New Everything

NEW YEAR

NEW PEOPLE

NEW LIFE

NEW START

I WILL forget about those thoughts of ever trying to get those lousy people back into my life again.

I MUST stop these negativity from entering into my life.

ok, even if they have to (cos we still have to learn from mistakes right)

they must be from these new people that i have met.

Old ones.. hm lets just say being friends is always the best excuse.

Or best still, lets keep it to minimal contact :)

My life is kinda back to normal now,

no painful heartbreaks, no headache-ing worries. no nothing.

worries still have of cos, but not unnecessary ones:D

YAY!

Loves,

A New Me^-^

MERRY XMAS

Plans SketchUp Model Crit.

Omg.

Sighhhhh~

Merry Belated Xmas!

2010's christmas was ok, not much excitement but i cant say it wasnt fun either.

Had a shot at vodka.

And i mean really one shot.

The main purpose of drinking is just to try and see wad im like when im drunk.

Well, turns out when im drunk i get really, as in REALLY quiet AND sleepy.

But honestly, im a lousy drinker. hahah.

a little bit only i peng le. Lols~

Another purpose of drinking is to let myself sleep better.

In the end cos of that shot,

i woke up with a splitting headache -.- zzz..

Im never going to get myself drunk again.

The hangover is seriously.....unbearable.

Eh..I Dont understand how come pple go and get themselves wasted,

feeling terrible and horrible after that.but then go back and drink again.

Hahah..for me, i experience once jiu hao le.

unless somebody guan me, im not going to force myself to get drunk again.

Other than those,

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

i love this festive season.

the atmosphere and environment just feels different.

Like as if its going to snow anytime.

hahahah~ *i just have a wild imagination ok heh XP*

The Happy without thinking about FYP and drunk once jiu hao de Angie signing off :)

bleahsss~

Oh. The curry kept from the party was spoilt.

And........I ate it -.-

Hmm..

Been super busy with Singing n events. sigh.

Really hectic life.

Seriously need to plan my time now le.

if not i would D.I.E by the end of the holiday.

And To You.

Im really sorry

Seriously.

Really hate myself for doing this to you or anybody as a matter of fact.

What comes round goes round and i believe in that.

angilica

Dont Assume.

Ass-u-ming just makes an ass out of you and me.

No, you and you.

Not everything is about u ok.

Move on please.

a thought

Have u ever thought of turning back time?

To a time when u regretted doing something..

or NOT doing something?

Well, different people have different case.

Some might regret not saying goodbye cos its too late.

Many might regret meeting a right person at the wrong time, or vice versa.

Others might regret doing something they did which they think it was wrong.

Most would regret saying or doing something that is irreversible.

I dont know..

Maybe its all about having the right timing, meeting the right person and doing the right thing.

People grow up. I would too :)

The past is the past.

LEARN and grow.

Btw, im writing all these subconsciously..

dont know what im writing also. haha

so dont ask me y. and i am NOT emoing.

im just saying what is in my mind ok.

so dont ask..

Smiles~

Angilica Ong.

TO YOU!

To people who are reading my blog...

i am not emo-ing la :D

hahaha.. just that sometimes i get these thoughts in my head that i need to say out.

but not verbally.

and not through fb (because there are too many unfamiliar people and whenever i write i have to think of wad pple think.)

i just felt that through blog i can express my feelings and thoughts more freely without people commenting all the time:)) in a more private yet still private way..

hahaha.. so no worries k :)

if im emoing, fb would hv a lot of my status saying how emo i am de. Lolsss..

Sometimes. I wonder

Sometimes i wonder why the person i like doesn't like me back.

Sometimes i wonder why i dont fancy the person that likes me.

How does this world works?

No wonder they say that there is only one such person in the world who is meant for you.

Who would hold your hand and never let go.

Who would love you for who u are

Someone who loves you and whom u love back.

But i am wondering where is mine.

I am always, ALWAYS in this sickening cycle.

I like him, he likes me.

We got close.

Then i knew he is actually not that good after all.

Then i get these heartbreaking heartbreaks

and i would emo for a while,

trying to heal myself.

Wondering who would come and cure my emo-ness away.

Then some guy would pop up again.

AND,

the cycle repeats itself.

To guys out there...

Please, please please please dont play with a girl's feelings.

she will definitely remember u for life.

Thats for sure.

She might say she has forgiven u on the outside.

But deep inside.

There is this wound that would never really heal Properly. Fully.

So decide first before u court a girl.

Decide fast if u want to end.

Never let urself procrastinate...

Dont let the girl like u then tell her that u never actually liked her.

Dont do things that will hurt her.

Dont let a girl cry for you.

Be a man.

Angilica Ong

just some thoughts

FYP :/

I cant say im bored

cos i should really be doing the project.

But then again, i really am feeling bored of my life

Like its devoid of something...

hmmm...

Well, i guess i am bored of FYP.

Yes. thats the way i should say it.

Oh Gosh.

FYP is killing me. Seriously.

Damn. its not easy man. and there is still like how many...3 more months left sia!!!!

Doesnt sound long.

but it IS long ok...................................

OKOK.

its short-.-'''

but its torturous to go through these few months.

Jia You bahs. Haixxx... Bo Bian:/

Where Are You?

Is there really no one suitable out there for me?

I mean the more i think of who is possible, the more i realise there is no such person.

So Scary.. i think im going to die alone and single.

hahahah..

they always say sun qi zi ran.

but hm... i dont know la.

and they also say the more u want it, the more he doesnt come.

i think this is true.

P.S pls dont ask me who is 'they' cos i have no freakin idea either.

I guess its all up to fate le bahs.

hopefully Fate will treat me better from now on...

Angilica Ong ^-^

So many things so little time.

Now is FYP time le.

No more R/S stuff for me.

kinda sick of it, if i have to imagine myself walking through all these misery once again.

Now, as long as i dont think of him, i am happy.

Even when i think of him, i still remain kinda happy.

just a bit pek chek only.

Guess i have FINALLY gotten over him little by little le:D

WELL DONE!! Whoooo~ *clap clap* ^-^

hahah xp

Oh. and im also going to concentrate on learning new things.

I've said this for a long time, i know.

but i really wanna learn guitar.

Seriously no idea what is stopping me from going to learn it.

Lols.And i wanna learn how to dance tooooo.

Hopefully can get them fulfilled by next year.

Oh. and my driving lessons -.-''' need to learn le.

ARGH the feeling again.

Still feeling a little regretful about the decision i made:(

BUT AIYAH!!!

Should heck care le.

Since you dont really care jiu suan le bahs.

The ending of us might still be this way.

Im feeling stupid now.

getting upset all by myself here

when you are ok there.

but then again, the feeling is really H.O.R.R.I.B.L.E

Even till now, though everything might seem alright now.

but inside im still struggling to get out of this shitty feeling.

Feeling alone.

Oh Gosh. hope the feeling would go away soon.

GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY!!!

:(

A New Turn. A New Challenge. A New Me

ITS TIME...

Hate my Life now.

Need some changes to get my life right.

Need to set a/some Goal(s) and Target(s).

Need to get myself up and going again.

Yes, thats right.

IT IS TIME TO STOP EMOING LE.

i have had enough le.

This is not the life i want!

No, definitely NOT.

Not worth wasting it on useless stuff.

Should Stop trying to make myself get over him but just leave it as it is le.

things would turn out right someday:) ...

True that I had an lousy experience this time.

Though there were definitely happy times..

Another Lesson Learnt, store it & stop dwelling on it,

It's time to move on ...

In Life there are always Up and Down.

Well, guess im having my down side this time round

Thankfully, i have been hurt much much worse than this before.

So I can definitely take it this time:)

Put on a Brave Front no matter how painful it is now and move my ass,

Get myself outta this shit !!!

A Positive Mind would Attract Positive Prospects and in turn get Positive Results (^-^)

It's time to Grow Up again :)

P.S Thank you pple out there who has given me their support:) really appreciate it.

THANK YOU :)

sian sian sian sian sian

Waaaa..i seriously seriously dont like this sian diao de feeling man.

Haix... think don't fall in love is better.

Cant bear another heartbreak le.

i think i can die...

Why must u turn out to b like this.

if dont have feel jiu dont start mah.

start liao then somebody confirm will get hurt de lo.

Mayb this is retribution. Karma ah ~

Healing wounds in process...

I HATE YOU!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A piece of advice to you.

Want a r/s jiu dont flirt. Flirt liao is lidat de lo. Regret le bahs?

Better go get her back.

Who wouldn't want their partner all to themselves?

Now u know wads the feeling le bahs.

Stupid lo u.

After she come back

Don't do it again le.

Thats the reason i left u too.

But i guess she is more unfortunate to have to go through wad i have been through.

It hurts like HELL ok.

So u better listen up and be FAITHFUL.

Stupid Guy...

Now that we r frens le. im giving u this piece of advice.

TREASURE HER.!

Im glad i dont love u anymore.

Angilica Ong

For the people out there

I found this somewhere.. pretty interesting.

To My Friends Who Are.......... .SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are............ NOT SO SINGLE

Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.


To My Friends Who Are............ PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE

Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works
both ways...


To My Friends Who Are........... .MARRIED

Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'


To My Friends Who Are............ ENGAGED

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how
good you are for each other.


To My Friends Who Are............ HEARTBROKEN

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to
go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.


To My Friends Who Are............ NAIVE

How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
and get hurt but never keep the pain.


To My Friends Who Are........... .POSSESSIVE

It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To My Friends Who Are............ AFRAID TO CONFESS

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are............ STILL HOLDING ON

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.

To You.

I don't need somebody who just contact me as and when he likes.

Why do i want to find somebody who tortures me so much?

I should stop playing the fool already.

There are so many people out there who genuinely cares about me.

Your kind of action always tell me that you already don't care.

So why the hell am i still waiting hopefully for an answer to this humongous question?

U contacting me is so little that i no longer sit there waiting for it.

Yes,

A Clever Girl Should Learn How To Protect Herself from Harmful Boys.

Virgo.

Virgos are rationale creatures.

this is a statement, not a question.

well i guess so.

Cause i always think too much ...

Feeling frustrated :/

Why do i keep going back when I already sorted out my thoughts.

Playing.playing.playing.playing.playing.playing.

Nothing else le.

We are impossible.

Can't go back to what we used to be~

I'll just have to accept and move on...

Need to go and walk it out le.

Virgority Angilica

Terrifyingly in Love (Like)

And I~ in love...

And I~ am terrified.

.Terrified by Katherine McPhee ft Zachary Levi .

So true right?

From the moment u refused to answer

I knew it.

And from that point on,

I gave u up.

It's tiring to think that its possible.

It's exhausting to just hold on to this, alone.

It's irritating to believe that u like me.

Life goes on though, doesn't it?

Just put on a brave front,

store the past away

and move on...

I shall find myself a better one

who treats me better than u did.

and treasures me more than u thought u did.

Somebody.

It's hard though,

for 2 person to have mutual feelings

and have their actions appreciated and reciprocated.

but o well, either he comes or he don't.

But You,

u had ur chance and u decide to just leave it hanging.

It's pretty obvious, the choice u made.

Though u didn't make it known.

I like you,

but to have it one sided is really really...

So i have decided.

I shall make the desicion for you.

No, for Us.

Cheers to the days to come for us.

Angilica ("/)

TIRED TTM!

Malacca was pretty ok...

BUT

come back need to complete assignment

slongside FYP..zzz

Tired TTM man!

the whole world around me is like spinning le.

cant stand it , going slp le.

Opinion changed.

Mindset changed.

Target corrected,

Goal SET.

Presentation tmr.

Sian diao

disappointed today man.

tot can go out aft submission

yuan lai still got presentation...

SERIOUSLY hor...

HAIX

:p

Hm. want to learn :

guitar and dance.

hahhahah

im greedy mannn~

lols.

:/

:( i also don wan to ask those qns.

but u never show properly.

haix. stupid you.

hm.

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?

Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?Should I?

Should I?Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

Should I?

SHOULD I???

What if..... I Did?

Dont like Playboys.

They break hearts.

Y cant they just settle down with a girl

and love her with all their heart.

Guess thats y they call them Playboys..

A person's heart is very VERY fragile

That's y its being protected by so many other body parts.

Once its injured it heals really slowly

but no matter how 'healed' it is

it will always leave a scar.

and a lesson learnt, the hard way.

I've learnt mine..

and i am scared of repeating the same mistakes again.

for fear of getting hurt. Again.

haix

Busy Tues

Busy Wed

Get Lost,Please.

OMG. Please Go Away

Damn fed up with you.

you should know its over already.

We are a thing of the past le...

I just want a normal life.

Why do u keep coming back and now u want to intrude into my life.

Who are u to say what i should do??

You are nobody to stop who i wanna be with.

Or who i dont.

Please understand that i really dont like u around me.

Stop trying to interfere.

Dont do stupid things.

Dont make me hate you...

Helpless.

Angilica Ong

The Beach-y feeling is coming back again.

Want to just go there and sit and listen music and think~

But no time..

haizz~

piaaa!!!

SCH STARTED.

WORKLOAD IS....HAIX.

FYP, PIA LIAO!!!

1/2 yr more~

错的人

Adpated from:

萧亚轩 Elva – 错的人

明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬

朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑...

愛得太真 太容易 讓自己犧牲

太容易讓自己沉淪 太容易 不顧一切 滿是傷痕

我太笨 明知道你是錯的人

明知道這不是緣分 但我還是奮不顧身...

Exactly wad i am going through and feeling... love songs that is like this.

totally speaks my mind.

OMG.

Seriously. The sian diao de feeling is indescribable.

yes, school going reopen le-.-... if its just modules im ok.

its..FFFFYYYYPPPPP~

no mood to type le.

bye.

12 songs!?

明天的十二首歌。。。

令我感到很害怕

怕没有把握。由其是那几首新歌。。。

惨了！！！我完蛋了得加倍练习

一直听一直听。听到苦瓜烂熟为止。

加油吧:)

Please forgive me if there are any errors above.

hahah.. im not really good at writing it out:p

but seriously goto keep listening and singing..

if not huh... like 表白。。。(ahem*for those who know ha..:p) jiu die le.

going 加倍努力了！！！

byebye

Angilica Ong.

Changed.

I dont like changes.

Drastic ones esp.

Your attitude change.

change change change

i dunno, mayb to u, u dont think so.

but to me, its kinda irritating.

i am the kind of person who would think a lot.

so pls, if u dont tell me anything.

Can u imagine wads running through my mind

if u like just say. dont like also just say mah.

i might get offended.

but its better this way.

i like strght forward pple.

thats all.

Sian already lo

Sch is starting and im getting freaking scared.

cos that means FYP is starting too.

im not really ready for it yet.

5 fREAKING MONTHS LUH!!!

sian diao-.-

busy le from now on..

SuPeRStiTioUs??

I think i am a pretty superstitious person.

In terms of horoscope n fate n things like that.

NOT the black cat kinda superstitious.

But its sometimes irritating to be superstitious.

Its tiring and exhausting

Cos you'll tend to think too much.

I dont like it this way.

But my mind controls me too much.

Frustrated.

Movie Preview。。。信不信，由你

The first 3 days of my 2 weeks holiday has been wasted.

SERIOUSLY.

Omgggg~

i want to go out. i NEED to go out.

Contd like this i will DIEEE. REALLY.

feeling super pek chek already.

Wanna get my messy hair done.

but dunno want to do what with it.

i want to keep it long and natural

dont wanna reborn...

but currently, its pretty unkempt.

BURLESQUE

And i really am getting crazy over burlesque.

looking at the preview only will gimme goosebumps.

Christina is really good man.unbelievable.

Cant wait. but its coming out only in november...

SO LOONNNGGGGG~

Sighhh!!

BURIED

Went to watch Buried too, with my er jie.

The process was not bad. just super dont like the ending.

Oh. and throughout the movie we were mainly kept in the dark.

cos it was in the coffin throughout the whole damn show.. hahahah

Seriously. people who has got fidgety butts, Please. dont go and watch this.

It is a fantastic show with all the mixed emotions expressed out nicely by filming just a single man in a coffin throughout the show.

But honestly, i wouldn't sit through it again.

童眼

Looking forward to 童眼

Starring Rainie Yang... saw the preview in the movies

and i was scared until i just kept stuffing the popcorn into my mouth nonstop while my eyes were staring at the screen.

Thinking back. its really damn funny~

My first horror in the movies.

i usually watch it at home... so um.. i THINK i am looking forward?

hahah... i dunno also. i think i am la.

Update soonnn:) slping early.tmr got a day of work..zzz-.-

I am feeling super demoralised..

i know my standard drop le.

the more u criticise me, the more i cant do well.

i am different from others.

Normally pple need a lot of critisms to agitate them and improve themselves.

BUT. of cos, critisms are neccessary.

but enough means enough. adequate critisms jiu hao le

dont overdo it.

you overdo it, and my lvl of confidence would drop.

and it would take a long time to get it back again.

feels so stressful now when i hear others sing...

LOVE HER LUH

I AM LOST

OMG!!! Burlesque!!!!

I am so damn, freaking going to watch that.

Starring my favourite girl^.^

LOVE HHER LUHHHH~

so li haiiii!!

I SERIOUSLY AM GOING TO WATCH THAT!

omgomgomg. just saw the preview and my hair stood up~

YES, its THAT good.

love this kinda shows. glad she is inside.

Cos she is freakin BRILLIANT.

Oh, im talking about Aguilera. CHRISTINA AGUILERA.

=Angilica Ong=

DAMN IRRITATED

I get irritated recently...

think iknow y.

buticant help it.

OMG STUPID SPACE BAR!!!!!!!!

spoil again!?!?!??!?!!??!!

WTH luhhhhh~

wannabuy ASUS laptop.

feeling irritated AGAIN-.-

dontwant tok le. bye.

ANGIE >.<'''

BORIINNNNGGGGGG~

OMG NEED SMTH INTERESTING AND CHALLENGING TO 'BOOST' MY LIFE.

if i want to.... i must start.

OMG.fat.Fat.FAT!!!!

Eat.sit.work.eat.sit.work.eat.sit.work

everyday like that~

it has become a scary routine le.

need to exercise...

i want to learn guitar lei.. isit hard?

i want to learn he ying..

i want to learn how to write songs..

i want to find a proper music school for vocal lessons..

i want to learn to dance too..

i want to learn a lot of stuff.

i keep saying im busy im busy...

but somebody once said this to me..

no matter how busy u are, u would always find time to do the things u have passion for..

do i have a passion for what i like?

Idaresay,YES.

so i think i should go ahead with what i want to do.

and dont let 'no time' be an excuse to stop me.

before everything is too late and i start regretting,

i had better start.

... EXHAUSTED

MY COMP AT MY OFFICE KEEP DYING:((

damn stress when i go work luhhh~

like as if spoil is my fault lidat.

cant do anything there feels damn bad.

everyday come back feeling sooo tired

see laptop also no motivation to on liao.

sit there stone for a while jiu feel like slping le.

OMG whr did my life gooooo???

but, hahhaha, ironically, i like working life more than sch.

mayb there is lesser stress bahs... i dunno.

Singing~ p3 coming~ work~ stress~ omg alrd so tied down luhh

really need to relax a little le...

my life is getting complicating.

no good no good.

cos i cant handle complications well.

Angie.

MIXED FEELINGS. ONLY ONE HEART.

things to doooo

Found this website online and found it superly, damnly, freaking true...

http://new-year2007.blogspot.com/2006/12/everything-about-virgo.html

i mean maybe its because i happen to be somebody who believes A HELL LOT in horoscope.

but still, this is freaking TRUE ttm. SERIOUS!

Got a lot of things in mind and i need to get it cleared out and listed.

THINGS TO DO..

-Get a NICE purse/wallet

-wanna watch the donnie yen movie

-get a beautiful maxi dress & wear it.

-wanna jian fei ( but the more i say the more i dont do it :/ )

-do something about my music direction and where i am heading and what i want to do with it

- FREAKING FYP. need to get this settled.

- and ... (i have to make a worrisome and difficult desicion)

SO MANY THINGS TO DO LUHH..

im sure there's more. but thats all for now...

Angilica Ong

Mayb i should simplify things a little..

Come On~

Thats Interesting,

Dunno pple ACTUALLY come and read my blog.

BUT Y DONT U ALL POST IN THE CHATBOX?!

its getting lonely at the corner there all by itself~

hahah...

Shifting office now...

busy with work.

but one good thing about working is that i can really relax at night.

just A thought. NOT

OMG. everything is so darn sucky recently..

feeling lousy all of a sudden..

phsically, mentally, psychologically.

wanna hide away in some place ALONE,

where there is just the beach and i.

Feeling Fat and Bloated~~~

sian Sian SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Dont like the crowd, i want some peace and quiet luhhh~

i want to exercise like mad and sweat it out.

exercise and feeling fit does make u feel better.

and i m soooooo going to do just tad!

i want to change..

REALLY FEELING DAMN LOUSY LUHHHH~

(sorry for repeating that..)

BUT SERIOUSLY,

i just wanna hide and have time of my own with no other worries..

but i know thats like kinda, pretty much very much in fact, impossible.

Event

EVENT at hougang mall area later.

hope my voice wont close AND remain close.

Feeling weird today~ hm... dunno y..

Yesterday went out with you :)

and had fun meeting ur frens too.

You have great friends. hahaha~

will update again soon.

jiayou for the 21km ok!

rushing off NOWWWW!!!!

damn im LATE!

zomg..

FEELING SUPER SIAN TODAY. Oh ..and ytd night.
no idea why~
no mood larhhhhssss~

sigh

I want to be a SINGER.

but first, there are a lott to improve.

i've taken my first step out of my comfort zone, which is to be on stage.

almost a yr has passed since ive made tad step. i think its time to move on further.

there is not much time for me...

I love ur hugs, i love ur kisses.

But i love it more, when i know u love me :P

soo darn long mannnn

Finally saw u ytd :DD

BUT NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!

Im waiting Waiting, waitinngggg~ for the 14th

Soooo slowww larhhh~

Actually im a person who expresses myself better through writing.

I like to listen to pple talk but dont actually like to verbalise my words out.

Which is y i dont talk much.

will update again stay tuned arhhh!!! i know u will :p bleahs

30th Emotional August

30th august is a special day.

had time spent with my family.

went for a delicious dinner at tamp

THEN HAAGAN DAZZ^^ whoooo~

but cant have u by my side today :/

Actually today i had a sudden urge to go mandai today.

to visit Her.

ALONE. nvr tried going alone.

duno y also

suddenly felt emotional. like now.

miss her terribly much on these kinda special days.

feel like toking to her but knowing that she's not going to reply is upsetting.

:'/

my thoughts.

Sometimes im afraid that if i show u too much affection,

u would retreat back.

Thats y i've always been a little hesitant in expressing myself out.

I would really love to spend my special day with you.

but then again, you're right, there are other more important factors that comes first.

Family is definitely more important.

Hopefully one day, u would be able to join me and my family...

you're 22 and im 19(finally oficially 19 today)

thts 3 yrs apart... and u definitely think more than i do.

Im glad i met u, as i've always told u repeatedly, again and again.

Because..... i REALLY am GLAD.

To you!!!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :)))

Saturday night was enjoyable, though the tent had some problem with us(yes. it was the tent. NOT the other way round mind you). heehee.. but still, we managed to appease it in the end :p

LOVE THE PRESENTS!!!, and you haahahahhah...

Thanks you for the early birthday pressie and 'celebration' ^^

AND we definitely got to know each other better didn't we? bleahs~

But all in all, what i want to let u know is that i was lucky, very lucky in fact, to have u stepping into my life after all that rubbish r/s i have gone through in my latest previous one.

Aiyah, there's a lot i want to tell u. But its too public here.

go see ur FB message k :D

Angie.

Disgusted

Was on fb just now.

Scanning through wad pple were doing and i bumped into his photo.

Regretted clicking on it.

looked at the him now, and his life, with disgust.

how could i be so blind.

I mean his life is revolving arnd bu san bu si de pple.

Girls with their skirts so tight and short, looking like ah lians.

and everyone is smoking and drinking their lives away.

Why do i even want to be a part of this.

Im lucky and glad i never did.

Getting out of him was difficult, very difficult and heartbreaking. i admit.

But i am absolutely sure i do not EVER want to be/in a part of him again.

GROSSED OUT.

3 more days~

today is Thursday

tomorrow is Friday.

then its SATURDAY!

YES!

heehee~

DREAMING

WHEN IS SATURDAY COMING ???
Too longg liao lo one week.
hmmm.. if only i can shorten the days..heee :p
Then work jiu no need so many days.
lets see, if i were to set my days of a week this is wad i would do..

ANGIE'S WEEK

MONDAY

No work, slp at home and slack, go out shopping.

TUESDAY

Work day, 10am to 12pm

( come on, we still have to work dont we? hahahha so 2 hrs should be enough)

WEDNESDAY

Off day

(hahahah 2 hrs is too tiring i guess)

BBF day ^^

THURSDAY

Another 2 hours of work.

BFF day^^

FRIDAY

Boyfriend DAY!!!! (if i got one >.<)

SATURDAY

Singing Day cum Bf Day~

SUNDAY

Family Day

But seriously la, lols. that only happens in dream.

if in reality lidat, i would die of boredom

ohoh. and there would actually be no money for me to spend.

Oh well, its nice to dream sometimes...

DENG

WAIT WAIT WAIT~
humph...

Happy SATURDAY

Had a wonderful day ytd:)))
hahhaha~
Hopefully today de voice would turn out right too:D

Thank you for waiting for the whole day ytd, though u dont really listen to chinese songs^.^
Can understand how torturous it must have been for you to wait the WHOLE FREAKING DAY for me:P
Thanks dear:D <3
Missing you:P bleahs~

Even though its just for a short time,

im happy with the time i spent with youuu:)))

Just a normal friday

Tomorrow gt performance. whoooo~
after such a loonnnggg time.
and tmr is a special day
hahahhahah..*wink wink*
but wad to wear tmr for the performance sighhh~
hmmmm...

...

我现在很想一个人。。。

:))

INCEPTION is a freaking complicated and confusing movie but its also a DAMN nice and Well-plotted show. SOOOO happy i managed to catch it on screen before it comes down:))

Salt is not as bad too.. just that i dont understand why she wants to have this kind of job. Oh well, i guess she likes it *shrugs shoulders*

Still wanna watch movie though. sighhh~

Had a wonderful day today:) thanks to someone... hahah

well at least u gt to know a little bit more bout me that i do NOT usually act as feminine as i wear. hahahahah~

thats me. and thats the way it shall be. and ...

BEWARE, there's more to see and more to come~ heehee

feeling superrrr tired now, but i wanna finish my words...

To You:

Thanks for accepting whatever i told u on the phone the other night.

my past, my behaviours and actions that i once do, did, done.

Thank you for not judging but just listening & understanding me.

Weird as it is, but still, thank u for liking me for who i am:))

Of both the bad and the good.

This sole point alone has moved me inside;p

I'll miss you im sure;X

Angilica Ong.

P.S I've been too quiet when im with you. have not open up fully YET. but pls understand that this takes time..

To you :p

:DDD thanks for the walk back ^.^

thank god u got back in time.

wellll, Until its official.

i shant say more xp

:) singing day

Oh welll.

voice was ok only today

it was better than i expected but stillll...-.-

gonna train up for 21st and 22nd :DDD

looking forward^^

thanks for the support though:))

yes, YOU. hahaha~

not enough power lei..

might b cos i havent recover from my flu bahs..

humph. but i shall not make excuses for myself.

not good means not good.

must go improve jiu shi must go improve.

will do my best de:)))

climb stairs~

Angilica Ong~

ahahhahaha

I thought only i write the blog to let out my feelings. fullstop.

Didnt know that SOME people also got read my blog..

hahahhahah...

you know im toking about you! lols...

Salt~

Its damn Sickening to be SICK

so sianx cannn ...

just wanna eat med then slp.

but then again, i dont like medicine..zzz.

ohoh.. upcomin movie that i really, REALLY wanna watch~

SALT!! whoooo~ i love the plot.

hopefully the show doesnt turn out bad.

didnt manage to catch Inception.. o welll, nvm.. shall watch that another time:P

Him n Her

He Left Today

(Yesterday- 29/07/10, 9:10)

Great GREAT Man, dont think i would ever meet anyone greater.

Im glad he left for home so peacefully,

with no struggle or any signs of pain.

Thank God for that.

Rest In Peace, YeYe...

You know that we'll always remember and love you forever...

Missed her extraordinarily much today too.

O Well, we should be glad, Him n Her have left for such a wonderful place,

after all these time spent here. Guess it's time they really Really enjoy themselves:)))

We ought to be happy.

But of course there would be a great deal of misses and reluctance..

He was there for us when we need him,providing infinity love for us , told us all his stories, carried us when we were babies, watch us grow up as time goes by, all the time spent in malaysia, teaching us how to slice fruits, making swings for us, taking us to the beach...

Happy for Him though:) Just like I was for Her.

Loved and Missed.

Boyfriend? Competitons?

Life has been sooooo darn boring so far.

No boyfriend , finding one is tough enough already.

But Finding a good one, seriously~

thats like close to impossible.

Trust me. Sigh~ but i want one:( a long lasting one

i really have no idea y some girls like to date so many guys,

all within such a short period of time. 2, 3 months jiu end liao.

i think finding a serious one is better than wasting ur time,

healing a broken heart or breaking others heart.

A boyfriend..hmmm... sigh.

It's been a long time since i joined any competition liao

i think maybe i should go find and join some competitions again

to see where my standards are already.

What say u?

Been trying to improve my voice.

sometimes its good, sometimes it lacks power..

No idea y. trying to figure it out.

i want go K!!!

but no time:( only at night. and i cant stay out too late.. sians~

Miss all my girls out there:)

XOXO

Angilica Ong

hHurt-ed, but still, thank you

I am not what i used to be le.

after u changed me,

im no longer what i used to be, so weak willed.

So stop imposing whatever previous impression u have about the current me OK.

Something inside me changed. for the better of course.

It's all because of u. Broke me but still thanks anyway.

for the lesson taught, though through the hard way, i learnt.

POWER

I LOVE DAI AI LING's voice!

no idea why she is not as famous yet.

Ding dang also. sigh...

powerful voices but not famous.

why.Why.WHY!??!

lols.. i sound so agitated.

hahhaha..

power in the house manzzz..

gona train till im lidat.

really.

So tired my eyes are closing but i dont feel like going to sleep~.~

Sianzz...

Attachment is TomMorRow!!..

i meant later. OMG just a few hours more only.

damn excited and scared at the same time.

dunno wad i am facing...

maybe cos its some unexpecting prospect that's y i'm afraid bahs..

hope that my future fellow colleagues would be friendly.

n wadever they ask me do i know wad to do~

i want to watch despicable me:(

i want to watch despicable me. but nobody is freee:(( and i got limited time nia. sigh..

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over le~

can still remember how i dreaded sch reopening because of p3 and attachment and fyp.

all those whinings.. hahhaha

now p3 over liao. in a blink of an eye.

next week going for attachment liao.

heard its a new company.

looking forward:)...

hopefully people are friendly there!

Stressed up liaoo

see la ANGIE WANG!!

dont follow plan jiu shi lidat de lo

So many times liao

still dont learn your lesson de lei.

Zen Me Ban!??

nvr mind, i shall try my best.

hopefully tmr sch bookshop gt open!!

praying crossing my fingers~

Time really flies..

Time really flies..

I miss my younger days suddenly.

Im almost reaching 20 le.

Er jie dou JC le.

And its visibly known that Dawn has matured alot though she's only in sec 2.

Reminiscing back the times when we were still all in the same primary school.

hahahah.. there was jia yi and kai kai too at that time.

we were all so close..

it was like just ytd when we were sitting together with a lot of cluttered books at the table learning the frustrating english, and practising maths and the memorising ting xie.

Back then, it was seriously frustrating. No Bluff.Lols..

Sigghh

but now, i would like to go back to those times when we were all so young, innocent and carefree.

With Her around, there were tears and laughters.

Fun times. and He would come back looking jolly and happy with midnight snacks.

A few weeks ago. the four of us were having dinner at home.

and He was saying, how five years ago, our family was so happy and complete.

Then he say, five years later, we wont even be sitting around with him like this having meals together. Because we would be busy with work and our stuff.

The thought itself is so true which is why Its so disheartening to hear it.

Will we really be like that?

Now that He is all alone, we cant allow ourselves to leave him alone by himself .

No. We Cant. NEVER...

family is important

OMG!

i got 海豚音.

not completely perfect yet though..

going to perfect it

so that i can do that confidently on stage.

Hm... but these few times on stage,

I found that my voice has deteriorated a bit.

Kinda affects my performance.

Actually not kinda, is A LOT!

SIGH

time for more exercise and continuous training of my diaphragm le

And one more personal thing.

I have to take note of taking into consideration my family time too

and being responsible

With School Work and Events,

i cant help but neglect my family a little.

They have been understanding..

but signs of displeasures sure is showing..

Gotto give them more time. which means less attention on singing

and more on family and school.

NEED to make a PLAN.

Smell of Memories

If only...

Meeting him could be avoided.

sitting there at far east,

I didn't know at that time that

He would be my first experience of falling out of love,

in a terrible way.

Really broke my heart though we weren't actually together.

Made me afraid of falling hard for another again.

Cautious from then on

From a person who naively believes in Love,

to a person who believes that men are all the same..

i sure have been through some tough times,

struggling on my own.

Now that I've been through all that,

I finally understood that some Men are the same.

Though the feeling for him has faded from love, to hatred, to 'feeling-less'

He has left a wound in me,

a wound that I believe would eventually leave a scar

a scar for me to remember this lesson well..

2 heartbreaks in just that few months.

Though the second one is i suggested the breakup de,

regretted a little, but still

sweet talks to other girls while in a r/s is like a horrible crime already.

I mean, where would we be if i haven't already break up with him?

Oh god, so many bad memories of these 2, esp the first one.

Terrible. Really Horrible.

The smell...

Sigh.. brings back all those heartbreaking memories

but surprisingly, i don't actually hate that smell.. so weird.

BUSY.

海边

I WANT GO BEACH!!!

Sitting there, looking into the sea

smelling the salty air

feeling the cool breeze on my face

listening to my I-pod

I sure can multi-task cant I ? Lols..

Actually all these calms me down..

I have no idea why too..

just feels drawn to the beach.

Brings all my emotions out.

I guess that's because there is no bustling life there,

everyone is just taking their own swt time,

enjoying every bit,

savouring every moment.

If only life out there would be like this..

Mayb i should emigrate or migrate to Australia.

hahhahha.. mayb i would like life there :P

but Singapore is a nice place too la, honestly.

But i guess i just like the slow pace in life

cant adapt well to the fast paced one..hmm.

SINGAPORE IS FLOODING AGAIN!!

omg. i seriously think it might not be the clogged drains lo..

i honestly think Singapore is sinking .

zzZZ..

luckily pasir ris is not affected.

our drains are clear here^^

but there was a post in stomp saying that

there was one night recently that my area was flooded.

erm.. but i didnt see lei.

so.yea.

Unfortunately, those flooded places are situated within town area or further away from the east.

how do i know?

COS ITS EVERYWHERE IN FACEBOOK!!!!

lols~ recently all the posts are about floods and world cup.

u seriously cant miss anything bout these inside fb u know

hahhahahhaha~

POEMS~!!!!

Working in the level 6th studio.

Nice and quieter in this room

Spacious, clean and relatively organised.

Me, me and no one else.

No bed, no distractions just tables and chairs.

this is the perfect place to Cad & Max :D

hhahaha..u get this when u do Creative writing

fun on the overall, with loads of speaking up

and spontaneous response.

ENGLISH RECAP TIME!!!

lols. and yea. though sec school always got HOD, but since then my english has deteriorated :p

Reflection

Physically and mentally drained sia..

Sch Work + Learning new Songs..

EXHUASTED & TIRED.

So many things to do and worry bout.

not enough time though. wish time could just stop right now and let me finish my stuff~

the most worrisome thing now is that i m soooo scared that my comp might crash anytime.

Damn scary~

Now, i am just sooo GLAD that THAT previous r/s with him has ended earlier on.

If not, i seriously could die with so much stuff in my head.

Realised that he only give me worries. Not much happiness..

Came to realise that i WANTED happiness with and from him.

But he doesnt give it easily.

Duno is bcos his character is like this, Or bcos he doesnt love me,enough.

Thats why being with him is a tiring matter.

Because i give much MUCH more than he does.

Wait, actually, if you really really LOVE the person a lot, u dont and wont really mind how much u give.

Guess, he is just the kind of guy i want, but dont really actually LOVE deep down.

No Wonder there are all these problems surfacing bout insecurities..

Hard to be with someone who doesnt shower u with care and concern yea?

Someone who only show signs of flirtatious behaviour.

Till now, im still kinda pissed by his behaviour. WTH.

But Nvm its good that im alrd getting away from his environment.

One less worry would do good for me:))

Why Not?

I LOVE YOU.

yes, You. whoever is reading my blog~

hahahh just a rush of emotion :p bleahs

25th july de audition.

Should i go not.

Confirm got A LOT of powerful singers de.

I asked daddy for his opinion.

He told me to go ahead.

Y Not?

It's such a good opportunity.

AND, there is nth to lose but all to gain

Go but never get in is the SAME AS never go.

But the difference between those two is that at least I've given it a try.

WHAT IF, MAYBE, PERHAPS... i might get in right?

Hahhahaha.. think I should just go and try it out lo:)

If fail jiu fail lo.

if fail jiu contd improve.

Next round try again.

EH..Rare Opportunity leii~

And so far(almost 1 year) i've been lucky walking down this music career.

:Angilica Ong:

Yi Yi

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

OMG cant seem to get started on work..

SWEAR I M GOING TO START AFTER THIS:P...i think heee

Yi Yi say want help do something to my incorrigible hair~

hahahha LOVE HER!

she's always there for us:DDD

BUT she keep worrying that we will forget bout her.

OF COURSE NOT! lols

NEVER in my LIFE!!!

We'll be there for you also^.^

we might not call often but really,WE LOVE YOU!!! A LOT :P

Just Give:)

Daddy was going on bout giving and taking.

and THIS was what i have summarised and learnt

(this was done willingly..hahah. he didnt pressurize me to write this la):

Helping is a form of happiness.

The return is actually a bonus when you're giving.

It is normal if there is no return. it's ok:)

so give unconditionally~

So Glad that our family is like this.

give give give and no take.

because of this we got overflowing abundance of love and care in the house.

just give happily and willingly, no take.

this phrase would make a HAPPY family:D