Only 3 months have passed...
it sounds so short yet it felt so long
so much stuff has happened between us during this time,
you've suffered.
she has suffered too.
and i keep taking in blows after blows till i hv reached my max.
Now everything seemed to have quietened down.
everything seems like they are back to normal le
but honestly, the feeling between us is kind of different alrd.
At least thats what i feel.
mayb u dont feel it, but i do.
Before, we were in a peaceful n happy place
then that horrible hurricane has to come bcos u didnt settle some of ur past properly.
Not say didnt, u just dont see a need to settle it i guess.
what worries me, is that u dont think that it is a big deal to stay in contact with her in that way.
You want ur rs with me to last. but then u 2 keep doing stuff like this.
Sometimes when i would wonder y am i still here torturing myself.
i would ask myself, do i still love u as much? do you truly love me? is whatever u tell me true? have u been honest with everything? can i trust you?
now, all we were left are all the remains and destruction of that hurricane.
its all left in bits and pieces all over the place, exactly what im feeling now.
It's a horrible feeling.
Hopefully you can piece back all those pieces together.
And we would be alright like before.
And its great that u r honest with me now, like i have been to you all along.
Sometimes i trust u sometimes i dont.
Most of the times, i would think if u r still hiding things from me..
hais.. hopefully nth is going to happen in the near future le.
if not i seriously cant take it le..
