Things I feel but wont say to you

I hate it when u don’t call
I hate it when I don’t hear you from for days.
The last time we spoke it was almost magical
But now that I think about it, it seems too good to be true
Seems like you just said all those things because you had to
Not because you wanted to, but just because it was what I wanted to hear
I hate it when u don’t say “hi” when we are both online
You know I’m a girl and I’ll never say it first
Cos then I’ll feel like a loser
I know that’s a stupid thought but,
That’s what I do
I over think
I overreact
And then I go and spoil everything
I hate when you say “I love you” only because I said it first.
It wouldn’t hurt if you said it first.
I hate the feeling of uncertainty when I think about you
I want think about and I want to feel like the luckiest girl in the world
I want you to remind me that you love me
Because I remember the last time you said it
But I don’t remember the last time I felt that you meant it
I suffocate myself with makeup and pretty clothes just so you notice me
Silly huh?
Everyone says you notice me if I’m just myself but...
Who are we kidding?
Everyone knows you notice the prettiest ones first
I don’t want you to become all sensitive and tell me everything you’re feeling
But I want to know how you feel about me.
It might be a lot to ask but
I would do the same for you
In fact I would do almost anything for you so,
It’s only fair you do it for me...right?