Friday, February 25, 2011

:'/

Today is Friday the 25th.
I am filled with mixed emotions.

Fyp is finally over le.
After 4 freaking months of tedious research and planning and designing and lack of slp and the evolving of eye bags(which im going to kill)and the deteriorating skin and the 'no life' life-.- zzz.
FINALLY! IT IS FREAKING OVER! muahahhahahha~ but then again im still busy with stuff.

Now comes the not so happy part...
hm...

'Feeling of a frend?'

When u said that to me, my stomach turned inside out.
Those feelings that i have ever felt in the past when those past bastards hinted the same thing, came back.

Well, mayb u dont know. I've got this horrible shadow that ive been under ever since that horrible person that i told u about appeared.

But then, u appeared. and i thought everything is going to be alright le. cos u r a good guy who would nvr do this to me. and i started to trust in love again.
Slowly, i opened up bit by bit to u.

BUT

Sudddenly ur attitude changed. No more I love you-s. no more i miss you. no more i want to meet u every single moment.
I recognised these symptoms once again, after hving gone through so many countless of bastard guys.

U say u might be thinking too much. well, i say not.
Hm... i dont know anymore.
It's hard to come out of that darkness.
Yet now i find myself retreating back again.
It's hard u know.
especially after the hurt i got so many times previously.
Now its back to square one.
Hard to open up.
Hard to trust
.
.
.
Hard to Love :'/


.................................................................................Angie...............................................................................

One do not need complicated and flowery words to describe how one feel just a few simple words describe what u feel

: I am sad n worried

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