give up already.

Sorry hor
no matter what u say,
when i think abt her,
i still hate her.

you say u got nth going on with her,
yea i believe that.
i really believe.
but the thought of the 2 of u still contacting
just makes me feel weird inside.
its like u hv someone else u treasure besides me.
because if she is a great girl, i wouldnt mind u 2 contacting.
but as i hv known, she is nth like that.
mayb she is good to u but not to me.
you say is bcos both of u she bu de ur 2 yr r/s.
then honestly, i think u 2 should totally put down that previous r/s de feeling first before wooing me.
cos im hurting now, for smth that is btwn u 2.


But ya la,
although we might hv talked things out.
and things may seem to hv like gone back to how we used to.
but i think u might hv sensed smth different abt us le bahs?

Haix..cos i dont care le.
i give up trying to bother about u le
cos its really tiring every second being so anxious abt the person i love
bcos of a third person.
i really hate that i hv to be wary of u.
i want to trust and believe u.
but i still find it hard.
mayb it takes time for u to prove it and the feeling to come back le bahs
Anyway, u can do whatever u want
u can contd msging her
or whatever u want.
im not bothering le
u hv ur freedom and privacy back.
u want it i give u.

I really hope u really understand the reason why she can so easily give u the trust freedom and privacy that u want while i find it hard to give you.

B.I.T.C.H

Congrats to her.
she has succeeded in distrupting my love life which initially i had so much hope in.
Now i see u, or even just think of u, i would link to her too.
the feeling is not the same le.
which is also y i super hate her now.
why does she want to let pple hate her?
i didnt do anything.
but she keep thinking i steal her bf.
YOU TWO ARE PAST TENSE ALREADY CAN
and im super angry at the thought of u two..
which is why i would say this.
" FUCK OFF BITCH "
u want him u should hv kept him well in the first place.
dont lose liao then come and snatch pple's bf away
or keep claiming that i steal ur ex.
just shut up alrd.
ur love life has turned bad.
dont drag mine down.
i thought u were a great person at first.
Really. no joke.
But the moment u took action, you're just another freaking bitch.

" Just because someone flirts with you, doesn’t mean they like you.
Just because someone likes you, doesn’t mean they want to date you.
Just because someone dates you, doesn’t mean they love you.
Just because someone loves you, doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you."

Read this somewhere. its so true.
why do we all have to go through this?
Hmm..
Even if one day, we might break becos of her.
ur nxt r/s wont be easy. bcos there's still her to spoil everything.
unless u let her know REALLY CLEARLY.
that it is impossible between u 2.
and that she really does get the msg and move on.

Ex-es only act this way,
1)Its either she still likes u alot.
2)is jealous of y u can be happy and not her.
3)Why,is it not with her but with some other girls
4)There is a glimpse of hope that u 2 are still possible. that u would one day return to her side
or
5) she is just immature enough to not move on with her life n loves making everybody unhappy. Cos only then would she be happy.

Im really not happy now. Seriously.
And i dont like to be like this.
i dont know y u dont understand y i no longer trust u as much le because the answer is so obvious alrd.:/

beezeeee

Gonna be busy for quite awhile:/

but i guess it would be better than doin nth

cant spend alot of time with u le.

baby i would miss you.

hope u wont run off...

muacks!

Seeing Baby tmr!!!

^-^

Happyyy~

By2-2011年台中跨年 part 2

By2 de voice matured alot.

no longer the young girl voice le.

got some hou du le.

but then hor..it sounds a little weird lei..

小孩很忙20100604 小小彬&阿寶的超可愛甜蜜親親~~

CUTE!!!!!! TTM!!

I ALSO WANT A KISS LIDAT! LOLS :P

[Fancam] 101202 Taeyeon SNSD - Hoot

TAEYEON!!!!!!!!

meltzz!

Girls' Generation(소녀시대) _ 훗(Hoot) _ MusicVideo

Love taeyon!!!

not only is she so cutee!!

and is such a responsible leader,

HER VOCALS ARE SUPERB ALSO!!

omg~

oh and snsd de dance is always so pretty!!

Im back..

and im definitely not looking forward to what are coming up next..

busy months to come

with heavy workload and stuff.

which also means i dont hv a lot of time to spend with him le:/

i wanna go away again!

and i wanna stay there with u forever!!

but kinda impossible man~

sians!

bobian.. going back to my life le...

Not her. definitely

HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!

tmr going awayyy~

Another thing.

I happened to chance on this opportunity to view her wall.

I duno y, but after reading her posts..

Somehow i dont feel anything lei.

Im not sad nor angry that she said those hurtful words abt me.

I mean, even though i would nvr forget wadever words she vented.

and it did affect me a little,

somehow, her words... hm. i dont know.

doesnt stir much feelings lei..

should i feel smth? angry?sad?jealous??

hmm...

aiyah. going genting happily.

nth is going to affect me^-^

not HER definitely :)

Whoo hooo~

p.s trying to adapt without makeup le. hm..bu xi guan lei..

YAY!

Going genting again!

nxt tues:)

second time le.

going with diff person this time round.

so the experience should be different too bahs^^

i seriously cant wait!!

hahah~

Scared..

Im terrified now..

A guy likes me.

I like the guy.

We get together.

Everything goes really well.

Too well.

I fall really in love.

He doesnt as much.

I get paranoid.

We got disputes.

I got scared.

I would initiate breaks.

this is Usually how it works.. for me.

i dont want:((((

which is why im terrified now.

Baby:)

i really hope we would last.

i love you.

and its increasing every second.

but im getting scared.

and u know y.

i told u le.

i miss you~

muacks!

ai ni oh!!!

ALL the enlistment letters have arrived.

BABY! IM GOING TO MISS YOU!

but im glad u r looking forward to it:)

jiayou k!

And dont worry its lame to just leave u bcos im lonely.

I wont leave u de-.-

i will only do so IF...

1) u ask me to :((((((

2) u did smth wrong to me(like change heart, or u got bored of me le, or u..i duno, alot) :((

OR

3) if u turned gay AND ask me to go away:((((((((((((((((((((((

IF NOT, I WONTTTTTT. muahahahhaa :D ok!!!!

I love you:)

i need u!

but u werent here:p

heehee.

make it up to me uh busy man!

u say de, Im QUEEN nxt week!

muahahahaha~

I love you :)

Emotional Me

I am an emotional person.

i am happy.i smile

i am sad. i cry

i am angry. i keep silent

i am exuberant. i laugh

last night was sad for me...cant slp the whole night :'(

but i am glad ure being honest with me

although u do need some prompting.

i know u have loved her once.

which is why u might be really close with her now.

i mean at the end of the day like you said, u 2 will still hv gan qing.

but let me tell u, although my pasts do not last long,

i have loved them once too

but i wont be that close with any of them now.

because i know that u would be hurt if i do.

and because i love you. i wont do anything to hurt you.

well, me and them. we still keep in contact.

but not in the kind of way u talk to her.

it hurts me to know that.

and i am just telling you that i'm feeling upset about this.

i really am affected by it.

and just to let you know

its hard to trust again once the trust is broken.

'Trust is like an eraser; it gets smaller after every mistake'

so pls prove to me that u r somebody whom i can have faith in.

and that i have made the right choice.

i love n care about u enough to get so affected.

and i really wish this sad feeling would stop.

whenever i see u, i think of this

and i get scared and sad.

zen me ban.

mayb its the phobia i get in the past.

im afraid u would do smth hurtful to me like what they did.

i think im dwelling on this too much.

but i just cant get this off my mind and heart.

i need reassurance.

but i dont know how im going to get that back from u...

OMG. I freaking cant stop thinking about it.

My super Bad Habit and the accurate Sixth Sense thingy is rising up in me again:/

Hate it man!

lousy feeling~

140411

140411!!! hee:p

And many many more months and years to come.

I hope...

hmmm....

Had something worrisome on mind that has been bothering me the whole afternoon.

Luckily i had it cleared with baby just now.

it was really silently killing me inside.

thank goodness i told u everything that was cooped up in me.

and i really really hope that whatever u said is completely true.

Though not utterly & totally convinced,(might be due to past experiences,causing me to be so wary n on guard) but Baobeix. i still love you for you. and i wont regret that i had once loved you:)

Happy Monthsary dear.

missing you already.

See you when i see you. which is *sigh* long time away...

Your WJH forever:p

P.S hope that you would like my gift. though i didnt exactly buy it but i put in A LOT of effort k!!!

so u must like it no matter what. i wont take dislike for an answer OK! muahahahhaha*evil laughter*~

Oh and i LOVE your gift(including that huge amnt of cash spent on us today)

lovesss xoxo!

and bao bao. the angry me would be quieter than that and scarier. just now that abnormally quiet side of me is just the worried and thinking side. u wouldnt wanna try the angry side. trust me.. unless u brave enough and wanna try:p hahah

MUACKS UUE!

Everything's wrong

Sigh..

i really think my flu is thinking of staying with me permanently:/

hate it when my nose dont ting hua.

everything is going downhill for me now.

when everything is not going well,

i tend to think alot

and when i think alot.

it means not good.

cos it would affect my everything.

my mood,

the way i perceive things and people.

things that might seem safe and secure once might look hazardous and rocky now

Im scared.

im like cowering in a shadow right now,

trying to cling onto the things that makes me happy.

i need my reassurance now.

YES!

Literally NOW.

im going crazy le:(

wads wrong with me!?

Angilica Ong.

really sian man,

duno how to break the news:/

Haiz..

and i miss my special somebody~

:/

OMG. sian diao.

I really dont wanna retake it:(

from the start jiu choose wrong topic.

mayb tads y will fail.

last time all those projects dou ok de.

but seriously la.

i struggled through fyp.

cos music piracy. there is like no way to totally solve it.

they always tell us to choose a topic we like.

but then

Nxt time, i am going for a safe topic instead of a topic i like.

REALLY SIAN when i saw it:/

ZOMG.

heart suan suan de.

first time in poly life i failed smth.

and such an impt thing somemore.

SIAN AH!

CRAZAEEEE

I think i siao le.

hahahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahhahahahhaha~

will smile without fail everytime i think of u.

lols.

you tell me.

this is not siao is wad?

ANGIE~

就是你了！

Ive got tons of feelings trying to express to u how much i treasure you:)

In short.

u just hv to know that

I LOVE YOU BABY BOY!

Really. No bluff.

i am the kind of person that say i love you when i really really mean it.

not anyhow de:)

I LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOUI LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angilica Ong..

p.s dear i missed you already.

and u look super cute in ur new hair:))

A fun 3rd Apr

Been busy today since morning.

phew...

FINALLY went and got ourselves registered le^-^

if not i duno till when then will get this settled lo..

Pple. im talking bout driving lessons.

hahahah...

yea. total amount, calculated le.

not cheap man!!! Its madness lo.

Aft that went out with daddy buy BIG stuff.

lols.. now i need to get the room cleaned out le for that thing-.-

yay~*sarcastically.rolls eye*

had a short meet up with pat n kel just now.

short meeting but REALLY ENJOYABLE!

heeeeeeeeeee~

we really got alot to talk about.

and yea. my dear baby was busy today:)

so i kept myself busy too :p

then wont miss him too much.

it didnt really work...

so much for trying.lols.

but Angie Wang,*clap clap* for the effort put in

hahahahah~

im here 自highing to myself. lols

busy week coming up. tmr esp.

busy,but happy:DD

Angilica Ong.

Just My Point of View...

Been on a lot of train rides recently

Seen alot of interesting things going on.

Almost everyone would be buried in their electronic devices.

(mainly i phone)

its really a sight.

i've seen almost a whole row of pple using theirs phones.

its really interesting.

oh.AND ONE OF THE THINGS THAT I REALLY CANNOT STAND.

Boys should really stop carrying ur gf's handbags.

u should look at yourself.

its really funny and weird.

and you tend to look really gay & handpeck. SERIOUS.

i mean its ok to carry ur gf's HEAVY bag or just holding onto shopping bags if it looks ok on you.

but hanging a girly handbag over ur shoulders with ur own bag strapped on you alongside with all those shopping bags in ur hand, while ur gf stand next to you holding nothing -.-'''

its really ridiculous looking la.

i mean, cant your girl take it herself?

its not like its really heavy or wad.

i know bfs should dote on gfs but seriously, its kinda over the line.

Of course there are many other stuff.

Omg. suddenly feel so bitchy. hahahhahahah~

but im an honest person.

i dont like i say mah...

eh. if u feel u r offended with what i say,pls dont.

cos im just speaking my mind.

not pint pointing anybody k.

busy week next week. loads of stuff going on.

and i SERIOUSLY goto start my jian fei routine le.

BABY! dont feed me le!

hahahah~

Genting :D

I M BACKKKKK!!!!!!

went to genting b4, but tht was eons ago.

cant even rmb.

so went again.

this time round, with friends:DDD

Oh.

i realised smth.

its either bcos i didnt exercise on a regular basis

or its bcos im getting old le,

anyway, i got tired very fast.

hahhahahha~

think its the weather.

freezing sometimes.

but nice:p

going overseas with frens and together with family is a totally diff kinda feeling.

I LOVE IT both ways:))))

hahah...

had fun out there on my own.

missed my baby the whole trip:/

but tmr..wait its ltr! YAY!!! heee

hugggg uuuee tightttt!!!

Baobeix

Loving Someone is accepting their everything.

the good AND the bad

Baby! I LOVE YOU and ur Everything!!!

hahahah~

jiayou for ur game.. which u r at now.

do ur best &

go win it!!!!!!!!!!

Hugsss u tightttt~

i wanna grow old with you

MUACKS!

random:)

zen me ban?

i miss you already.

SIAN AH...

watched moulin rouge again:)

this is like the 100th time i watch le lo.

can even memorise their lines le

hahhah..

i'll nvr get tired of it.

Freaking nice show.

love it ttm :DD

BABY...

This is how i look when i have that sudden rush of emotion

.

.

.

AND

this is what i feel when i think of you

.

.

.

sigh...

Baby, thanks for all those stuff u bought for me:))

I LOVE THEM!

from the stuff all the way to the plastic bag!

hee:p

BABY! THESE ARE FOR YOUUUU

Baby I Love You ...

B!

B!!!!

STOP repeating whatever i write to you lei..

so mushyy~

SILLY BOY!

I MISSED YOU LAAAA!!!

too happy?

All these seem so unreal..

cos im like too happy le.

im like happy the moment i wake up till the time i sleep.

im so scared that everything would suddenly vanish just like last time.

BABY!

我发现我越来越爱你了！

每一天爱你多一点

omg*shiver*

hao rou ma oh.

hahahhah..

i have no idea how come i would keep saying all these

lols.

muacks!!!

LOVE RAINY DAYS WITH YOU:p

*winks*

your WANG JINGHUI!

LOVE YOU TTM!

HI!

BABY! I LOVE YOU TTM!!!

thanks for doing that:)

so far for u yet u sent me all the way home.

when ur home is so near only.

2 HOURS LEI!

i expect u to just send me to mrt.

i duno, maybe this might be a small thing to you,

but it really meant a great deal to me.

really!serious! i swear!

*grinning*

Me love for you is gradually increasing de:D

爱死你了啦 !!!!!!!!!!!

oh oh.but u canot really 死 ok.

if not i will sad...

I know

you know

that im going to say this.

but im still saying this anyway,

IM SOOO EXCITED!

seeeing my baby tmr!

To Baby: u better go slp early ok! tmr then can wake up early go gym then meet me!

MUACKS love you la!!

hee~

love die you de S^^Y laopo and C^^E girlfriend

hahah~ u get wad i mean jiu can le:p

NOW GO SLP!

GO NOW!

just me n my stuff...

its 11 plus le^^

means tmr is coming~ heee

can spend time with babi le!

26th is going to be a busy night for me:/

goto rush here and there to perform.

but its ok:)

i like it^-^

cause im doing smth i love A LOT~

but i still cant really decide on the songs.

anyway, i wanna learn guitar.

keep saying but nvr find people teach~

fever gone le.. if it doesnt come back tonight.

then i guess im cured..

OMG! i cured myself!!!

wahahahhaha~

so li hai !!! *clap clap* hee:p

but now left my throat.

and thats the most impt part of me-.-

better get well fast.

hehee

Hard to swallow:(

so i gave up eating aft awhile.

sian. no appetite also.

hmm..

anyway,

YAY! today is sun le:)

means tmr mon.

can see baby le^-^ hee~

so happy :p

FEVER

its been such a long time since i had fever.

like so many years liao..

last time fever my mummy will tc of me.

now its just me.

sian diao...

38.6...

im feeling a little groggy and yun yun de.

kinda nauseous also and very cold.

WTH...

Wang Jinghui! faster get welll soon~

i ltr still want go out with bb lei:(

missed him:/

...

Not Well.

Got napha ltr.

yun dao.

hais... y they canot just help us tick participate?

we girl wad

pass or fail also not counted de mah.

waste time sia lidat~

SIAN AH!

baobei is working~

go earn money ok!

for me to spend.

muahahahahah~

*evil~* hee:p bleahs!!!

I love you la!

Shout out msg to Baobei!

:D

im always happy with uue.

hope that wadever u said just now will really come true.

we would last wont we:))

I LOVE YOU!

苏奕铨 - 彩虹也会哭 (Tribute to Japan 311 Earthquake)

I really like the song.

the melody and the lyrics.

sang by a friend, Elson:)

well done on the song

Hmm.. everyday we watch news after news

day and night. day and night

everything is about the horrible after effects of the recent tsunami in Japan.

It must have seriously been living hell for them.

Its really anguishing and disturbing, seeing them like this.

We should all show our love and give them hope.

They are really strong people.

I mean after this disaster, the japanese are still so calm and collected.

No disturbance, no riots, no stealing, no 混乱

We should really just learn from them on how to be so disciplined

how to keep in order.

how to react to this kind of situation.

Really.Salute to those people.

If u can lend a helping hand. really, we should just give them help.

Be it donating money or just praying for them

Give them some glimpse of hope to look forward to life.

Is this the first blow of the impending end of the world that they keep saying?

hmmm... 2012.

Angilica Ong

deep thoughts...

The stage:)

Lols. ok i shall stop posting too much of my happiness liao

hahah.

if not my whole blog will seem very mushy~

i wanna go on stage and sing lei.

one week nvr le. kinda missed the feeling.

soon bahs. on the 26th:) at teck ghee.

gotto prepare.

the songs are more challenging this time round.

got listen, but nvr actually sang eng songs before sia.

hopefully its ok:D

hahah~

but seriously, im like smiling to myself everytime.

its freaky.

hahhahahahhaha~ ANGIE WANG!

YOU HAVE TO STOP DOING THAT!!!

lols:p

Baby!

OMG.

i cant contain it anymore!

i want to shout it out mannnn!!!!!!

hahahahah~

living in overwhelming happiness nowww~

lols

I Heart You!!

sighhhhhhhhhh...

Angilica Ong.

*smiling until my cheeks hurt:p*

:p bleahs *blush*

heart my somebody !!!

hahahahah..

You make me feel so happy today when u asked me.

bleahss~

hope everything goes smoothly from now on:D

smiling like a freaky crazy silly girl.

even when im alone i smile like siao.

hahahaha...

*shy**

a new me:D

I AM SUPER READY TO EMBRACE MY NEW LIFE :D

LOOKING FORWARD :))

F YOU :)

IF u r reading this,

Last msg to You like forever:

Dear You,

PLEASE DO NOT FEEL GUILTY.

DO NOT. i repeat. DO NOT

thank you very much.

I dont deny its hard getting over us.

becos everything suddenly stopped very fast when i thought everything was like alright.

so i admit it was pretty hard to accept that fact

AT THAT POINT OF TIME.

But our breaking up,

im glad u did it:)

Really.

I think u think so too, im finally admitting it now. that

Yes, u are a jerk :)

and yup,

FUCK YOU *wide smile~* lols.. i said it!

:)* pls *ahem* mind my manners*

i only use F*** when i think u deserve it.

im normally not vulgar de:)) really.

OH.

And good luck to ur current gf :D

hope u last long~

i really hope she knows u WELL ENOUGH already :)

thanks alot for the time that u have wasted on me^^

im glad we had fun together.

And honestly,

i seriously dont believe that u and me would have fate in future:)

TRUST ME ON THIS~

Yours Sincerely n lovingly :) ,

Your Ex Girlfriend^-^

P.S Please stop thinking that i cant get over you. hahaha.. NO-.-

Stop pitying me ok.

It's just plain stupid.

There is nothing to pity me about.

so stop trying to persuade me to get over you.

its not working...

i will remember u.

i forgive:)

but i dont forget...

Anyway, thanks for everything.

Love

Learning to b happy again.

Learning that behind my every smile and laughter hides a knife and pain.

Learning to b very very cautious

Learning not to love too hard

Learning that if one day a guy suddenly stopped saying i love you, its time to let go.

Learning that once the trust is broken, its nvr coming back

Learning that faith goes the same as trust too.

Learning that falling in love is easy, but wanting to get out of it, ahhhh..that is the hard part.

Learning to not love a gemini guy ever again. OMFG. twice already. should hv learnt it le bahs.

Learning to forgive:) but nvr forget.

Learning that a lesson learnt should remain a lesson learnt.

That, is love.

and i am letting it ALLLLLLLLL go:D

brave right?

hahahah..i know:p

heee... :')

oh god

:)

dropping it.

moving on:D

Ytd was just a rush of emotion.

hahah.

Not saying tht i was not affected.

hahah. nope.

i was affected.

but then again,

this is life:)

cant avoid de.

haixx..god.

seriously learnt my lesson le.

hope these would all stop soon.

i dont want play le.

its not fun.

i want to feel loved too.

BRAIN to HEART talk

:HOW MY BRAIN TALKS TO MY HEART:
Let go...
Angie Wang. let go.

slowly...

yes. lift it up and drop it.

yes, thats it.
good girl...

drop it.

DROP IT!

release.

Release

RELEASE!

phew~
good girl
guai:)..

wait
.
.
.
WAIT
.
.
HEY HEY HEY!!

what are u doing!?!?!?

WAIT!!

*picks up a piece of the shattered remains*
*puts into heart*
*brain rolls eye at heart*
!!!ANGIE WANG!!!
OMFG
Seriously.
Ure hopeless-.-
*yun dao~*

I give up.
i dont care le

sui bian ni...

Angilica Ong.

:D

Am feeling happy these past 2 days.
dunno y.
lols~ hahahahahahahahhahaahhaahahha~

SIAO LIAO :P

Angilica Ong XP

^-^

ANGILICA ONG

:)
im feeling happy!
hahahah...
but i have no freaking idea why.
lols~

...

Now im having a rush of emotion...
Should i move on?
But there is still a little bit of me left in the past, refusing to budge.
Am i happy now?
Or am i still upset?
Hmmm... see all these contradictory factors which are getting me confused?
Hais...

SIAN

AM I STILL GRADUATING OR NOT!?!?

after fyp still need redo storyboard.
still got design show to prepare.
still need to submit so many things...
Sian diao-.-

its been a long time since i went to the movies.
people i find are always not free.
jiu shi wrong timing.
Sian diao-.- AGAIN.

Where are all the free people in the world sia???

SIAN DIAO!!!

Angie Wang

:(

Am feeling down again.

Sian diao :/

OMG

ANGIE WANG JINGHUI!

WAKE UPPPP!!!!

stop living in ur dreamland le:(

not coming back not coming back he is not coming back.

WTF. seriously.

I should let myself be busy.

nvm can vent out all my frustrations on stage ltr.

hmmm~

the ultimate camwhores u never knew :p

!!! US !!!

people that dont break my heart!!!

(hmm.. ok only sometimes, when im mad at them)

my sister is pretty here! so i decided to post:p (even though im blurred) hahah~

ME! and im not denying that i camwhore in the past~

ahahaha~ Stupid:p

胡夏 Hu Xia「愛 都是對的」完整版MV

nice song:) thank you for introducing this song to me:)

love it:)

didnt miss out on a great song:D

i really missed us.

but since u dont want to go back le.

then lets move on with our lives bahs..

胡夏 Hu Xia「愛 都是對的」完整版MV

nice song:) thank you for introducing this song to me:)

love it:)

didnt miss out on a great song:D

i really missed us.

but since u dont want to go back le.

then lets move on with our lives bahs..

have i gotten used to it?

hmmm..

林育羣-一個人生活MV

小胖！！！ 好可爱哦!!!

he is power man and so cuteee~^^

he 翻唱 until very naise:)

my all time favourite song:D

李聖傑 - 抱歉MV

李圣杰 - 抱歉 作词：李焯雄 作曲：李圣杰&谭志华 忘了我们是在什么时候 选择放开彼此的手 忘了我们为了什么理由 才会让你一个人走 为什么总在失去后才懂得 才发现你对我最重要 为什么到后来我才有听说 你最爱的人还是我 多想妥协 多想眷恋 我想你在身边 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 还是你在敷衍 忘了我们是在什么时候 选择放开彼此的手 忘了我们为了什么理由 才确定不能再挽留 为什么总在失去后才懂得 才发现你对我最重要 为什么到后来我才有听说 你最爱的人还是我 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 还是你在敷衍 能不能够让我们从来一遍 是否对我还有相同感觉 我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈 当那一天当我们还强烈 你说过要陪我走到永远 但你却说 抱歉

the mv is a little weird.

but lee sheng jie's songs are always so true.

his lyrics totally speaks whats in my heart n mind.

listen alrd got the heart pain feeling.

hais... ive nvr tried singing a guy's song.

but if can, i confirm can put in alot of emotions de...

hmmm~

haiz. y? y not? :)

One thing i really canoot understand

is that why isit when 2 person still like each 0ther,

they cant be together.

wait till fate.

haha..honestly, fate just comes once.

either u grab it and treasure it.

or u crush it and lose it.

to me, its a one time thing.

its nvr going to come back.

u let a chance pass u by, its nvr going to come back again.

I missed you.

but i guess this feeling would pass by very quickly

just like how i used to feel sad about us.

now, its just emptiness and void of any emotions for you. hm

looking forward:)

Presentation today. damn scary.

omg. im freaking out le. 50 more mins till i leave home.

goto calm myself down and soothe out these nerves.

hahahha~

hopefully its the last presentation of my 3 yrs in poly.

phew...

so fast jiu 3 yrs le.

many many many things happened during these 3 yrs.

1. Family matters:(

2. The start and the end of many heartbreaking relationships and 暧昧关系。

how i have learnt and gained so much knowledge from these good and bad experience.

of cos, there are good times together, but its the bad times that i learnt smth:)

3. i started my singing path and how i worked hard and improved myself:D

anyway, these times were gone pretty fast. but i shant say it was gone in a flash though.

cos its really hard at times, stuggling to meet datelines and submissions.

hahahah~

Angilica Ong:D

P.S im seeing myself looking forward already:) instead of wallowing in all that sadness^-^ although my heart still sour up sometimes..

10 more mins till i close my tap.

SILENCE is Golden??

There is like a strange emptiness in me.

like everything has gone calm and still....

Too calm.

its like a large part of me has been dug out and thrown away.

nothing is interesting nowadays.

everytime i ask u to stop msging me,

my heart would sour up a little.

its ironic. i want u to stop but i dont want u to stop:/

Our Break.

The first 2 -3 days, it was horrible.

the tears.

i just cant stop it.

it just keeps flowing...

Now that everything in me has been emptied,

there is this strange stillness and silence in me.

like as if i never knew u before.

am i really getting over u alrd?

is this the right feeling to feel?

i no longer know.

i just know that i was really really really upset the past 2 -3 days.

after that i am just numbed from all emotions.

is that how u felt?

i guess so bahs:/

Hais.. if only we could turn back time.

I really need Somebody sturdy.

Somebody who is sure of his feelings for me.

Somebody who support me in whatever i do.

Somebody who loves me.

and whom i love back of cos...

it's really sad. cos this person is hard to find.

and i thought that u were the one.

but u gave me a suprise.

a sad suprise :(

O well...

I just hope, if u r reading this, that u will treat your next one better.

and don't break her heart like this just because you're unsure of your feelings.

I Went to the beach this morning and thought it through...

I had enough of crying.

the reason i cried is because our break was too sudden and fast.

and u are a good guy.

and the thought of all our good times together.

how we were so loving.

But.

While i forget the love i have for you,

Tonight is the last time i'm going to cry because of you.

because i have learnt to be strong...

but regretfully and sadly, the hard way.

Angie.

P.S everytime i go through these hurtful times, a new me comes out.

a new girl who have gone through a lesson i learnt something:)

Thank you really.

Cos now that i got so much emotions, i can put all these hurt in my songs le:)

Thank you.

moving on? its hard....

Weird.

my heart doesnt feel anything anymore.

but whenever my brain think of what we used to be and do,

those little droplets will just keep falling.

Non-stop.

seriously-.- i mean isit even worth???

this is lame. goto stop likeee.... NOW!

Freak man. wth :/

Honestly, u cant be frens with someone u still love-.-

come on la. true right.

hais. nvm.

i tend to emo more at night. when im alone.

been so tired of it.

should quickly move on and forget about all these.

just like wad i did to all my previous r/s ...

Angilica Ong

:(

:( Horrible feeling!!!

hate it hate it.

i would love to go back to the past.

what happened to us?

mayb i was too busy.

mayb u got bored.

hais..

i dont want all this to happen!

don like don like do like :'(

:'/

Today is Friday the 25th.

I am filled with mixed emotions.

Fyp is finally over le.

After 4 freaking months of tedious research and planning and designing and lack of slp and the evolving of eye bags(which im going to kill)and the deteriorating skin and the 'no life' life-.- zzz.

FINALLY! IT IS FREAKING OVER! muahahhahahha~ but then again im still busy with stuff.

Now comes the not so happy part...

hm...

'Feeling of a frend?'

When u said that to me, my stomach turned inside out.

Those feelings that i have ever felt in the past when those past bastards hinted the same thing, came back.

Well, mayb u dont know. I've got this horrible shadow that ive been under ever since that horrible person that i told u about appeared.

But then, u appeared. and i thought everything is going to be alright le. cos u r a good guy who would nvr do this to me. and i started to trust in love again.

Slowly, i opened up bit by bit to u.

BUT

Sudddenly ur attitude changed. No more I love you-s. no more i miss you. no more i want to meet u every single moment.

I recognised these symptoms once again, after hving gone through so many countless of bastard guys.

U say u might be thinking too much. well, i say not.

Hm... i dont know anymore.

It's hard to come out of that darkness.

Yet now i find myself retreating back again.

It's hard u know.

especially after the hurt i got so many times previously.

Now its back to square one.

Hard to open up.

Hard to trust

.

.

.

Hard to Love :'/

.................................................................................Angie...............................................................................

One do not need complicated and flowery words to describe how one feel just a few simple words describe what u feel

: I am sad n worried

Is this how u see things?

in ur point of view now.

no wonder u think u r right. hmmm..

To My Baby.

1 Month and 7 days.

And i love my baby more and more!

Loving somebody is when u know a person for a long time,

and u dont get tired of him/her.

Instead, u find that those small little things he/she do is getting cuter and cuter to you.

And u r loving every single moment with him/her

and dont wanna be apart.

i got this feeling^^

but...hmm...nvm:)

Dar. i hope we would last longggg^^

Ai Ni.

STREssssssss

I WANT TO DIE LIAO !!!!!!

hahhahaha..

these words come from a very stressed out person.

so pls dont take me seriously.

i.am.going.to.do.a.lot.of.things.after.fyp!!

i tell u...i say this but when holiday comes, i will have no freaking idea wad to do.

lols..

Whooooooooooooo~ stress ahhh. need fa xie abit.

but how...?

Fate of Love

I LOVE MY BABY!!!

爱死你了！！！

but honestly, love is scary.

cos u love a person but u dont know if he/she really loves back .

or isit just a superficial thing he/she is giving u.

u dont really know whats going on in their mind.

One day, they might say I LOVE YOU.

another day, they might say lets break.

i seriously have no idea y i think so much these days.

freaking hate it when my mind does all these kind of thinking.

These kind of unneccessary, but 'what if' thoughts.

mayb its bcos smth happened to the pple arnd me.

looking at wad he has done to her provoked those horrible memories of my past r/s.

i would nvr want to go through those terrible moments again.

Hopefully...u wouldnt

too much le bahs.

i think too much...

i feel too much...

maybe thinking back about all those feelings would allow me to sing better bahs.

letting those emotions ive experienced before flow through the songs i sing.

but still, hving a little of those feelings back in me is making me emo...

valentines and stuff...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S!!!!!!!

:D 140211 is a day for those lovely couples to celebrate.

and of course for those lonely to emo.

lols.

but me,

I LOVE MY BABY!!! hahahaha

so busy, got submission the next day, got test to study got report to do.

so tired still come meet me...

but hor so tired go home and play game-.-

hahhah :p

anyway, despite being in love,

smth happened today.

A fren's (they are ok now though.thank god) experience reminded me of how love can be really hurtful and scary at times.

reminded me of my past r/s...

reminded me that actually loving too hard might sometimes not be such a good thing after all...

But then again. baby dont worry. its just harder for me to open up to love again. but i still love you. UNLESS u dont love me le. then jiu too bad lo...

aww

so cute right!?!?!?!?!

When a girl is silent

Read this somewhere..

Pretty interesting and a little true.

When a girl is silent, that's pretty dangerous.

She's either...

Overthinking,

Tired of waiting,

About to blow,

Lonely,

Needs a hug,

Falling apart

Or crying inside.

and most probably all of those above.

Bo Si Kan :/

today is the 9th le.

then its the 11th.

finally the 14th.

sighhh. no time luhh.

whr has all the time gone to!?!?

品冠 - 我以為 ( 下一站，幸福 )

I Love This Song A LOT. It's Not describing what i am in now though, but what i was going through last time. i think many people would have gone through this kind of feeling that this song is trying to depict bahs. Really hope i know i how to post the song here. but oh well, this song is really nice. go find it :)i recommend this song to people who likes to emo every now and then, like me. hahah.

It's by :品冠

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他,有那么好.
你说会懂我的失落,
不是靠宽容,就能够解脱.
我以为我出现的时候刚好,
你和他,就说要分开.
我以为你,已对他不再期待,
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
全心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
我以为终究你会慢慢明白,
他的心已不在你身上,
我的关心,你依然无动于衷,
我的以为只是我以为.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却一天天的失望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.
我以为我的温柔,能给你整个宇宙,
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口,
专心陪在你左右.弥补他一切的错,
也许我太过天真,以为奇迹会发生.
他让你红了眼眶,你却还笑着原谅,
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁.
我以为我够坚强,却输的那么绝望,
少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

UPDATE.

It's been ages since i last blogged.

Luckily somebody reminded me.

hahaha.. if not this will be like totally forgotten.

Today is the 7th of feb liao. so fast...

very soon jiu 11th liao. and i still duno wad to get for that somebody.

(OH-.- Rolex watch is like out le horrrrrrrrrrr unless i strike toto :P)

Then still got valentine's. OMG

so many things are going on. feb is a damn busy and stressful month.

cos of fyp and everything:/

Hm... I tend to procrastinate.

And cos of this, I AM DYING A REAL SLOW .TERRIBLE. PAINFUL .DEATH.

Seriously. i should kick away this bad habit of mine.

still got 2 more weeks left.

I need to do storyboard and 3D and complete my model by then.

shit shit shit :(

*Dear i might not have a lot of time for u again. till this two weeks is over. sorry:/*

Thats all bahs. wont really be updating till the 2 weeks is up.

busy Busy BUSY!!!!

I AM A HAPPY GIRL!!!

hahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahahhahahaahahaahhahhahahhahah

LOVE ? wads that?

How to sustain a good relationship? (my views)

1. Being honest.

2. Having trust.

3. Being open and transparent with each other.

4. Respect privacy

5. Enjoy the presence of each other

6. Being supportive

7. Care a lot ..A LOT

8. Loving the people they love

9. share ur happiness and woes together...

.

.

.

.

of course there are many more.. endless actually.

but still.it would finally all come back to the one word.

.

.

.

LOVE ...

and always show your love. dont hide it :)

Glad we had an open talk ytd ^-^

if not i think those problems might accumulate eventually.

We definitely DO NOT want that.

Anyway, solve le jiu hao:D

im sure in future there would be many such probs but im sure we will overcome them:)

love you dear:)

*And of cos i can read ur mind. hahah the word "problem" is written all over ur face and in your eyes the whole night. lols. plus u act differently too*

HATE YOU TTM

I have always thought you dont deserve to be happy after u hurt me like this.

How could u just be free and happy with another person after damaging someone's heart.

Seeing u so happy, makes me mad.seriously.

But then again, u r nothing to me already.

I mean from the start, u weren't anything.

So it shouldn't really matter.

Honestly, the thought of revenge did cross my mind like a billion times.

but, hais.. what would that do.

u wont fall for it de.

Being successful in everything is the best revenge bahs.

Showing u that i am much better off without u,

that I can be somebody.

Its your loss that u lost me.

Really hate you... at that time.

Looking at you now,

i just think that i wouldn't wanna be with someone like this.

Nor would i want to be somebody like you.

Hate you, but if i were to be successful one day, thank you.

Gie~

event later going prepare now.

phew FYP is really going downhill for me. gotto buck the hell up.

if not i would die terribly.

sian.

New Everything

NEW YEAR

NEW PEOPLE

NEW LIFE

NEW START

I WILL forget about those thoughts of ever trying to get those lousy people back into my life again.

I MUST stop these negativity from entering into my life.

ok, even if they have to (cos we still have to learn from mistakes right)

they must be from these new people that i have met.

Old ones.. hm lets just say being friends is always the best excuse.

Or best still, lets keep it to minimal contact :)

My life is kinda back to normal now,

no painful heartbreaks, no headache-ing worries. no nothing.

worries still have of cos, but not unnecessary ones:D

YAY!

Loves,

A New Me^-^

MERRY XMAS

Plans SketchUp Model Crit.

Omg.

Sighhhhh~

Merry Belated Xmas!

2010's christmas was ok, not much excitement but i cant say it wasnt fun either.

Had a shot at vodka.

And i mean really one shot.

The main purpose of drinking is just to try and see wad im like when im drunk.

Well, turns out when im drunk i get really, as in REALLY quiet AND sleepy.

But honestly, im a lousy drinker. hahah.

a little bit only i peng le. Lols~

Another purpose of drinking is to let myself sleep better.

In the end cos of that shot,

i woke up with a splitting headache -.- zzz..

Im never going to get myself drunk again.

The hangover is seriously.....unbearable.

Eh..I Dont understand how come pple go and get themselves wasted,

feeling terrible and horrible after that.but then go back and drink again.

Hahah..for me, i experience once jiu hao le.

unless somebody guan me, im not going to force myself to get drunk again.

Other than those,

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

i love this festive season.

the atmosphere and environment just feels different.

Like as if its going to snow anytime.

hahahah~ *i just have a wild imagination ok heh XP*

The Happy without thinking about FYP and drunk once jiu hao de Angie signing off :)

bleahsss~

Oh. The curry kept from the party was spoilt.

And........I ate it -.-

Hmm..

Been super busy with Singing n events. sigh.

Really hectic life.

Seriously need to plan my time now le.

if not i would D.I.E by the end of the holiday.

And To You.

Im really sorry

Seriously.

Really hate myself for doing this to you or anybody as a matter of fact.

What comes round goes round and i believe in that.

angilica

Dont Assume.

Ass-u-ming just makes an ass out of you and me.

No, you and you.

Not everything is about u ok.

Move on please.

a thought

Have u ever thought of turning back time?

To a time when u regretted doing something..

or NOT doing something?

Well, different people have different case.

Some might regret not saying goodbye cos its too late.

Many might regret meeting a right person at the wrong time, or vice versa.

Others might regret doing something they did which they think it was wrong.

Most would regret saying or doing something that is irreversible.

I dont know..

Maybe its all about having the right timing, meeting the right person and doing the right thing.

People grow up. I would too :)

The past is the past.

LEARN and grow.

Btw, im writing all these subconsciously..

dont know what im writing also. haha

so dont ask me y. and i am NOT emoing.

im just saying what is in my mind ok.

so dont ask..

Smiles~

Angilica Ong.

TO YOU!

To people who are reading my blog...

i am not emo-ing la :D

hahaha.. just that sometimes i get these thoughts in my head that i need to say out.

but not verbally.

and not through fb (because there are too many unfamiliar people and whenever i write i have to think of wad pple think.)

i just felt that through blog i can express my feelings and thoughts more freely without people commenting all the time:)) in a more private yet still private way..

hahaha.. so no worries k :)

if im emoing, fb would hv a lot of my status saying how emo i am de. Lolsss..

Sometimes. I wonder

Sometimes i wonder why the person i like doesn't like me back.

Sometimes i wonder why i dont fancy the person that likes me.

How does this world works?

No wonder they say that there is only one such person in the world who is meant for you.

Who would hold your hand and never let go.

Who would love you for who u are

Someone who loves you and whom u love back.

But i am wondering where is mine.

I am always, ALWAYS in this sickening cycle.

I like him, he likes me.

We got close.

Then i knew he is actually not that good after all.

Then i get these heartbreaking heartbreaks

and i would emo for a while,

trying to heal myself.

Wondering who would come and cure my emo-ness away.

Then some guy would pop up again.

AND,

the cycle repeats itself.

To guys out there...

Please, please please please dont play with a girl's feelings.

she will definitely remember u for life.

Thats for sure.

She might say she has forgiven u on the outside.

But deep inside.

There is this wound that would never really heal Properly. Fully.

So decide first before u court a girl.

Decide fast if u want to end.

Never let urself procrastinate...

Dont let the girl like u then tell her that u never actually liked her.

Dont do things that will hurt her.

Dont let a girl cry for you.

Be a man.

Angilica Ong

just some thoughts