Sorry! really.

I saw a Loving Couple today.

They were just walking and holding hands.

But both had a blissful look in their eyes when they looked at each other.

I get envious when i see couples like that.

Why do guys i like do hurting stuff.

Making me think i am not good enough.

I just want a BF who cares and whom i have mutual feelings too.

BUT,

I've learnt from my past r/s

that its painful for both parties,

if there is only a one-sided feeling in a r/s.

To : You

So im sorry if im going to hurt you, again.

But really, i dont want history repeating itself.

It's not that i dont want to give u a chance.

Its just that i cant see us together being more than just friends.

You're a GREAT guy. seriously.

there would definitely be a girl out there just right for you.

Sigh.. im sorry i have to do this to you.

Seriously. i dont mean it.

I would get punishment for doing this.

Like getting hurt by others.

I have been through that and experienced that.

And i know that feeling kills.

Time will Heal.

Sincerely, Me.

Walk Away

What do you do when you know something's bad for you

And you still can't let go?

I was naïve

Your love was like candy

Artificially sweet

I was deceived by the wrapping

Got caught in your web

And I learned how to bleed

I was prey in your bed

And devoured completely

Oh and it hurts my soul

Cuz I can't let go

All these walls are caving in

I can't stop my suffering

I hate to show that I've lost control

Cuz I, I keep going right back

To the one thing that I need to walk away from

I need to get away from ya

I need to walk away from ya

Get away, walk away, walk away

I should have known

I was used for amusement

Couldn't see through the smoke

It was all an illusion

Now I've been licking my wounds (licking my wounds)

But the venom seems deeper (deeper, deeper)

We both can seduce

But darling you hold me prisoner (prisoner)

I'm about to break

I can't stop this ache

I'm addicted to your allure

and I'm feigning for a cure

Every step I take

Leads to one mistake

I keep going right back

To the one thing that I need oh

I can't mend

This torn state I'm in

Getting nothing in return

What did I do to deserve

The pain of this slow burn

And everywhere I turn

I keep going right back

To the one thing that I need to walk away from

I need to get away from ya

I need to walk away from ya

Everytime I try to gasp for air

I am smothered in despair it's never over, over

Seems I'll never wake from this nightmare

I let out a silent prayer, let it be over, over

Inside I'm screaming

Begging, pleading

No more

Ah ah

I don't know what to do

My heart has been bruised

So sad but it's true

Each beat reminds me of you

Oh it hurts my soul

Cuz I can't let go

All these walls are caving in

I can't stop my suffering

I hate to show that I've lost control

Cuz I, I keep going right back

To the one thing that I need oh

I'm about to break

I cant stop this ache

I'm addicted to your allure

And I'm feigning for a cure

Every step I take

Leads to one mistake

I keep going right back

To the one thing that I need oh

I can't mend

This torn state I'm in

Getting nothing in return

What did I do to deserve

The pain of this slow burn

And everywhere I turn

I keep going right back

To the one thing that I need to walk away from

Yea

Oh...

I said...

I need to get away from ya

I need to walk away from ya

Only thing I need to do is walk away from you

I need to get away from ya

I need to walk away from ya

Get away, walk away, get away, walk away

choices in life

OMG!!! hahhaha my blog is dyinggg alrd~ so many days never update!!!

i guesss thats because i've not been emo for sooo long le bahs

AND thats because YOU are no longer in my LIFE!!

hahhaha i have made a GREAT CHOICE, havent I?? Whooooooott~....

sing(home)less

MY SISTER DONWAN LET ME SING IN Front of HER= in the HOUSE

Then where the hell m i suppose to lian ge !?

Want go k prac also no time and no buddy pei me-.- uhhhhh

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~

ZZZ

OMG ~ zzzzz..

no life. seriously!

Where did it go toooooo?????

need something interesting to look forward to!!!

how.How.HOW!? 0.0

!? 怎么办`!?

Later need 唱歌 at RP. But 我的声音 GG liaoooo..ZOMG~ Lolss. im so dead and ltr im lead!!! how absurd can this get. just 熬夜a few nights only 就 lidaat =.= lousy immune system laaaaa...................

Havent finish work also.. ZZZ whoooo...........................完蛋 LO~ wish me luck manz

Work~

WORK IS CRUSHING ME

&

DESTROYING MY LIFEE

ZOMG loooook at my bored faceeee.

somehow, i think they all look the same in one way or another..:p

Arghhhh~

I am bored with workkk~WWoooorkkk~WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but there's too much to ignore..

ltr need go sing @ ToaPayoh

tmr also got, at RP i think.

Luckily this is the way i de-stress myself.

BUT dont you think it takes up too much time?

i kinda think so lei..

haix no choice gotto 熬夜 lo。。。

MaDnEsssss

HAHAHA..okok. shall stop hoping le la..

this is crazy looo~

LOL.

Im Happy...whoos :p

Wishing on a Star..

I Wish With allllll my Heart, that i can have a good BF to love

One who would love me back with all his heart tooooo...

:))))

U freaking know what !?!?

I actually felt happier without you!

hahhahaa!!

SERIOUSLY! (this is not an emo statement la:D)

okok, mayb besides the part that i really do miss you a little.

LOLSSS

I REALLY AM HAPPIER.

i just realised that last time just thinking of you

would make me unhappy and worry a hell lot.

Mayb cos i kept worrying whether u would leave me, or what u were doing, are u toking to other girls, or chatting up swt stuff with ur ex, or whther u were true ornot, or just toying with me, or whether u meant wad u said..etc.etc.

And Why would I think and worry too much of all these nonsense , is cos i was insecure.

A good BF dont let his GF worry..i wish i could have trusted u, but U FLIRT TOO MUCH~

Now that im free from you le

I AM HAPPIER!! hahahahahaha

YAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

Changing want and will.

I AM GOING TO CHANGE MYSELF.

for myself mainly.

not for you, ...obviously.

but you might just be a small portion of why i wanted to do it.

Oh well...

Revenge is Sweet.

especially when its good for me...

haixx

I was the one who wanted n initiated it,

now I'm the one who is upset about it.

Weird but True.

I dunno wads come over me, seriously.

But whenever i miss you,

i just think of the stuff u did,

and it would just turn me away.

Luckily we didnt do much stuff together to leave any memories for me to get too sad about.

Not being together was a good choice i guess...

How come its so hard to find a person u like, liking u back?

How come its so hard to find a guy who loves and treasures you more than his own?

How come its so easy for some girls but so hard for me?

To seek love with someone is a hard thing to do..

So girls, for those of u who have good guys, please dont let go easily or do something stupid to spoil the r/s ok... Treasure it.

Cos they hardly come by..

:((

This isssss BAD!

Omggg..

Y did u have to do this? ; There's no turning back

I AM SOOOO GOING TO SING MY HEART OUT LATER!!!!!!

You're not worth it. for me to cry over :/

Shall use this opp to vent out my sadness and anger..

you might be wondering.

But I guess you know deep down why le bahs.

Lousy guy.

This is my first time experiencing this. HONGSTER!!

No Wonder You Don't Want Open Our R/S

NEVERMIND. Now I'm Ending It.

So, F*** OFF LOOSER!!!

(whew,guess i must be really upset to use that word)

Honestly, im really REALLY disappointed. I wanted to trust you.

I should have known right from the start when you so reluctantly said ok to our r/s

I should have known, when you do not want to let people know bout our r/s.

Yes, I should have known, that you were just playing with me.

Yuan lai during the time we were together, and when you were jio-ing me,

you've already had someone.

Why did u do it then??

BUT I've not regretted that i had once been with you.

Nope, i never regret on the decisions i made.

Thank you, for letting me see that there are actually guys like you out there for me to be wary of.

GIRLS OUT THERE, BE CAUTIOUS OK!

You might have succeeded in persuading me to come back to you the previous few times.

However..

This time, i shall not relent.

It's too serious le this time.

Because I cant find myself trusting and having faith in you again...

Go burn in hell stupid!

CONCENTRATE ON SINGING and GRADUATING. Only. No more you liao ...

下定决心，永不后悔你根本就不值得知道爱是什么滋味。兰人！！！

I knew something was not right, yet I chose to ignore it.

Foolish me.. STUPID TO THE CORE...

they are right, I don't even deserve this.

Well, you're dumb too. Give me the password so that I can see everything !?

HA.HA you just go to hell la.

IF YOU R NOT SERIOUS, DON'T PLAY WITH PEOPLE LA

DUMB-ASS!!

I LOVE SINGING A LOT!!!!!!

我真的很爱唱歌 !!!

I love the feeling of having control of the stage and seeing the faces of people when i sing~ hahhaha Suddenly feel an urge of passion for singing which is all along inside me ,when i see A Mei's videos.. :p She's really the Queen sia!! LOVE HER STAGE PRESENCE ~ learning.

heehee~

He really didn't bluff me lei !! hahah:))

The signs are so darn obvious but im choosing to ignore it. STUPID !!!

Maybe I shouldn't turn a blind eye to it anymore.

Mayb i should just wait till he POP then see how...

to see should i go on or just end it.

If he still contds wad he does now, then byebye le.

Shall see his zhen mian mu then~

GET LOST!

I F***ING GOT HACKED LA.

I WOULD NEVER SAY THOSE ER XIN DE HUA LA PLEASE~

WHOEVER POSTED THAT JUST GET LOST LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Giving Up Hope on You..

I think the clouds are clearing.

I've begun to see what kinda place i have in your heart.

Most importantly, my heart is clearing itself too.

Love dies you know, when not properly taken care of

especially when the love is not really deep yet.

Mayb u think too highly of yourself le

Dont think cos i love you, then u can take everything for granted.

Cos i shan't let that happen.

I may be silly enough to love u,

But im not that stupid to let you use me.

Last time when i say i want break, all u have to do was to say u love mi,

and i would end up going back to u.

I dont think its going to work this time round though.

I think im immune to u saying that three words le.

Cos i cant feel the love from you.

Everytime must prompt then u would do or say de.

im getting tired le, Very tired...

Things I feel but wont say to you

I hate it when u don’t call
I hate it when I don’t hear you from for days.
The last time we spoke it was almost magical
But now that I think about it, it seems too good to be true
Seems like you just said all those things because you had to
Not because you wanted to, but just because it was what I wanted to hear
I hate it when u don’t say “hi” when we are both online
You know I’m a girl and I’ll never say it first
Cos then I’ll feel like a loser
I know that’s a stupid thought but,
That’s what I do
I over think
I overreact
And then I go and spoil everything
I hate when you say “I love you” only because I said it first.
It wouldn’t hurt if you said it first.
I hate the feeling of uncertainty when I think about you
I want think about and I want to feel like the luckiest girl in the world
I want you to remind me that you love me
Because I remember the last time you said it
But I don’t remember the last time I felt that you meant it
I suffocate myself with makeup and pretty clothes just so you notice me
Silly huh?
Everyone says you notice me if I’m just myself but...
Who are we kidding?
Everyone knows you notice the prettiest ones first
I don’t want you to become all sensitive and tell me everything you’re feeling
But I want to know how you feel about me.
It might be a lot to ask but
I would do the same for you
In fact I would do almost anything for you so,
It’s only fair you do it for me...right?

i dont think its you..

You always ask me why do i like you.

But i got no ans for u..

I got no idea too.

When u keep talking to all those girls,

i do feel jealous at first, but gradually,

this kind of jealous feeling is fading

maybe im getting used to it le

is this good?

I dont know.

U say u go PH i will not happy mah..

at first i was...though i nvr say anything

but now, it doesnt really bother me that much le.

i dont know y too..

Virgo+Virgo= ??

I dont think we would end up good u know.

When u showed me those stuff ur ex wrote,

rmb i was laughing?

Cos those contents, those stuff that she experienced

is exactly what im going through now.

Now i can understand how she felt.

Baby, i duno. i cant help thinking ure just not the type of guy i want..

Sick n Tired of all that Talkk

I AM DAMN SICK AND TIRED OF YOU ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT THAT.

Getting irritated by your talks these few days.

There is no love and its like you're just keeping me by your side.

Yuan lai the topic that i once loved to talk about has become something that is driving me away from you.

Maybe i've become boring to you bahs..

But i'm getting accustomed to the fact that your msges are not constant anymore.

They say we are amazing, having topics to talk about and being able to keep in contact for almost every day and night for 3 months.

Well, i say we are just plain crazy.

Remember i tell you? I love you should only be said when u really mean it?

Yea. u listened to me. im glad.

My Kind of Good Boyfriend

A Good Boyfriend

• He shouldn't force her to do things she doesn't want to
• When they argue, he should say sorry to her first.
• In the first place, they shouldn't even argue, cos he should let her win.
• Always be concerned about her every little thing
• Message sweet nothings to her
• Constantly remind her how much he loves and misses her
• Be there when she needs him
• He should never disappear without a reason for hours and come back saying he was doing nothing... (come on, we all know that you doing nothing is a lie.And you wouldn't want us to think up our own excuses of what u might be doing, cos i tell u, it aint gonna ever be good)

• DO NOT just talk about s**.
• Let her sleep first. Unless she tells him to..
• Listen to her, treat her like a queen.
• Bring her out for dates
• Kiss her
• Take her home to his family
• Be proud to tell his friends about her
• Only flirt with her. He should not ogle at other girls in front of her
• Let her get snugly in his arms when watching tv.
• Should hold her hands tightly and proudly when parading on the streets
• Hug her tightly,tell her she is his everything
• Never say no or reject her advances. cos once rejected, she will never repeat that again.
• love her everything be it glam or unglam, good or bad.
• Do sweet things for her,but not keeping hopes up, expecting that she would do the same

Most Importantly...

• Only say I Love You (the full spelling), when he really really means it.