moving on? its hard....

Weird.

my heart doesnt feel anything anymore.

but whenever my brain think of what we used to be and do,

those little droplets will just keep falling.

Non-stop.

seriously-.- i mean isit even worth???

this is lame. goto stop likeee.... NOW!

Freak man. wth :/

Honestly, u cant be frens with someone u still love-.-

come on la. true right.

hais. nvm.

i tend to emo more at night. when im alone.

been so tired of it.

should quickly move on and forget about all these.

just like wad i did to all my previous r/s ...

Angilica Ong

:(

:( Horrible feeling!!!

hate it hate it.

i would love to go back to the past.

what happened to us?

mayb i was too busy.

mayb u got bored.

hais..

i dont want all this to happen!

don like don like do like :'(

:'/

Today is Friday the 25th.

I am filled with mixed emotions.

Fyp is finally over le.

After 4 freaking months of tedious research and planning and designing and lack of slp and the evolving of eye bags(which im going to kill)and the deteriorating skin and the 'no life' life-.- zzz.

FINALLY! IT IS FREAKING OVER! muahahhahahha~ but then again im still busy with stuff.

Now comes the not so happy part...

hm...

'Feeling of a frend?'

When u said that to me, my stomach turned inside out.

Those feelings that i have ever felt in the past when those past bastards hinted the same thing, came back.

Well, mayb u dont know. I've got this horrible shadow that ive been under ever since that horrible person that i told u about appeared.

But then, u appeared. and i thought everything is going to be alright le. cos u r a good guy who would nvr do this to me. and i started to trust in love again.

Slowly, i opened up bit by bit to u.

BUT

Sudddenly ur attitude changed. No more I love you-s. no more i miss you. no more i want to meet u every single moment.

I recognised these symptoms once again, after hving gone through so many countless of bastard guys.

U say u might be thinking too much. well, i say not.

Hm... i dont know anymore.

It's hard to come out of that darkness.

Yet now i find myself retreating back again.

It's hard u know.

especially after the hurt i got so many times previously.

Now its back to square one.

Hard to open up.

Hard to trust

.

.

.

Hard to Love :'/

.................................................................................Angie...............................................................................

One do not need complicated and flowery words to describe how one feel just a few simple words describe what u feel

: I am sad n worried

Is this how u see things?

in ur point of view now.

no wonder u think u r right. hmmm..

To My Baby.

1 Month and 7 days.

And i love my baby more and more!

Loving somebody is when u know a person for a long time,

and u dont get tired of him/her.

Instead, u find that those small little things he/she do is getting cuter and cuter to you.

And u r loving every single moment with him/her

and dont wanna be apart.

i got this feeling^^

but...hmm...nvm:)

Dar. i hope we would last longggg^^

Ai Ni.

STREssssssss

I WANT TO DIE LIAO !!!!!!

hahhahaha..

these words come from a very stressed out person.

so pls dont take me seriously.

i.am.going.to.do.a.lot.of.things.after.fyp!!

i tell u...i say this but when holiday comes, i will have no freaking idea wad to do.

lols..

Whooooooooooooo~ stress ahhh. need fa xie abit.

but how...?

Fate of Love

I LOVE MY BABY!!!

爱死你了！！！

but honestly, love is scary.

cos u love a person but u dont know if he/she really loves back .

or isit just a superficial thing he/she is giving u.

u dont really know whats going on in their mind.

One day, they might say I LOVE YOU.

another day, they might say lets break.

i seriously have no idea y i think so much these days.

freaking hate it when my mind does all these kind of thinking.

These kind of unneccessary, but 'what if' thoughts.

mayb its bcos smth happened to the pple arnd me.

looking at wad he has done to her provoked those horrible memories of my past r/s.

i would nvr want to go through those terrible moments again.

Hopefully...u wouldnt

too much le bahs.

i think too much...

i feel too much...

maybe thinking back about all those feelings would allow me to sing better bahs.

letting those emotions ive experienced before flow through the songs i sing.

but still, hving a little of those feelings back in me is making me emo...

valentines and stuff...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!!!!!!!

:D 140211 is a day for those lovely couples to celebrate.

and of course for those lonely to emo.

lols.

but me,

I LOVE MY BABY!!! hahahaha

so busy, got submission the next day, got test to study got report to do.

so tired still come meet me...

but hor so tired go home and play game-.-

hahhah :p

anyway, despite being in love,

smth happened today.

A fren's (they are ok now though.thank god) experience reminded me of how love can be really hurtful and scary at times.

reminded me of my past r/s...

reminded me that actually loving too hard might sometimes not be such a good thing after all...

But then again. baby dont worry. its just harder for me to open up to love again. but i still love you. UNLESS u dont love me le. then jiu too bad lo...

aww

so cute right!?!?!?!?!

When a girl is silent

Read this somewhere..

Pretty interesting and a little true.

When a girl is silent, that's pretty dangerous.

She's either...

Overthinking,

Tired of waiting,

About to blow,

Lonely,

Needs a hug,

Falling apart

Or crying inside.

and most probably all of those above.

Bo Si Kan :/

today is the 9th le.

then its the 11th.

finally the 14th.

sighhh. no time luhh.

whr has all the time gone to!?!?

品冠 - 我以為 ( 下一站，幸福 )

I Love This Song A LOT. It's Not describing what i am in now though, but what i was going through last time. i think many people would have gone through this kind of feeling that this song is trying to depict bahs. Really hope i know i how to post the song here. but oh well, this song is really nice. go find it :)i recommend this song to people who likes to emo every now and then, like me. hahah.

It's by :品冠

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.
我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

UPDATE.

It's been ages since i last blogged.

Luckily somebody reminded me.

hahaha.. if not this will be like totally forgotten.

Today is the 7th of feb liao. so fast...

very soon jiu 11th liao. and i still duno wad to get for that somebody.

(OH-.- Rolex watch is like out le horrrrrrrrrrr unless i strike toto :P)

Then still got valentine's. OMG

so many things are going on. feb is a damn busy and stressful month.

cos of fyp and everything:/

Hm... I tend to procrastinate.

And cos of this, I AM DYING A REAL SLOW .TERRIBLE. PAINFUL .DEATH.

Seriously. i should kick away this bad habit of mine.

still got 2 more weeks left.

I need to do storyboard and 3D and complete my model by then.

shit shit shit :(

*Dear i might not have a lot of time for u again. till this two weeks is over. sorry:/*

Thats all bahs. wont really be updating till the 2 weeks is up.

busy Busy BUSY!!!!