helo. today is tues.
ytd was a PH.
this is gonna be a short week!
yay!!!

拍照錯按錄影, 老夫妻網路爆紅!! → 超可愛啦!!

this is so cute! i cant stop laughing at this... seriously!!! HAHAHAHHA...
growing old like this is so ke ai!

Certificate of Appreciation ..hahaha

Havent been sleeping.

so im off to sleep le

To Bee:

Thanks for what you did tonight:)

I know u just book out and had a damn tiring time in the forest this week.

And looking and feeling damn haggard (although i dig the look :p) carrying ur big heavy sack of dirty laundry.

but u still chose to come and find me at work strght aft booking out.

just to see me and escort me home :)

Because u think its dangerous.

Thanks dear.

Aiyah, long words short say (*direct translation from chinese*..heheh)

I just want to let u know that im really appreciative of what u did :)

From:Hon

ARGH~

WAAAAAAAA...

long time no blog.

been busy.

but its doing something that my real passion doesnt lie at.

so its really boring and frustrating.

boring cos im not interested in it.

frustrating bcos im getting nowhere where my real passion lies.

i dunno how to start off towards that direction.

its really kinda like a trapped feeling.

feeling sian.

everything is getting so B.O.R.I.N.G

and the trapped and frustrating feelings are back again:/

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

i need to go beach and vent it out le la.

but no time...

mayb after this week i guess.

A Passing Judgement

Sometimes people just judge base on what they see and hear.

Sometimes its a one sided story,

sometimes its bcos they are biased.

Sometimes they just think their judgement is right.

But why dont we let ourselves discover deeper before deciding and judging?

Because it might not hurt u. but it might hurt an innocent and unguilty party.

Beyoncé - Best Thing I Never Had - Live At Macy's (04/07/2011) (720p HD)

Continue doing what ure doing and One day, you will wake up
and regret doing the things u shouldnt do and losing me...

Hee...

My girls are so cute. look how we have grownnn!!! :D

MUSIC = MY LIFE

Now then i realise why music is so freaking impt to me :)
Nothing can replace the love i have for it...

The song in my previous post...

Great Song:)

This is one of the songs that i would give him when i really find the one:)

but how would i know whether i found him le?

thats when whatever he does just reminds me of this song..

when i find someone who accepts me for who i am.

who supports me in what i do, did and would do.

who would never in the world hurt me with what he does.

who protects and love me more than himself.

who changes me for the better but yet understands and accepts all my past mistakes.

who just loves me, FLAWS AND ALL:)

he's really hard to find.

but when i find the one . . .

i would entrust my heart entirely to him with no worries of getting hurt ever again.

but only when i love and trust him with all my heart.

i did that foolishly once or twice in my life.

Never regretted it.

but i would never do it again, until i confirm that he is the right one:)

Flaws and All

I'm a train wreck in the morning

I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes in deed
Ever complex in everyway
And all the pieces arent even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day.

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
and that's exactly what I need.

The Flu Bug

BUG BUG BUG
it just doesnt stop bugging me.
The Flu Bug is seriously horrible.
once its here, it just stays here.
ive spent the whole day recuperating.
can die from all the sleep i get le.
wide awake now, feeling better just now...
now its back again.
just stubborn isnt it?
haixxx...
hope it goes away soon.

BLEAHSSS :/

2 simple words:

MONDAY BLUES.

放下是放过自己, 不是原谅他:)

"放下你的不甘心
并不代表原谅他了，
而是放过自己
如果心里有那么多的不甘心
那快乐怎么进去啊"

ive always done this in my previous relationships aft getting my heartbroken:)
i know how to move on and show the bastard that i can do so much better without him
i end up being happier myself.
cos after everything then i'll realise its so stupid to get stuck in that tiring life.
where i keep feeling so upset about the guy.
then i'll smile foolishly to myself and laugh out loud, 放下是对的 :) haha.

heard that quote on <我可能不会爱你>
super nice show.
got my favourite de Ariel Lin
and alot of really sensible and nice woman quotes
really true.
learnt alot from there ^-^

HAPPINESS

Happiness is a choice... its the way u perceive things no matter how bad the problem is. if u just look on a more positive side, u'll be happy:) right?
of cos i know this negativity in me sucks.
but it has been in me since i dunno when.
its a bad habit thats hard to rid.
my mummy can do it, i believe i can too :))

CHEERS! STAY HAPPY! :D
gie SIGNING off...

It's Back Again.

I have to get things clear before i start worrying.

but there is this naggy voice inside my head that smth is wrong... hm

LESSONS.

Today is Thursday.
Tomorrow is Friday.
The Day After is Saturday.
And then its Sunday.
.
.
.
Its reaching the end of the year le.
time past so fast.
and so many things have happened.
Ive been through alot within such a short time.
One thing that i find interesting is that i finally got to experience these really ridiculous people out there whom everyone talks abt.

People who dont get their facts right before shooting venom out of their mouths.
People who insult another without looking at themselves first.
People who criticise when they do not even have the basic rights to.
People who think too highly of themselves.
People who butt into other people's business when its totally none of their biz, making things worse.

But i must say i really thank them.

Because if not for them, i wont get to experience my first bitch and get to know how it feels like to get insulted like this.

If its not for them, i wont grow up and would still think that everyone would be nice to you as long as u r nice to them. (but of cos, bcos of them, i got to know what is politeness and basic courtesy. and im glad my parents taught me well. and i got to understand deeper that i would never ever insult another like the way they insult me:)..oh wait. but that doesnt mean that i would let them insult my family and career just like this. when i had enough, i would still give these people what they deserve. just not in their way)


Basically, ive learnt that one should know where one stand first, before insulting another.
Because the moment you open your mouth and start your insults, then you would be no better than the person ure insulting. No, u would be worst off than them.

So learn this and GROW UP!


Anyway, things happen.
They all happen for a reason:)
I believe this experience has taught me alot and made me wiser and stronger.
If its meant to be, its meant to be.
After you give ur best n the probs are still there then its time to move on.
just let go.
no point clinging to the past when everyone knows there's no future.

i finally know why i feel that way.

i got this huge issue,

i found the ans.

but i dont know how to solve this prob.

zen me ban...

and i dont like to keep myself hanging like this.

it irritates the hell out of me.

having funnn~

hiii er jie :D

'rhytkumyuki' done by qian qian..

hahaha

I LOVE YOU!

muack!

sh's currently tempting me with a kitkat.

Evillllllllll~

bobian ,its in her blood.ONLY.

NOT FAMILY BLOOD.

er jie: ... -.-

Ops..

When i am busy and rushing to produce work,

i get cranky.

SUPER EASILY.

i just like to submerge myself into my own world.

so dont try and trigger that point k:)

and sorry first to whoever i bomb at!

*er jie*

*daddy*

.

.

.

many many more...

MOVIE TIME!

Johnny English!!!
I hope this show doesnt disappoint me...
I think it would be nice:)





















CAZAE. STUPID. LOVE!
i heard its naise~
G.O.N.A W.A.T.C.H T.H.I.S!
ITS A MUST MUST to watch it :D

emotionless

feelingless soon :(

but i dont want this to happen.

i want a new life.

but i dont know what to do and how to do it.

BUT I AM GOING TO DO SMTH ABT IT!

currently my life is a mess.

nth is going right.

probs probs probs everywhere.

stuck stuck stuck.

my direction is all messed up.

SIAN UH.

freaking my mind out le.

wrecking my brains.

life sucks recently.

talk - brain = rubbish

This is what u get when u dont think through before saying things...

She commented on my blog bcos she was unhappy about me due to some misunderstandings. but without using much of her intelligent brain cells like she say she have, this is how she insulted me.

To this anonymous person:

im glad u did this. bcos i grew up from each of ur critisms and learnt that there is actually such people out there. Only then can i show u what is really called the civilised world.

btw, i posted this is to remind the people who are reading this post that one should not get too fed up with such people. cos its really just not worth it. dont u just find her amusing and interesting.

everything was none of her biz. and she does not get her facts right. but she can insult people till this standard. we should really applaud her bravery. (these post is for people who didnt see how brave she was when she insulted my life.)

And to the people out there. even if u are really pissed with a person, u should NEVER take their dreams AND their families as a joke.Remember this. and i hope this person grows up soon.

Anonymous said...

hmmm.. this is what they describe as 'pot calling the kettle black' ? you started this first by getting involved with an attached guy.. since when the third party can be so indigent? seems to me that you are the one in the wrong.. unless you are so in your own world that you don't know what is happening in reality? don't talk to people about their academic progress unless you have higher qualification. Someone who can't even graduate from poly for diploma have no right to criticize others. In sociology, there is something we refer to as social norms and socially acceptable behavior. All your actions doe not fit into social norms unless you live in a 小三society. which I'm sure you do but have no idea how you wonder into our civilized society..Furthermore, the last time i check, all your actions does not tally with our current socially acceptable behavior.. get it? WHAT? you have no idea? ohh! forget.. You don't get to study these modules because of your low education level.. Wait.. not even poly grad.. so its extreme low education level.. well anyway, please get a life and stop your habit of always being the third party.. Do they conduct trainings during PSLE period? you know.. training in 小三-logy? Well, I'm sure they do because you must be the top student for that module. I don't know why you don't face there fact that you are in the wrong and why you are persisting in always snatching other ppl's boyfriend.. do you crave for love so much that it doesn't matter how you get your fix of love? do you have no sense of what is right and what is wrong? perhaps no1 teach you from young? oh dear.. i forgot again.. you don't have a loving mother to guide you along when you are growing up.. so sad...NOT! Please grow up and listen from sm1 which a better brain, higher qualification, richer and prettier than you.. ME! You should know by now I'm not SN. Please end this poor excuse of a relationship and get on with your motherless life.. It would be the only right thing you've done since you started this joke.. and perhaps some god in heaven would take pity on you and let you find love sometime.. perhaps in india?? same same you know..

xoxo
Your Superior~..

August 23, 2011 8:44 PM

orange said...

First, by saying that someone is motherless u have alrd proved to everyone reading your comment that u r really heartless and inconsiderate. And PLEASE get ur facts right first before u go and confront pple. what 小三?? she herself knows what is going on.u just listen to a one sided story and just lash out at people.it just shows how irrational u r and do things without thinking. and what?? me? low education? hahah.. by the way u comment on my post, everyone should be clear abt how inconsiderate and senseless u r.i dont have to say much anymore to show that. if u r intelligent and u have sooooo much education like u said, then u wouldnt be saying this. cheers..enjoy reading my blog:)

August 23, 2011 10:05 PM

Clarence said...

To that Anonymous...U r sooo damn wrong in yr comments...U have no rights to condemn ppl...one mre time u repeat, i will leave it to the police to settle...Yr "evidence" is pulbished on the net alrdy...

August 29, 2011 11:23 PM

why. why. why
how. how. how
when. when. when
who. who. who.
what.what.what.

i ke siao liao.
dunno y i suddenly turned out this way.
feel so supressed. and wherever i turn is dead end.
irritating shit.
smth is drive maaeee crazieeeeee~

Plain Sick of This.

Thanks for the criticisms.

She knows what she has done. insulting somebody's life is not very civilised of her and whoever has been commenting here.

ESP YOU.

i work hard to achieve what i have now.

SO GET THAT STRAIGHT: NOBODY has the right to insult ANYBODY's life.

You keep telling me that i am ugly and fat and dark.

AND repeatedly reminded me that I AM MOTHERLESS.

But let me tell u,

Even when i do not have a mother to teach me that, i know that it is absolutely wrong to insult other people's lives. Comeon, i dont know why u dont even know such basic courtesy.

Everybody can see that, from the way u comment on my blog posts here.

And i can tell u, im glad that i did not turn into somebody like you.

EVEN WHEN I DO NOT HAVE A MOTHER.

a new life?

I want a new life.

my current is too complicated and unhappy.

im not getting anywhere.

everything is like stuck.

and very confusing.

horrible:/

read and go away. if not just dont read.

whoever is reading this, i have said it alrd.

this blog is for me to express my feelings.

so if u dont like what u are reading, dont read.

y read and make urself unhappy?

if im criticising anybody, i only criticise

if i feel that he/she deserves it.

think and observe.

whose insults are worse?

you should know it urself.

Moreover, i repeat. im not insulting him/her.

im just expressing my thoughts and feelings.

cant i? after all of his/her insults,

cant i just express my emotions out?

u do know that keeping them inside would hurt right?

so just go away if u dont like this blog.

the red boxed white cross is at the right top hand corner.

and it'll get u away from here. thank you very much.

its only just the beginning...

It's just the start of the first day of the 2 weeks that i cant meet or see u.

or contact much with u

AND IM MISSING YOU BADLY ALRD!

omg.in fact its less than 12 hrs man!

oh gosh. baby faster come back k!

im waiting for you...

:/

Shoot my brain man.

it's starting all over again.

that repetitive over thinking.

running wildddd~

and my senses are usually right.

so right that i hate it man.

freak!

MUSIC IS MY LIFE. GET THAT CLEAR.

YOU NEVER TAKE MY MUSIC AS A JOKE U UNDERSTAND.

if u r a professional, u can crit me where i am wrong where i can improve.
im alright with that.
and i would accept it happily and gladly.

but u r freaking not.
so u dont even have the rights to criticise me much more as take my music as a piece of junk.
u have really crossed the line this time round.

URE A COWARD but im glad.

I am so angry i dont wish to talk to you anymore.

i think there's a coward in u deep inside.

u dare to do it.

but u dont dare to admit.

in case u dont know urself well, or hey, u dont want to admit to urself.

BUT, yes. u are this kind of person!

its time to face the facts.

who the hell would do that???

and u still call that a wad rs??

pfft~ a special rs??!!

comeon. u know what u r doing.

i just dont know why u wont feel guilty.

where have all ur conscience gone to?

have u ever imagine, while u are at work or just slacking at ur own home, im at home snuggling with another person.

how would i feel???

i could u ever do that.

thats not human!

thats what bastards would do.

but im glad abt one thing though.

its the fact that u told me about it.

its shows that u r getting really honest alrd.

i told u. u would get this kind of reactions from me.

i would get super agitated.

but its always better than hearing from other people.

at least aft i vent it out, and now tht i know u have once been that bastard to me,

i just hope u would nvr do that to me.

u tell me now, i vent it out. but thts bcos it has passed alrd.

but if in the future u do this again,or/and u lied to me,

thats it man.

i dont know what u want from us actually,

if u want to try a new rs with a diff girl, why did u look for me in the first place?

oh well, its my fault. i didnt state it clearly from the start.

my first wrong assumption is that i assumed that u were the greatest guy on earth and nth would go wrong.

no wonder people say dont get ur hopes too high up. cos when u fall, it really hurts.

u ask me what i want

what i want is a stable, lasting rs. that has no trouble with the 3 issue. trust, honesty and communicating. we have all 3 of them. i might contribute in the failure of our communication factor. but the rest is all thanks to u.

WJH x_x

p.s u say u want a gf who is true to everything. to just be herself. but whenever im myself, u criticise. im emotional! yes thats who i am. i keep things to myself! thats who i am. i show u me alrd. but u just cant see it. oh wait. u just cant accept any of me yet i guess.

the you i know today.

i really really hope u wont lie anymore.

isit so hard for u to stop lying and be faithful?

is it really that hard to just stick to one person?

honesty, communication and trust are damn important factors in a rs.

without one of these, the rs would just get rocky.

tried and tested.

Today, i got to know the real you. deep inside.

the scary u. and im scared.

i don't like this you.

But, Perhaps this is the real u.

the one i knew before, was someone i just assumed u were.

an image i portrayed in my mind from what i hear from pple arnd me abt u.

Slowly and steadily,

u broke all those images one by one.

suddenly u r not mr perfect anymore.

Disappointing. but its a harsh fact.

good guy bad guy

If u are a super great guy who does bad things,

that makes u worse than a bad guy who does good things.

Cos u dont deserve that 'good guy' title at all.

:'/

我们都傻

计算着为你流下了多少眼泪
就代表又对我的心 撒了多少谎
但每次我都选择 选择相信
相信你是 爱我的

倔强的以为我真的能改变你
看你装无辜的眼神 我很窒息
难道你没有看见 看见我对你的好
还是你忘了 那些数不清的爱情轨迹

你说我傻 傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人
我说你傻 傻在爱她 你的眼睛骗不了人
我们都傻 傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出
还在期待会有奇迹出现

你说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
我说你傻 傻在爱她 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现

谁没有为爱做过傻事　
只是问心无愧 讽刺也无所谓

我说我傻 傻在爱上没有感情的分身
你说你傻 傻在爱他 就固执的奋不顾身
我们都傻 傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真
还在期待会有奇迹出现
还在期待会有奇迹出现

:'(

thats it. the end is near...

very near.

sad, yes.

but it has to stop.

selfish bitch and bastard

You 2 are selfish people.

if both of u wants to be childish and keep messing up with ur own lives then just go ahead.

but in case u r not aware, u are messing other people's too.

SELFISH.

and i dont know why am i messing up my own life my entwining it with urs.

its really an act of idiocy and stupidity, what im doing.

Problems once more..

Why is the bitch talking abt a language i dont understand?
cant speak eng i guess.

Anyway,
whatever she said,
i dont know if its real or fake.
and i alrd dont really care as much abt
whether or not u r still unbroken from ur past rs,
u want to be a lousy boyfriend and spoil this rs,
its up to u.
But i wont do tht to u thts for sure.
bcos im not like u.. and her,
keep disrupting other people's life.
mayb she thinks that by making my life miserable would make hers happier,
then by all means, just let her contd.
eventually, this would just take its toll on her.

And to you: if u think im not good enough for you,
or that i lack of smth that u would love to have in a gf,
then tell me! either that or just get lost.
i dont need a guy who just keeps lying and lying.
im sure ure matured enough to know that lies cant sustain a long lasting rs.
and once u start to lie, thats it. it just continues...
so if u r just playing me, then can u pls inform me earlier?
so tht i wont have to take us too seriously.

im not stopping u to contact her u know,
its just that u should know how to behave.
u should differentiate between present tense and past tense.
and how to reject appropriately,
and when to stop contact.
u might not know or disagree. but u dont know how to handle a rs well..

You keep asking me to trust u. and asking me y i still dont believe in you. that u really change le.
i would ask u to put urself in my shoe and think before doing anything that would affect us.

I take every rs im in seriously.
i really love the person and wont do anything to hurt him once i choose to be with him.
but if he wants to be a bastard,
then im sorry to tell him that he doesnt deserve me at all.

A bitch and a bastard should belong tgt.
well, she is a bitch. are u a bastard?

Once Again...

hm.... always that same problem.

can we get it solved?

or would that prob solve us in future?

Honestly speaking, i dont know what im feeling right now.

its like feelingless alrd aft all those torturous months ive been through.

i really really wish time could go back and u didnt do all those stuff in the first place

and when i hvnt lost all those feelings.

but o well, thts in the past alrd isnt it?

time move on, things move on, people too move on.

we(i) must learn to adapt.

but i really hope, like u said, that i can really put my faith in u and believe u once again, again:)

I really hope too, that ur love for me is not just superficial.

but tht there is alrd a depth to it aft so many months...

12 more days:(

I hope u would really miss me and only me aft these 12 days...

i should trust that u would....

16 more days:(

then its goodbye...

so fast!!!

hopefully u wont go in with me and come out with another.

thts wad im afraid of..

but haiya, we shall see bahs~

Meanwhile, we'll just enjoy our days tgt:)

BABY! <3<3<3 , (L)

It just keeps repeating

I think its time.

You dont really feel for me that way do you?

I guess so too..

i have a lot in mind.

But its useless to tell you.

you dont understand.

even if u do, u wont do anything to change it.

Instead of protecting me,

you're hurting me. deeply.

I dont know what u r thinking

and why u r doing this to me.

I've not done any single thing to hurt you at all.

But why do u keep inflicting injuries on me.

And you didnt even give me time to heal.

You dont love me jiu stop acting like you do.

I hate pple who do that.

Confirmation?

i say not confirm

but inside me, its confirmed.

you say confirm

but inside u, its not confirmed.

i can tell through ur actions...

there are many signs to show that.

and it hurts.

yes, it does. but i dont know how to make it feel ok.

only u have the ability to do that.

but dont ask me how.

u goto prove it urself and show it from inside u.

CANT WE HAVE OUR DAYS TOO?

Im going through an emotional turmoil again-.-

But ive been supressing this kind of emotions inside me since our that talk the other time abt not being emo.

Many a times, i wanted to express my emotions.

then i thought of our talk.

and i supressed it back again

and tried facing it positively.

But cant a girl PMS sometimes too?

Today is a lousy day.

Normally, aft our talk, and u talk to me in those sian and uninterested tone, i would swallow it and face it positively.

but suay suay, today my mood not good.

Cos i didnt get enough rest today.

ive been in front of the comp since this morn and hasnt left this position yet. cept for meals.

Then when u talk to me..(yea u know.i dont want to repeat)

that led me to overthinking AGAIN.( i tot i had alrd stopped tht. aft controlling myself)

Aft that some stupid guy msged me and spoilt my day.

Then u had to meet a fren tmr night-.-

i was alrd unhappy that i spoilt our tues. that was my bad.

then now our thurs also spoilt.

Can you see why im in such a bad mood le bahs.

And im still in a bad mood.

LOUSAE DAE~

Im a moody queen tday.

DONT AGITATE ME.

Angilica Ong.

For a Special Someone!

This song is for my baobei baby!

Thanks for changing for me:)

地震的夜晚 赶来作伴
重感冒的凌晨 煮着稀饭
这个让我哭过的人多么温暖
我感谢我们不完美 却坦白自然

我们从牵手放手 又牵手 走过来
愿意为更懂你的心 Spending all my life
每当情绪像海 你只抱我 从不催我讲出来
我就明白 你是我的依赖

我们从期待失落 又期待 走过来
愿意为一起看未来 Spending all my life
每当变成习惯 生活太淡 总有感动的意外
就算是幸福都由老天在管
只借不送 我还是不肯还 用真爱耍赖

我们从日出日落 又日出 走过来
愿意为爱你去忙碌 Spending all my life
每当命运变幻 需要狂欢 需要流泪 你都在
我们明白 爱是互相依赖

p.s the song is on my fb.

THOUGHTS

I had a happy day with u tday:)

I realised things today too.

So i thought through abt wad i should and shouldnt do in future.

What i did wrong:

Recently, I commented.

But dont worry, im never going to do that again...

I didnt know it would affect u so much.

You deleted a gf's comment. but u left ur ex's there.

and ur profile is all filled with her.

its clear enough to other pple who is ur gf le bahs :)

Its humiliating for me.

[But u dont have to delete her post la. i know u dont mind her posting.

cos she always have the right. its so obvious alrd, who is more impt. it doesnt matter to me anymore anyway:)]

But i understand le.

Im never going to do anything public that is related to u le:)

So no worries k.

Im not emoing la :)

I just kinda thought through some stuff.

And decided on my next action.

Cheers and Smiles!

Angilica Ong~

It's You.

I dont understand why are you doing this to me.
Can u tell me why?
You're driving me into a depression le.
I hate this feeling.

But guess what?
each time it happens,
im feeling the hurt lesser and lesser.
I think its starting to affect me less le.
If one day i realise tht it doesnt matter to me anymore.
i guess thats the end of my love for you le bahs.
And pls rmb...
You are the one who made me this way.
If this were to happen one day,
You are the one that forced me to stop loving you.
Dont blame anyone.
Not even the girls and that bitch.
Although they play a big part.

You just dont see it,do you?
The main problem lies in you.

i want my mummy

When im sad i think of her
When im depressed i think of her
When im upset i think of her
When im emo-ing i think of her
.
.
.
I missed the feeling of having a real Mummy...

A moment of sweetness. Then its all gone...

I'm getting the attack again :(

It's kind of like u see smth u really wish u hadnt.

then that surge of hotness boils up in u. all the way to ur throat.

then u start to find it hard to breathe properly

then it subsides.

but the feeling is still there.

and it will stay there for as long as the thing has found a solution.

Why lie to me again?

Sometimes...

Sometimes, i think abt us and i dunno y i deserve this kind of treatment from u.
Sometimes, i think that u take for granted the effort i put into our rs.
Sometimes, i feel that i should just take it easy, be like u and just succumb to temptations.
Sometimes, i feel that i should just let it go and revert back to my old ways.
Sometimes, i wonder why am i holding on.
Sometimes, i feel that im in this rs alone.
Sometimes, i think abt us. and i feel sad.
Sometimes, i ponder. Why do u want to act this way.
Sometimes, i wonder why isit so hard for u to not flirt arnd. Mayb its bcos u hvnt had enough fun yet to finally settle down into a real rs.... Maybe we met too early :'(

Most of the time, i just think of us and wonder what went wrong with ME for u to treat me like this...... Like the rest of them did. but it felt worst with u cos in our rs, i really put in alot of effort and stayed faithful. I just feel that ure not taking my efforts seriously. its disappointing to see my efforts go to waste. Perhaps i have done wrong by staying loyal to just one guy?

I must have done something wrong somewhere.
I think its me.
It must be me...

PARANOID ME

Something's changing.
Something's going wierd...
i can tell.
im tryin to ignore it.
i dont want to worry
but im worried.
i hope its just a wrong feeling of mine.
im scared.
insecured.
zen me ban:(

+Angilica Ong+

THE BEST THING I NEVER HAD

What goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
So baby good lookin' out

[Chorus]
I wanted you bad
I'm so through with it
Cuz honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
I bet it sucks to be you right now

So sad, you're hurt
Boo hoo, oh, did you expect me to care?
You don't deserve my tears
I guess that's why they ain't there
When I think that there was a time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I saw the real you

Thank God you blew it
Thank God I dodged the bullet
I'm so over you
Baby good lookin' out

I know you want me back
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time, another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye

Goes around, comes back around
Bet it sucks to be you right now

=Beyonce Knowles=

Angilica Ong

Unhappy:/ ... PMS?

I hope that God she is worshipping on forgives her.

For doing wad she is doing now.

And for saying wad she has said.

People down here are very blind.

He thinks she feels guilty whenever we quarrel bcos of her.

BECAUSE she SAID so.

So if i tell you that she doesnt actually feel that way,

would you believe me?

(i dont think so. i have a feeling u take her more seriously than u take me.)

Cos somebody with a conscience and who feels guilty for doing it,

is less likely to repeat whatever wrong she is doing.

And yup, no apologies from her to me.

For treating my rs like this.

and treating me like rubbish.

So yup no sincerity.

and pls, if ure reading this, i know u r.

its no use forcing somebody to apologise when she doesnt mean it.

just stop talking and meeting her i would be happy le.

And lastly,

To her:

Thank you BITCH. i would thank u even more if u can just FUCK OFF.

Ok le.

But no matter how much i want to,

Things are nvr the same le...

Everything has changed le.

You have allowed it to repeat again and again,

believing in the wrong person.

I have let it affect me,

trusting the wrong person.

It seems ok now,

but we all know deep inside,

its different le :(

i would really do anything to let us be like how we first met again.

But its hard. Its really hard.

I've tried. i really did. i know u try too. and i am happy. i really am:)

but its just different le.

broken promises. broken trust.

I really had enough of this le.
I trusted u the first time round,
u broke it.
I gave u a second chance,
u broke it again.
I find it hard to trust u le.
then u said u would change.
and u really showed progress.
So i trusted u once more.
I gave u a third chance.
Now u have to go and break that trust again.
i SHOU GOU le.
wad do u take me as.
Somebody who is not impt??
just a fling or smth???!!!
u keep telling me that u and her are impossible alrd.
so y does she keep appearing in ur life.
do u know how impt family meetings are??
your EX can be there but ur GF is not.
y is that so?
and u keep lying to me.
i thought u had alrd kicked away that habit le?
i guess its hard for u right..old habits die hard.
u should just go back to be with that somebody u thought is 'impossible' with.
this is really really ridiculous.
WTH.

Relationship = Game

The Love Relationship is like a Game.

There are 3 endings to it.

It's either a win-win situation

where everybody lives happily ever after.

Or a win-lose situation

where the victor moves on and the loser breaks down

The last one would be the lose-lose situation.

It is where both parties do not want to leave but they have got no choice.

I would really want to experience the first option.

But Somehow, having to find the right one is really difficult.

Has he appeared alrd??

hmm...im still wondering and waiting for some signs...

P.s When u r in a rs with somebody, and he/she doesnt want to admit being in a rs with u.

and meanwhile keep telling other people that he is single, does this mean that he is not the right one? is it time to move on? or do i have to wait painfully and see?

?

Will you really Change?

THE 3 CRITS

Its simple what i want in a man.

• I want a man who is loyal and faithful (no flirting)

• I want a guy who can always be honest with me and doesnt lie (to share with me his ups and downs and all the stuff that happened to him in life)

• I want a guy who loves me for me and just me.

These are 3 sentence to summarise what i wrote initially.

This was wad i typed before ...

I REALLY REALLY want us to be happy tgt once more.

but i think its kinda impossible now le isnt it?

we cant go back even if we tried.

its sad seriously.

i dont know why u have to do this to me from the start.

Is it me?It must be me.

Did i not give u enough love?

Did i give u insecurities from the start?

Did i do smth wrong to u?

U might think i dont know anything that ure doing now.

but im sorry to tell u tht i do.

And im really sorry that we have to come to this kind of stage.

You know,

All im asking is for u to be loyal and not flirt arnd.

And love only me.

It's really that simple.

we can take away those swt talks

We can take away those presents.

What i want is really so simple.

To love me, only me.

To tell the truth, dont lie.

To be loyal and faithful, stop flirting

Thats all!

But its really difficult to accomplish those 3 criterias isnt it?

Can u see y i say we're like strangers alrd?

Because i found out i dont really know the person i thought i knew,

the perfect guy i want,

The you that doesnt lie,

The you that doesnt flirt.

The you who loves only me

that was last time. we were so happy..

Now, i had to know the real u.

thts y,now, ure just like a stranger.

A normal man. who does all of the above and is not ready for me.

not ready to get into a serious and real rs.

Its really upsetting.

I am not exactly happy right now.

Y does mine always go wrong?

How come some people de relationship can be so perfect?

Perfect as in they quarrel,

They make up.

They still stay in love

There is still trust.

How come mine cant?

Wads wrong with me?

I always thought i found the right man.

Everything was so perfect.

But out of all the things, the most important criteria of a rs has to be destroyed bcos u think its alright to do that.

I really feel wasted that our rs has to go wrong

bcos of what u had done

Its really such a waste.

Summary of my Thoughts 010711

This kind of thing just keeps repeating itself.

Then when we're about to try smth new to change it all,

You protest about smth

and we're back to square one.

This is really frustrating.

We each have our own faults i guess...

I know u've been changing.

and i believe that.Really.

but i still cant help feeling insecure due to the lack of trust.

Which is why i would keep saying stuff like that, hoping u would really promise me and gimme a confirmation that u wouldn't do it again.

but as u promise, u also said that u cant really confirm what's going to happen in future.

-.-''' isnt that as good as not saying whatever promises u made

Can u see now?

Lots of thoughts are going through my mind. and im supposed to give u an ans tmr.

Hopefully u would like it.

If we cant contd anymore,

then all the best to u and ur prospective girls in the future.

Hopefully one day u would find a girl who can tolerate ur (this) character.

If we were to have one more chance to move forward tgt again,

i really hope we wont fall back into this same pattern once more...

Beyoncé Performing "Independent Women, Bootylicious, Survivor, Bonnie & ...

i love her lei.
like ALOT!

We are a pair of sick couple-.-
zzz...
but thanks for sending me home when ure not feeling well baby.
:)
hopefully ure well enough today liao silly boy.
muacks!

Us

In the past,

We are like a plain smooth piece of paper.

Shortly after, it was taken and crushed hardly.

We picked it up and tried smoothening out again.

Now all thats left of us

are lines after lines of wrinkled past...

And what we are doing now,

is trying to iron out all the wrinkles

to make it as straight as possible.

to go back to what we used to be

But...

It's never going to be the same again.

-Angilica Ong-

My Feelings. My Origins

I missed the good old days.

The waking up in the early morning when i was still little and being dragged to mama's hse to contd sleeping there.

The walking to kindergarten downstairs.

The preparation of the times when i go Park View Primary.

The smell of fresh unpolluted air in my face when i wake up in the wee mornings to take a bus to Compassvale Secondary.

Sigh those were the days~

Don't be mistaken.

I wouldnt want to go back to those days.

i just want to sit/stand there and absorb in this feeling that im feeling once again.

Life is pretty different now compared to last time.

And i suddenly miss everybody so much.

(NOTE: past and present is diff. although they might be the same person)

Yi yi, my mama, my daddy,my cousins, my sisters(and those times we had), my friends, people who were involved in my life in the past(yes, good AND bad)

.... and HER.

I miss Mummy so soo much :'/

I should go visit her soon.

y am i feeling upset everyday? its frustrating.

I want to go Taiwan fa zhan.

then i dont have to fret over silly stuff everyday

and i can do my favourite thing.

SING!!!

i wish i could just sing everyday freely

as and when i like.

but i guess being out there alone,

i would eventually still miss everyone at home.

though im doing what i love.

my family and frens..

sigh.

but i would really love to leave this country and go to a place whr i belong...

now im just a confused and not really doing what i want de girl :/

who is constantly worrying abt rs stuff.

Really dont understand what is so difficult in what im asking from u.

everyone can do that cept u.

u keep brking my heart again n again.

u ask me what u should do so tht can i gain back tht trust

previously, i know what to do.

now i just totally give up on what i should tell u le.

zen me ban?

can somebody tell me what i should do to stop thinking abt you and ur nonsense?

can u stop hurting me?

why do u have to hurt me?

mayb that love is not strong enough for u to want to protect me.

I hate that i still love you

Im heartbroken to have to do this.

Really broken.

I even want u to come back to me.

But Im afraid that everything would start repeating itself again.

being stuck in a cycle with no way out is tiring enough.

knowing that u think that whatever u have done is alright and u have not done anything wrong to me kills me even more inside...

Im sure you would make a good friend.

And yes, just friends. normal friends.

unlike ur current behaviour with that other somebody now.

thts not normal..

i should show u what normal means.

It really breaks me inside.

I love you.. but im going to get rid of this soon.

WJH.

Us.

Only 3 months have passed...

it sounds so short yet it felt so long

so much stuff has happened between us during this time,

you've suffered.

she has suffered too.

and i keep taking in blows after blows till i hv reached my max.

Now everything seemed to have quietened down.

everything seems like they are back to normal le

but honestly, the feeling between us is kind of different alrd.

At least thats what i feel.

mayb u dont feel it, but i do.

Before, we were in a peaceful n happy place

then that horrible hurricane has to come bcos u didnt settle some of ur past properly.

Not say didnt, u just dont see a need to settle it i guess.

what worries me, is that u dont think that it is a big deal to stay in contact with her in that way.

You want ur rs with me to last. but then u 2 keep doing stuff like this.

Sometimes when i would wonder y am i still here torturing myself.

i would ask myself, do i still love u as much? do you truly love me? is whatever u tell me true? have u been honest with everything? can i trust you?

now, all we were left are all the remains and destruction of that hurricane.

its all left in bits and pieces all over the place, exactly what im feeling now.

It's a horrible feeling.

Hopefully you can piece back all those pieces together.

And we would be alright like before.

And its great that u r honest with me now, like i have been to you all along.

Sometimes i trust u sometimes i dont.

Most of the times, i would think if u r still hiding things from me..

hais.. hopefully nth is going to happen in the near future le.

if not i seriously cant take it le..

SHITTY STUFF

Shit man.

i just posted that i love you so much

and i had to discover another lie.

what the hell.

can somebody kill me pls?

cos my heart cant take such stuff anymore.

you know i really do love you.

I know how getting insecured feels.

But, unlike me, u can put ur heart at rest.

cos i love u 101%.

hate this man. seriously.

We're back to square 1 again.

Lets see if she really does get it or not.

Meanwhile, since ure going to stick to what u all used to be originally,

(contacting ur ex when obviously she is still in LIKE with you.)

when its so obvious that remaining in contact wouldnt solve this problem anymore.

A Way Out of All These. It's Up to You le...

Talked it out already.

Everything seems like they are back to normal.

But then how come i still get the feeling that this problem is not going to go away?

hmm...

im so tired of all these already.

Normally my way of doing things would be just to stop everything though i loved the guy.

so,,, i have NO IDEA at all why u got a second chance.

True, its hard to trust u again.

And im going to give it a shot again.

BUT! this is going to be the last time.

You are seriously a great guy to me.

Mayb u are a great guy to everybody.

and probably thats y there is this problem.

think ur heart is not hard enough for u to make a decision that might be good for all of us.

But it is time to make that right decision le.

I'm not threatening you.. but there are only two endings that i can see.

1. Make the right desicion for us, though u might hurt abit now(but i dont see y u should cos u should have put down that r/s alrd before u entered another). but everybody moves on. Happy Ending.

2. Lose me, and, i duno,mayb u get back with her anddd.... yup. you're back to square one. Back to the past where u tried getting away from a long time ago.

I'd hate to lose you. but i have no choice. Now its all up to u, what u want.

and what im going to do now, is to trust u again.

Something that i have lost at the start, gained back and lost again.

It's really hard. So pls, once ive gained back, dont go about throwing that away again ok.

cos its nvr coming back le.

I love you. but i cant take these much longer....

and then there is another thing. oh gosh. too much on my mind..

another time bahs. this thing, as i foresee, comes after this prob.

so lets get this prob out of the way first.

im trying hard. but can u tell me how to gain back the trust again?

Can u just shut the hell up and fuck off?
i had enough le.
i nvr even offend u about anything.
but u keep provoking me.

and my DEAR boyfriend, u seem to tell her everything about us.
mayb she still cant let u go bahs OH. OR.. MAYBE u still cant let her go bahs.
i dont know.

true, mayb u say u cant fang xia that 2 yr de r/s
but how about ur new one?
ur past life is going to ruin ur current and future life i tell u.
'future' not indicating me only. but ur entire future life.
u can tell me u all frens only.
and frens chat..
ok, true. i tell my ex-es about stuff too.
but they are not bastards.
who bitch arnd and act like as if they own me.

I really had enough of her and all her shit le.
Know how im feeling now?
I am upset now.
trust me. You wont like it when im feeling like this.

the more i see u, the more i miss you.
howwww?
bleahsssss

AIYAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
dunno y, but sian lei.
the feeling is bubbling in me.
i need to go fa xie out again...
humph. . .

Finally Happy

Very Long nvr blog le.

Have been really busy:)

and its a good thing.

although i get tired very fast.

hahahha..

and what i want to say is that,

I AM HAPPY:))

bleahs

WHY DO I HAVE WORK TMR(LTR)!? :/

bye.

going slp le>.<

Just my views.

I dont understand y pple would criticise Tin Pei Ling

i mean, ok, u might not like her.

but do u have to create a hate page on fb about her and let everybody criticise her like as if she is a piece of shit?

i'm not trying to side her or anything.

Because i personally do not really fancy her as well.

But do u have to do that?

Dont you feel bad at all?

she has done nth wrong right?

You might hear frm people that she uses ways to get into PAP or that she acts cute or blah blah blah...

But those are just what u hear frm pple right?

You didnt actually know her personally right?

So what rights do u have to criticise her like as if she is a useless bitch?

I mean, she is just another candidate in this election.

who is striving hard.

So, if u dont like her, just dont like her.

You dont have to say all those mean and horrible words.

Put yourself in her shoes.

Imagine everybody ostracizing you when all u want is to strive like any other candidate.

haix..

above are just whatever i felt.

u might not feel the same.

but sorry, THIS is my blog. So i can say anything i want.

and what i feel is that pple are getting too horrible nowadays towards each other.

me included.

give up already.

Sorry hor
no matter what u say,
when i think abt her,
i still hate her.

you say u got nth going on with her,
yea i believe that.
i really believe.
but the thought of the 2 of u still contacting
just makes me feel weird inside.
its like u hv someone else u treasure besides me.
because if she is a great girl, i wouldnt mind u 2 contacting.
but as i hv known, she is nth like that.
mayb she is good to u but not to me.
you say is bcos both of u she bu de ur 2 yr r/s.
then honestly, i think u 2 should totally put down that previous r/s de feeling first before wooing me.
cos im hurting now, for smth that is btwn u 2.


But ya la,
although we might hv talked things out.
and things may seem to hv like gone back to how we used to.
but i think u might hv sensed smth different abt us le bahs?

Haix..cos i dont care le.
i give up trying to bother about u le
cos its really tiring every second being so anxious abt the person i love
bcos of a third person.
i really hate that i hv to be wary of u.
i want to trust and believe u.
but i still find it hard.
mayb it takes time for u to prove it and the feeling to come back le bahs
Anyway, u can do whatever u want
u can contd msging her
or whatever u want.
im not bothering le
u hv ur freedom and privacy back.
u want it i give u.

I really hope u really understand the reason why she can so easily give u the trust freedom and privacy that u want while i find it hard to give you.

B.I.T.C.H

Congrats to her.
she has succeeded in distrupting my love life which initially i had so much hope in.
Now i see u, or even just think of u, i would link to her too.
the feeling is not the same le.
which is also y i super hate her now.
why does she want to let pple hate her?
i didnt do anything.
but she keep thinking i steal her bf.
YOU TWO ARE PAST TENSE ALREADY CAN
and im super angry at the thought of u two..
which is why i would say this.
" FUCK OFF BITCH "
u want him u should hv kept him well in the first place.
dont lose liao then come and snatch pple's bf away
or keep claiming that i steal ur ex.
just shut up alrd.
ur love life has turned bad.
dont drag mine down.
i thought u were a great person at first.
Really. no joke.
But the moment u took action, you're just another freaking bitch.

" Just because someone flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because someone likes you, doesn’t mean they want to date you.
Just because someone dates you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because someone loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you."

Read this somewhere. its so true.
why do we all have to go through this?
Hmm..
Even if one day, we might break becos of her.
ur nxt r/s wont be easy. bcos there's still her to spoil everything.
unless u let her know REALLY CLEARLY.
that it is impossible between u 2.
and that she really does get the msg and move on.

Ex-es only act this way,
1)Its either she still likes u alot.
2)is jealous of y u can be happy and not her.
3)Why,is it not with her but with some other girls
4)There is a glimpse of hope that u 2 are still possible. that u would one day return to her side
or
5) she is just immature enough to not move on with her life n loves making everybody unhappy. Cos only then would she be happy.

Im really not happy now. Seriously.
And i dont like to be like this.
i dont know y u dont understand y i no longer trust u as much le because the answer is so obvious alrd.:/

beezeeee

Gonna be busy for quite awhile:/

but i guess it would be better than doin nth

cant spend alot of time with u le.

baby i would miss you.

hope u wont run off...

muacks!

Seeing Baby tmr!!!

^-^

Happyyy~

By2-2011年台中跨年 part 2

By2 de voice matured alot.

no longer the young girl voice le.

got some hou du le.

but then hor..it sounds a little weird lei..

小孩很忙20100604 小小彬&阿寶的超可愛甜蜜親親~~

CUTE!!!!!! TTM!!

I ALSO WANT A KISS LIDAT! LOLS :P

[Fancam] 101202 Taeyeon SNSD - Hoot

TAEYEON!!!!!!!!

meltzz!

Girls' Generation(소녀시대) _ 훗(Hoot) _ MusicVideo

Love taeyon!!!

not only is she so cutee!!

and is such a responsible leader,

HER VOCALS ARE SUPERB ALSO!!

omg~

oh and snsd de dance is always so pretty!!

Im back..

and im definitely not looking forward to what are coming up next..

busy months to come

with heavy workload and stuff.

which also means i dont hv a lot of time to spend with him le:/

i wanna go away again!

and i wanna stay there with u forever!!

but kinda impossible man~

sians!

bobian.. going back to my life le...

Not her. definitely

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

tmr going awayyy~

Another thing.

I happened to chance on this opportunity to view her wall.

I duno y, but after reading her posts..

Somehow i dont feel anything lei.

Im not sad nor angry that she said those hurtful words abt me.

I mean, even though i would nvr forget wadever words she vented.

and it did affect me a little,

somehow, her words... hm. i dont know.

doesnt stir much feelings lei..

should i feel smth? angry?sad?jealous??

hmm...

aiyah. going genting happily.

nth is going to affect me^-^

not HER definitely :)

Whoo hooo~

p.s trying to adapt without makeup le. hm..bu xi guan lei..

YAY!

Going genting again!

nxt tues:)

second time le.

going with diff person this time round.

so the experience should be different too bahs^^

i seriously cant wait!!

hahah~

Scared..

Im terrified now..

A guy likes me.

I like the guy.

We get together.

Everything goes really well.

Too well.

I fall really in love.

He doesnt as much.

I get paranoid.

We got disputes.

I got scared.

I would initiate breaks.

this is Usually how it works.. for me.

i dont want:((((

which is why im terrified now.

Baby:)

i really hope we would last.

i love you.

and its increasing every second.

but im getting scared.

and u know y.

i told u le.

i miss you~

muacks!

ai ni oh!!!

ALL the enlistment letters have arrived.

BABY! IM GOING TO MISS YOU!

but im glad u r looking forward to it:)

jiayou k!

And dont worry its lame to just leave u bcos im lonely.

I wont leave u de-.-

i will only do so IF...

1) u ask me to :((((((

2) u did smth wrong to me(like change heart, or u got bored of me le, or u..i duno, alot) :((

OR

3) if u turned gay AND ask me to go away:((((((((((((((((((((((

IF NOT, I WONTTTTTT. muahahahhaa :D ok!!!!

I love you:)

i need u!

but u werent here:p

heehee.

make it up to me uh busy man!

u say de, Im QUEEN nxt week!

muahahahaha~

I love you :)

Emotional Me

I am an emotional person.

i am happy.i smile

i am sad. i cry

i am angry. i keep silent

i am exuberant. i laugh

last night was sad for me...cant slp the whole night :'(

but i am glad ure being honest with me

although u do need some prompting.

i know u have loved her once.

which is why u might be really close with her now.

i mean at the end of the day like you said, u 2 will still hv gan qing.

but let me tell u, although my pasts do not last long,

i have loved them once too

but i wont be that close with any of them now.

because i know that u would be hurt if i do.

and because i love you. i wont do anything to hurt you.

well, me and them. we still keep in contact.

but not in the kind of way u talk to her.

it hurts me to know that.

and i am just telling you that i'm feeling upset about this.

i really am affected by it.

and just to let you know

its hard to trust again once the trust is broken.

'Trust is like an eraser; it gets smaller after every mistake'

so pls prove to me that u r somebody whom i can have faith in.

and that i have made the right choice.

i love n care about u enough to get so affected.

and i really wish this sad feeling would stop.

whenever i see u, i think of this

and i get scared and sad.

zen me ban.

mayb its the phobia i get in the past.

im afraid u would do smth hurtful to me like what they did.

i think im dwelling on this too much.

but i just cant get this off my mind and heart.

i need reassurance.

but i dont know how im going to get that back from u...

OMG. I freaking cant stop thinking about it.

My super Bad Habit and the accurate Sixth Sense thingy is rising up in me again:/

Hate it man!

lousy feeling~

140411

140411!!! hee:p

And many many more months and years to come.

I hope...

hmmm....

Had something worrisome on mind that has been bothering me the whole afternoon.

Luckily i had it cleared with baby just now.

it was really silently killing me inside.

thank goodness i told u everything that was cooped up in me.

and i really really hope that whatever u said is completely true.

Though not utterly & totally convinced,(might be due to past experiences,causing me to be so wary n on guard) but Baobeix. i still love you for you. and i wont regret that i had once loved you:)

Happy Monthsary dear.

missing you already.

See you when i see you. which is *sigh* long time away...

Your WJH forever:p

P.S hope that you would like my gift. though i didnt exactly buy it but i put in A LOT of effort k!!!

so u must like it no matter what. i wont take dislike for an answer OK! muahahahhaha*evil laughter*~

Oh and i LOVE your gift(including that huge amnt of cash spent on us today)

lovesss xoxo!

and bao bao. the angry me would be quieter than that and scarier. just now that abnormally quiet side of me is just the worried and thinking side. u wouldnt wanna try the angry side. trust me.. unless u brave enough and wanna try:p hahah

MUACKS UUE!

Everything's wrong

Sigh..

i really think my flu is thinking of staying with me permanently:/

hate it when my nose dont ting hua.

everything is going downhill for me now.

when everything is not going well,

i tend to think alot

and when i think alot.

it means not good.

cos it would affect my everything.

my mood,

the way i perceive things and people.

things that might seem safe and secure once might look hazardous and rocky now

Im scared.

im like cowering in a shadow right now,

trying to cling onto the things that makes me happy.

i need my reassurance now.

YES!

Literally NOW.

im going crazy le:(

wads wrong with me!?

Angilica Ong.