too much le bahs.

i think too much...

i feel too much...

maybe thinking back about all those feelings would allow me to sing better bahs.

letting those emotions ive experienced before flow through the songs i sing.

but still, hving a little of those feelings back in me is making me emo...

valentines and stuff...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!!!!!!!

:D 140211 is a day for those lovely couples to celebrate.

and of course for those lonely to emo.

lols.

but me,

I LOVE MY BABY!!! hahahaha

so busy, got submission the next day, got test to study got report to do.

so tired still come meet me...

but hor so tired go home and play game-.-

hahhah :p

anyway, despite being in love,

smth happened today.

A fren's (they are ok now though.thank god) experience reminded me of how love can be really hurtful and scary at times.

reminded me of my past r/s...

reminded me that actually loving too hard might sometimes not be such a good thing after all...

But then again. baby dont worry. its just harder for me to open up to love again. but i still love you. UNLESS u dont love me le. then jiu too bad lo...

aww

so cute right!?!?!?!?!

When a girl is silent

Read this somewhere..

Pretty interesting and a little true.

When a girl is silent, that's pretty dangerous.

She's either...

Overthinking,

Tired of waiting,

About to blow,

Lonely,

Needs a hug,

Falling apart

Or crying inside.

and most probably all of those above.

Bo Si Kan :/

today is the 9th le.

then its the 11th.

finally the 14th.

sighhh. no time luhh.

whr has all the time gone to!?!?

品冠 - 我以為 ( 下一站，幸福 )

I Love This Song A LOT. It's Not describing what i am in now though, but what i was going through last time. i think many people would have gone through this kind of feeling that this song is trying to depict bahs. Really hope i know i how to post the song here. but oh well, this song is really nice. go find it :)i recommend this song to people who likes to emo every now and then, like me. hahah.

It's by :品冠

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.
我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

UPDATE.

It's been ages since i last blogged.

Luckily somebody reminded me.

hahaha.. if not this will be like totally forgotten.

Today is the 7th of feb liao. so fast...

very soon jiu 11th liao. and i still duno wad to get for that somebody.

(OH-.- Rolex watch is like out le horrrrrrrrrrr unless i strike toto :P)

Then still got valentine's. OMG

so many things are going on. feb is a damn busy and stressful month.

cos of fyp and everything:/

Hm... I tend to procrastinate.

And cos of this, I AM DYING A REAL SLOW .TERRIBLE. PAINFUL .DEATH.

Seriously. i should kick away this bad habit of mine.

still got 2 more weeks left.

I need to do storyboard and 3D and complete my model by then.

shit shit shit :(

*Dear i might not have a lot of time for u again. till this two weeks is over. sorry:/*

Thats all bahs. wont really be updating till the 2 weeks is up.

busy Busy BUSY!!!!

I AM A HAPPY GIRL!!!

hahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahah

LOVE ? wads that?

How to sustain a good relationship? (my views)

1. Being honest.

2. Having trust.

3. Being open and transparent with each other.

4. Respect privacy

5. Enjoy the presence of each other

6. Being supportive

7. Care a lot ..A LOT

8. Loving the people they love

9. share ur happiness and woes together...

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.

.

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of course there are many more.. endless actually.

but still.it would finally all come back to the one word.

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.

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LOVE ...

and always show your love. dont hide it :)

Glad we had an open talk ytd ^-^

if not i think those problems might accumulate eventually.

We definitely DO NOT want that.

Anyway, solve le jiu hao:D

im sure in future there would be many such probs but im sure we will overcome them:)

love you dear:)

*And of cos i can read ur mind. hahah the word "problem" is written all over ur face and in your eyes the whole night. lols. plus u act differently too*

HATE YOU TTM

I have always thought you dont deserve to be happy after u hurt me like this.

How could u just be free and happy with another person after damaging someone's heart.

Seeing u so happy, makes me mad.seriously.

But then again, u r nothing to me already.

I mean from the start, u weren't anything.

So it shouldn't really matter.

Honestly, the thought of revenge did cross my mind like a billion times.

but, hais.. what would that do.

u wont fall for it de.

Being successful in everything is the best revenge bahs.

Showing u that i am much better off without u,

that I can be somebody.

Its your loss that u lost me.

Really hate you... at that time.

Looking at you now,

i just think that i wouldn't wanna be with someone like this.

Nor would i want to be somebody like you.

Hate you, but if i were to be successful one day, thank you.

Gie~

event later going prepare now.

phew FYP is really going downhill for me. gotto buck the hell up.

if not i would die terribly.

sian.

New Everything

NEW YEAR

NEW PEOPLE

NEW LIFE

NEW START

I WILL forget about those thoughts of ever trying to get those lousy people back into my life again.

I MUST stop these negativity from entering into my life.

ok, even if they have to (cos we still have to learn from mistakes right)

they must be from these new people that i have met.

Old ones.. hm lets just say being friends is always the best excuse.

Or best still, lets keep it to minimal contact :)

My life is kinda back to normal now,

no painful heartbreaks, no headache-ing worries. no nothing.

worries still have of cos, but not unnecessary ones:D

YAY!

Loves,

A New Me^-^

MERRY XMAS

Plans SketchUp Model Crit.

Omg.

Sighhhhh~

Merry Belated Xmas!

2010's christmas was ok, not much excitement but i cant say it wasnt fun either.

Had a shot at vodka.

And i mean really one shot.

The main purpose of drinking is just to try and see wad im like when im drunk.

Well, turns out when im drunk i get really, as in REALLY quiet AND sleepy.

But honestly, im a lousy drinker. hahah.

a little bit only i peng le. Lols~

Another purpose of drinking is to let myself sleep better.

In the end cos of that shot,

i woke up with a splitting headache -.- zzz..

Im never going to get myself drunk again.

The hangover is seriously.....unbearable.

Eh..I Dont understand how come pple go and get themselves wasted,

feeling terrible and horrible after that.but then go back and drink again.

Hahah..for me, i experience once jiu hao le.

unless somebody guan me, im not going to force myself to get drunk again.

Other than those,

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

i love this festive season.

the atmosphere and environment just feels different.

Like as if its going to snow anytime.

hahahah~ *i just have a wild imagination ok heh XP*

The Happy without thinking about FYP and drunk once jiu hao de Angie signing off :)

bleahsss~

Oh. The curry kept from the party was spoilt.

And........I ate it -.-

Hmm..

Been super busy with Singing n events. sigh.

Really hectic life.

Seriously need to plan my time now le.

if not i would D.I.E by the end of the holiday.

And To You.

Im really sorry

Seriously.

Really hate myself for doing this to you or anybody as a matter of fact.

What comes round goes round and i believe in that.

angilica

Dont Assume.

Ass-u-ming just makes an ass out of you and me.

No, you and you.

Not everything is about u ok.

Move on please.

a thought

Have u ever thought of turning back time?

To a time when u regretted doing something..

or NOT doing something?

Well, different people have different case.

Some might regret not saying goodbye cos its too late.

Many might regret meeting a right person at the wrong time, or vice versa.

Others might regret doing something they did which they think it was wrong.

Most would regret saying or doing something that is irreversible.

I dont know..

Maybe its all about having the right timing, meeting the right person and doing the right thing.

People grow up. I would too :)

The past is the past.

LEARN and grow.

Btw, im writing all these subconsciously..

dont know what im writing also. haha

so dont ask me y. and i am NOT emoing.

im just saying what is in my mind ok.

so dont ask..

Smiles~

Angilica Ong.

TO YOU!

To people who are reading my blog...

i am not emo-ing la :D

hahaha.. just that sometimes i get these thoughts in my head that i need to say out.

but not verbally.

and not through fb (because there are too many unfamiliar people and whenever i write i have to think of wad pple think.)

i just felt that through blog i can express my feelings and thoughts more freely without people commenting all the time:)) in a more private yet still private way..

hahaha.. so no worries k :)

if im emoing, fb would hv a lot of my status saying how emo i am de. Lolsss..

Sometimes. I wonder

Sometimes i wonder why the person i like doesn't like me back.

Sometimes i wonder why i dont fancy the person that likes me.

How does this world works?

No wonder they say that there is only one such person in the world who is meant for you.

Who would hold your hand and never let go.

Who would love you for who u are

Someone who loves you and whom u love back.

But i am wondering where is mine.

I am always, ALWAYS in this sickening cycle.

I like him, he likes me.

We got close.

Then i knew he is actually not that good after all.

Then i get these heartbreaking heartbreaks

and i would emo for a while,

trying to heal myself.

Wondering who would come and cure my emo-ness away.

Then some guy would pop up again.

AND,

the cycle repeats itself.

To guys out there...

Please, please please please dont play with a girl's feelings.

she will definitely remember u for life.

Thats for sure.

She might say she has forgiven u on the outside.

But deep inside.

There is this wound that would never really heal Properly. Fully.

So decide first before u court a girl.

Decide fast if u want to end.

Never let urself procrastinate...

Dont let the girl like u then tell her that u never actually liked her.

Dont do things that will hurt her.

Dont let a girl cry for you.

Be a man.

Angilica Ong

just some thoughts

FYP :/

I cant say im bored

cos i should really be doing the project.

But then again, i really am feeling bored of my life

Like its devoid of something...

hmmm...

Well, i guess i am bored of FYP.

Yes. thats the way i should say it.

Oh Gosh.

FYP is killing me. Seriously.

Damn. its not easy man. and there is still like how many...3 more months left sia!!!!

Doesnt sound long.

but it IS long ok...................................

OKOK.

its short-.-'''

but its torturous to go through these few months.

Jia You bahs. Haixxx... Bo Bian:/