass u by, its nvr going to come back again.

I missed you.

but i guess this feeling would pass by very quickly

just like how i used to feel sad about us.

now, its just emptiness and void of any emotions for you. hm

looking forward:)

Presentation today. damn scary.

omg. im freaking out le. 50 more mins till i leave home.

goto calm myself down and soothe out these nerves.

hahahha~

hopefully its the last presentation of my 3 yrs in poly.

phew...

so fast jiu 3 yrs le.

many many many things happened during these 3 yrs.

1. Family matters:(

2. The start and the end of many heartbreaking relationships and 暧昧关系。

how i have learnt and gained so much knowledge from these good and bad experience.

of cos, there are good times together, but its the bad times that i learnt smth:)

3. i started my singing path and how i worked hard and improved myself:D

anyway, these times were gone pretty fast. but i shant say it was gone in a flash though.

cos its really hard at times, stuggling to meet datelines and submissions.

hahahah~

Angilica Ong:D

P.S im seeing myself looking forward already:) instead of wallowing in all that sadness^-^ although my heart still sour up sometimes..

10 more mins till i close my tap.

SILENCE is Golden??

There is like a strange emptiness in me.

like everything has gone calm and still....

Too calm.

its like a large part of me has been dug out and thrown away.

nothing is interesting nowadays.

everytime i ask u to stop msging me,

my heart would sour up a little.

its ironic. i want u to stop but i dont want u to stop:/

Our Break.

The first 2 -3 days, it was horrible.

the tears.

i just cant stop it.

it just keeps flowing...

Now that everything in me has been emptied,

there is this strange stillness and silence in me.

like as if i never knew u before.

am i really getting over u alrd?

is this the right feeling to feel?

i no longer know.

i just know that i was really really really upset the past 2 -3 days.

after that i am just numbed from all emotions.

is that how u felt?

i guess so bahs:/

Hais.. if only we could turn back time.

I really need Somebody sturdy.

Somebody who is sure of his feelings for me.

Somebody who support me in whatever i do.

Somebody who loves me.

and whom i love back of cos...

it's really sad. cos this person is hard to find.

and i thought that u were the one.

but u gave me a suprise.

a sad suprise :(

O well...

I just hope, if u r reading this, that u will treat your next one better.

and don't break her heart like this just because you're unsure of your feelings.

I Went to the beach this morning and thought it through...

I had enough of crying.

the reason i cried is because our break was too sudden and fast.

and u are a good guy.

and the thought of all our good times together.

how we were so loving.

But.

While i forget the love i have for you,

Tonight is the last time i'm going to cry because of you.

because i have learnt to be strong...

but regretfully and sadly, the hard way.

Angie.

P.S everytime i go through these hurtful times, a new me comes out.

a new girl who have gone through a lesson i learnt something:)

Thank you really.

Cos now that i got so much emotions, i can put all these hurt in my songs le:)

Thank you.

moving on? its hard....

Weird.

my heart doesnt feel anything anymore.

but whenever my brain think of what we used to be and do,

those little droplets will just keep falling.

Non-stop.

seriously-.- i mean isit even worth???

this is lame. goto stop likeee.... NOW!

Freak man. wth :/

Honestly, u cant be frens with someone u still love-.-

come on la. true right.

hais. nvm.

i tend to emo more at night. when im alone.

been so tired of it.

should quickly move on and forget about all these.

just like wad i did to all my previous r/s ...

Angilica Ong

:(

:( Horrible feeling!!!

hate it hate it.

i would love to go back to the past.

what happened to us?

mayb i was too busy.

mayb u got bored.

hais..

i dont want all this to happen!

don like don like do like :'(

:'/

Today is Friday the 25th.

I am filled with mixed emotions.

Fyp is finally over le.

After 4 freaking months of tedious research and planning and designing and lack of slp and the evolving of eye bags(which im going to kill)and the deteriorating skin and the 'no life' life-.- zzz.

FINALLY! IT IS FREAKING OVER! muahahhahahha~ but then again im still busy with stuff.

Now comes the not so happy part...

hm...

'Feeling of a frend?'

When u said that to me, my stomach turned inside out.

Those feelings that i have ever felt in the past when those past bastards hinted the same thing, came back.

Well, mayb u dont know. I've got this horrible shadow that ive been under ever since that horrible person that i told u about appeared.

But then, u appeared. and i thought everything is going to be alright le. cos u r a good guy who would nvr do this to me. and i started to trust in love again.

Slowly, i opened up bit by bit to u.

BUT

Sudddenly ur attitude changed. No more I love you-s. no more i miss you. no more i want to meet u every single moment.

I recognised these symptoms once again, after hving gone through so many countless of bastard guys.

U say u might be thinking too much. well, i say not.

Hm... i dont know anymore.

It's hard to come out of that darkness.

Yet now i find myself retreating back again.

It's hard u know.

especially after the hurt i got so many times previously.

Now its back to square one.

Hard to open up.

Hard to trust

.

.

.

Hard to Love :'/

.................................................................................Angie...............................................................................

One do not need complicated and flowery words to describe how one feel just a few simple words describe what u feel

: I am sad n worried

Is this how u see things?

in ur point of view now.

no wonder u think u r right. hmmm..

To My Baby.

1 Month and 7 days.

And i love my baby more and more!

Loving somebody is when u know a person for a long time,

and u dont get tired of him/her.

Instead, u find that those small little things he/she do is getting cuter and cuter to you.

And u r loving every single moment with him/her

and dont wanna be apart.

i got this feeling^^

but...hmm...nvm:)

Dar. i hope we would last longggg^^

Ai Ni.

STREssssssss

I WANT TO DIE LIAO !!!!!!

hahhahaha..

these words come from a very stressed out person.

so pls dont take me seriously.

i.am.going.to.do.a.lot.of.things.after.fyp!!

i tell u...i say this but when holiday comes, i will have no freaking idea wad to do.

lols..

Whooooooooooooo~ stress ahhh. need fa xie abit.

but how...?

Fate of Love

I LOVE MY BABY!!!

爱死你了！！！

but honestly, love is scary.

cos u love a person but u dont know if he/she really loves back .

or isit just a superficial thing he/she is giving u.

u dont really know whats going on in their mind.

One day, they might say I LOVE YOU.

another day, they might say lets break.

i seriously have no idea y i think so much these days.

freaking hate it when my mind does all these kind of thinking.

These kind of unneccessary, but 'what if' thoughts.

mayb its bcos smth happened to the pple arnd me.

looking at wad he has done to her provoked those horrible memories of my past r/s.

i would nvr want to go through those terrible moments again.

Hopefully...u wouldnt

too much le bahs.

i think too much...

i feel too much...

maybe thinking back about all those feelings would allow me to sing better bahs.

letting those emotions ive experienced before flow through the songs i sing.

but still, hving a little of those feelings back in me is making me emo...