Emotional Me

I am an emotional person.

i am happy.i smile

i am sad. i cry

i am angry. i keep silent

i am exuberant. i laugh

last night was sad for me...cant slp the whole night :'(

but i am glad ure being honest with me

although u do need some prompting.

i know u have loved her once.

which is why u might be really close with her now.

i mean at the end of the day like you said, u 2 will still hv gan qing.

but let me tell u, although my pasts do not last long,

i have loved them once too

but i wont be that close with any of them now.

because i know that u would be hurt if i do.

and because i love you. i wont do anything to hurt you.

well, me and them. we still keep in contact.

but not in the kind of way u talk to her.

it hurts me to know that.

and i am just telling you that i'm feeling upset about this.

i really am affected by it.

and just to let you know

its hard to trust again once the trust is broken.

'Trust is like an eraser; it gets smaller after every mistake'

so pls prove to me that u r somebody whom i can have faith in.

and that i have made the right choice.

i love n care about u enough to get so affected.

and i really wish this sad feeling would stop.

whenever i see u, i think of this

and i get scared and sad.

zen me ban.

mayb its the phobia i get in the past.

im afraid u would do smth hurtful to me like what they did.

i think im dwelling on this too much.

but i just cant get this off my mind and heart.

i need reassurance.

but i dont know how im going to get that back from u...