give up already.

Sorry hor
no matter what u say,
when i think abt her,
i still hate her.

you say u got nth going on with her,
yea i believe that.
i really believe.
but the thought of the 2 of u still contacting
just makes me feel weird inside.
its like u hv someone else u treasure besides me.
because if she is a great girl, i wouldnt mind u 2 contacting.
but as i hv known, she is nth like that.
mayb she is good to u but not to me.
you say is bcos both of u she bu de ur 2 yr r/s.
then honestly, i think u 2 should totally put down that previous r/s de feeling first before wooing me.
cos im hurting now, for smth that is btwn u 2.


But ya la,
although we might hv talked things out.
and things may seem to hv like gone back to how we used to.
but i think u might hv sensed smth different abt us le bahs?

Haix..cos i dont care le.
i give up trying to bother about u le
cos its really tiring every second being so anxious abt the person i love
bcos of a third person.
i really hate that i hv to be wary of u.
i want to trust and believe u.
but i still find it hard.
mayb it takes time for u to prove it and the feeling to come back le bahs
Anyway, u can do whatever u want
u can contd msging her
or whatever u want.
im not bothering le
u hv ur freedom and privacy back.
u want it i give u.

I really hope u really understand the reason why she can so easily give u the trust freedom and privacy that u want while i find it hard to give you.

B.I.T.C.H

Congrats to her.
she has succeeded in distrupting my love life which initially i had so much hope in.
Now i see u, or even just think of u, i would link to her too.
the feeling is not the same le.
which is also y i super hate her now.
why does she want to let pple hate her?
i didnt do anything.
but she keep thinking i steal her bf.
YOU TWO ARE PAST TENSE ALREADY CAN
and im super angry at the thought of u two..
which is why i would say this.
" FUCK OFF BITCH "
u want him u should hv kept him well in the first place.
dont lose liao then come and snatch pple's bf away
or keep claiming that i steal ur ex.
just shut up alrd.
ur love life has turned bad.
dont drag mine down.
i thought u were a great person at first.
Really. no joke.
But the moment u took action, you're just another freaking bitch.

" Just because someone flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because someone likes you, doesn’t mean they want to date you.
Just because someone dates you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because someone loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you."

Read this somewhere. its so true.
why do we all have to go through this?
Hmm..
Even if one day, we might break becos of her.
ur nxt r/s wont be easy. bcos there's still her to spoil everything.
unless u let her know REALLY CLEARLY.
that it is impossible between u 2.
and that she really does get the msg and move on.

Ex-es only act this way,
1)Its either she still likes u alot.
2)is jealous of y u can be happy and not her.
3)Why,is it not with her but with some other girls
4)There is a glimpse of hope that u 2 are still possible. that u would one day return to her side
or
5) she is just immature enough to not move on with her life n loves making everybody unhappy. Cos only then would she be happy.

Im really not happy now. Seriously.
And i dont like to be like this.
i dont know y u dont understand y i no longer trust u as much le because the answer is so obvious alrd.:/

beezeeee

Gonna be busy for quite awhile:/

but i guess it would be better than doin nth

cant spend alot of time with u le.

baby i would miss you.

hope u wont run off...

muacks!

Seeing Baby tmr!!!

^-^

Happyyy~

By2-2011年台中跨年 part 2

By2 de voice matured alot.

no longer the young girl voice le.

got some hou du le.

but then hor..it sounds a little weird lei..

小孩很忙20100604 小小彬&阿寶的超可愛甜蜜親親~~

CUTE!!!!!! TTM!!

I ALSO WANT A KISS LIDAT! LOLS :P

[Fancam] 101202 Taeyeon SNSD - Hoot

TAEYEON!!!!!!!!

meltzz!

Girls' Generation(소녀시대) _ 훗(Hoot) _ MusicVideo

Love taeyon!!!

not only is she so cutee!!

and is such a responsible leader,

HER VOCALS ARE SUPERB ALSO!!

omg~

oh and snsd de dance is always so pretty!!

Im back..

and im definitely not looking forward to what are coming up next..

busy months to come

with heavy workload and stuff.

which also means i dont hv a lot of time to spend with him le:/

i wanna go away again!

and i wanna stay there with u forever!!

but kinda impossible man~

sians!

bobian.. going back to my life le...

Not her. definitely

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

tmr going awayyy~

Another thing.

I happened to chance on this opportunity to view her wall.

I duno y, but after reading her posts..

Somehow i dont feel anything lei.

Im not sad nor angry that she said those hurtful words abt me.

I mean, even though i would nvr forget wadever words she vented.

and it did affect me a little,

somehow, her words... hm. i dont know.

doesnt stir much feelings lei..

should i feel smth? angry?sad?jealous??

hmm...

aiyah. going genting happily.

nth is going to affect me^-^

not HER definitely :)

Whoo hooo~

p.s trying to adapt without makeup le. hm..bu xi guan lei..

YAY!

Going genting again!

nxt tues:)

second time le.

going with diff person this time round.

so the experience should be different too bahs^^

i seriously cant wait!!

hahah~

Scared..

Im terrified now..

A guy likes me.

I like the guy.

We get together.

Everything goes really well.

Too well.

I fall really in love.

He doesnt as much.

I get paranoid.

We got disputes.

I got scared.

I would initiate breaks.

this is Usually how it works.. for me.

i dont want:((((

which is why im terrified now.

Baby:)

i really hope we would last.

i love you.

and its increasing every second.

but im getting scared.

and u know y.

i told u le.

i miss you~

muacks!

ai ni oh!!!

ALL the enlistment letters have arrived.

BABY! IM GOING TO MISS YOU!

but im glad u r looking forward to it:)

jiayou k!

And dont worry its lame to just leave u bcos im lonely.

I wont leave u de-.-

i will only do so IF...

1) u ask me to :((((((

2) u did smth wrong to me(like change heart, or u got bored of me le, or u..i duno, alot) :((

OR

3) if u turned gay AND ask me to go away:((((((((((((((((((((((

IF NOT, I WONTTTTTT. muahahahhaa :D ok!!!!

I love you:)

i need u!

but u werent here:p

heehee.

make it up to me uh busy man!

u say de, Im QUEEN nxt week!

muahahahaha~

I love you :)

Emotional Me

I am an emotional person.

i am happy.i smile

i am sad. i cry

i am angry. i keep silent

i am exuberant. i laugh

last night was sad for me...cant slp the whole night :'(

but i am glad ure being honest with me

although u do need some prompting.

i know u have loved her once.

which is why u might be really close with her now.

i mean at the end of the day like you said, u 2 will still hv gan qing.

but let me tell u, although my pasts do not last long,

i have loved them once too

but i wont be that close with any of them now.

because i know that u would be hurt if i do.

and because i love you. i wont do anything to hurt you.

well, me and them. we still keep in contact.

but not in the kind of way u talk to her.

it hurts me to know that.

and i am just telling you that i'm feeling upset about this.

i really am affected by it.

and just to let you know

its hard to trust again once the trust is broken.

'Trust is like an eraser; it gets smaller after every mistake'

so pls prove to me that u r somebody whom i can have faith in.

and that i have made the right choice.

i love n care about u enough to get so affected.

and i really wish this sad feeling would stop.

whenever i see u, i think of this

and i get scared and sad.

zen me ban.

mayb its the phobia i get in the past.

im afraid u would do smth hurtful to me like what they did.

i think im dwelling on this too much.

but i just cant get this off my mind and heart.

i need reassurance.

but i dont know how im going to get that back from u...

OMG. I freaking cant stop thinking about it.

My super Bad Habit and the accurate Sixth Sense thingy is rising up in me again:/

Hate it man!

lousy feeling~

140411

140411!!! hee:p

And many many more months and years to come.

I hope...

hmmm....

Had something worrisome on mind that has been bothering me the whole afternoon.

Luckily i had it cleared with baby just now.

it was really silently killing me inside.

thank goodness i told u everything that was cooped up in me.

and i really really hope that whatever u said is completely true.

Though not utterly & totally convinced,(might be due to past experiences,causing me to be so wary n on guard) but Baobeix. i still love you for you. and i wont regret that i had once loved you:)

Happy Monthsary dear.

missing you already.

See you when i see you. which is *sigh* long time away...

Your WJH forever:p

P.S hope that you would like my gift. though i didnt exactly buy it but i put in A LOT of effort k!!!

so u must like it no matter what. i wont take dislike for an answer OK! muahahahhaha*evil laughter*~

Oh and i LOVE your gift(including that huge amnt of cash spent on us today)

lovesss xoxo!

and bao bao. the angry me would be quieter than that and scarier. just now that abnormally quiet side of me is just the worried and thinking side. u wouldnt wanna try the angry side. trust me.. unless u brave enough and wanna try:p hahah

MUACKS UUE!

Everything's wrong

Sigh..

i really think my flu is thinking of staying with me permanently:/

hate it when my nose dont ting hua.

everything is going downhill for me now.

when everything is not going well,

i tend to think alot

and when i think alot.

it means not good.

cos it would affect my everything.

my mood,

the way i perceive things and people.

things that might seem safe and secure once might look hazardous and rocky now

Im scared.

im like cowering in a shadow right now,

trying to cling onto the things that makes me happy.

i need my reassurance now.

YES!

Literally NOW.

im going crazy le:(

wads wrong with me!?

Angilica Ong.